I.
I was waiting for the longest time.

II.
The Longest Time by Billy Joel.

I let the people push me
to where I want to go,
to where I want to be.

They have their words that
punch and their legs that kick.

To the point where
I,
**** the bluebird
with my eyes.

A quarter
becomes me

a quarter           a man

What do you want from this?

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wasd
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fcgbmasd
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Rain broke upon grass.
Depression rolls down my cheek.
Synchronized sobbing.

a gray sky
a hard sky
a deep sky
a deep day

1,




2, 3, 4, 5,
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moving rats
in time

around, around
the same path

ashamed, ashamed
they do not leave

i named my imaginary friend
love

because he likes to taunt me
(i am so ugly)

when a girl meets me
he greets thee
and says his **** is just a little pea
(i am so ugly)

she then flees
rinse lather repeat

love oh sweet love
i stand before thee
in absolute defeat
why dont you slit my wrists
and shoot me
i am so very ugly

brutality
normality

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5

Oh
Oh
Oh

Oh
Oh
Oh

Oh
Oh
Oh

Oh
Oh
Oh

Oh
Oh
Oh

i stand here
before you
today, with a
troubled
struggled heart

in one life
that ended
had not even
began

for it is
my life that
has shriveled
up into nothing
turned  into something

reborn! reborn,
i am!
into this world i once grew
to despise

i
spit out death
i
inhale life

Riding in some red convertible
I see the neon lights of life
is this the future or the past?

curtain
it flows

red dress
in wind

out
out
out
out

out
out
out

out
out
out
out

out
out
out

paper-
white
cold

solid
color
takes
me

abyssal
skin-
soft
rolli­ng

fingers
hair
curves

red
scarlet
feelings
engulf

hard
white
­paper
time

clockwork
hearing
now

Will the
        light in the
        parking lot
show me who
       I
really am?

This
      midnight
               sun

      O,
how
I blind
myself.

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uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu­uuuuuuuuuuuu

19,
finally clean

Nope

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                                    m           f
                                m                 f
                            m                       f
                        m                             f
                    m                                   f
                m                                         f

it's foggy out,
cloudy thinking

The lawnmower
at night sometimes
reminds me of my ears

the corner
of my room
has a light

it's pretty
     it's bright

but in time
    it will age,
but in time
    it will die,

i can change it out,
have a new one shine

but throw away
the old light,
have it die?

tossed into
the garbage
it breaks and
         shatters

the old light
that i knew
that i loved
is dead

must i forget
that love

with a
replacement?

can we replace
feelings,
           emotions,

for something
            someone?

Public policemen
midnight, are put
from muffled moaning
'He crepe black love
and bows was not ever a on
South, talk, song;
I every now telephone,
Prevent the round talk,
any the is my wrong.
The now; wood;
For good.

Time had managed to grab a hold of me as I knew it would.
It is time that will be the only thing to end our lives.
The phantom murderer that we keep in our pockets,
hoping it will fulfill our thirst for euphoria.
And we must keep it in our reach.
Time will find us.
Time will help us.
Time will be us.
Time will **** us.
Time will keep us.

fire to
ash

someone has
to wash the
scars

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Tossed into this world like a skipping stone
flung by faith and flung by hope
in thoughts of how I'll cope
sinking to the bottom of the riverbed
halfway home

row
row
row

Cement never moves.
The blackened lines
eat sunlight--
from the cookie jar.

Sweet chariots--
of industrial shades
moving, moving.

Never peering at cement.
The world is a painting,
the ones who move
make their marks.

Stress-burned beings
that run across life
and burn out in agony.

To leave cement
in the skid-marked dust--
of midnight,
crying tears of joy.

lucent
running from
lights out

Mr. Frost you must think me right,
For I will not visit your solemn woods tonight.

The Robin-- much smaller than I,
fluttering in the vast expanse.

How I wonder what it thinks
of me-- the great giant.


The bird is a conveyor belt,
grabbing brush and twigs.

Building life in a tree.
Sky blue eggs--

in the melting *** of nature.
How I wonder when repetition ends--

My room is a mess of experiences
that take hold of me in the night.

Here is the key for room number five. My mother died last year. I'll pay for the tickets. I would like to see the menu, please. What time does the bank open? Is this the first time this has happened? I was feeling tall because I had just swam. Elizabeth wasn't between the two buildings because Deborah's son had swam for three or four weeks. I had been laughing but I was writing. Roy wasn't at school because Cathy had jumped for more than an hour. I had been playing but I was driving.

The cook solicits the mundane protest. When does the pleasant care view the talk? The fall extends the towering grip. An enigma makes people shiver. The sky would scare any linguist away. Significant understanding shot the sheriff. When will the insult warp the union continental? That memory we used to share could please even the most demanding follower of Freud. I realized that in my sleep the night prior. That memory we used to share is still not very coherent. This is who?

A walk in the darkest night,
my heart filled to the brim.
So thick with concrete reality
until only darkness will win.

  The guiding light is gone.
  I've never really heard
  my parents call me their
son.

A rush of nothing.
I feel everything.

I'm like a rusty leaf.
Scratching across the sidewalk,
ushered by the breeze.

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the sky is
cloudy

much  like
the future

of this
dead man's
wife.

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Un
der
a
drea
y
sea,

Un
der
a
drea
y
sea,

Un
der
a
drea
y
sea.

miles that have been
miles that will be
interwoven throughout
my heartbeats

miles in grassy utopias
of mother's day and
emotional spankings
or slaps to the face

to death
to life
let's drink to breath
and smoke to exhale

this life of stress,
anxiety
living inside
the shadow of the past

this is so real
as the blood gushes out of my nose
the sound it makes
hitting the cold tiles

those cold white tiles
whiter than the noting itself
I keep moving on
through time

in the lawn now
looking at the midnight's
in mirrors
that reflect reflections

of her embraces
the leaves wind around us
interwoven like a wicker basket
this is romance my friend

my fireside poet
who burns in the seat
Only singed him
with these words

these words
It's snowing out
these words are waning
and the cold will **** them all

walking the strangled sidewalk
taken to my mind
and the cement was ripped from under my shoes
I fell into her eyes
her rich brown eyes stopped my heart
life was her
life was always her
a second I’d rudely keep on my pocket