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The Robin-- much smaller than I,
fluttering in the vast expanse.

How I wonder what it thinks
of me-- the great giant.


The bird is a conveyor belt,
grabbing brush and twigs.

Building life in a tree.
Sky blue eggs--

in the melting *** of nature.
How I wonder when repetition ends--

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breathebreathebreathebreatheb­reathe
breathebreathebreathebreathebreathe
breathebreathebreatheb­reathebreathe
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breathebreathebreathebreathebreathe
breatheb­reathebreathebreathebreathe
breathebreathebreathebreathebreathe
        he  re
         here

I am a dead man
a zombie in daylight
eaten by others

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You are not a loser.

II.
You are not a loser.

III.
⁡I am bad at talking.

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Fog arose from the mouth of the house;
A door made of glass had fallen to the frigid sidewalk,
(Red Kool-Aid, the blood of Christ; it flooded all thought).

It grabbed the collar of my shirt
And ripped it down to what it must of been.
Life looked at me as a child
Falling through the air
As some rugged anvil.
O, what it could've been
In the faint of night;
I might have never been true enough.
Nothing could give way to something
So clever and exact.

My perceptions filled this house up,
Wandering the steps and the stairs.
A red hot air balloon that glided above the roof.
Gears rotated inside of the omnipotent grandfather clock.
The feeling of metal skin caressing metal skin systematically.

I took what I knew and I hid it under my pillow. Away
From the fog
That grew with that tinge of red. It was I who lived
For the footsteps under the hazy golden lights
That rang out into the deep blue clouds.

Opulent orbs that shambled and shook
In and out of the blackness in the hallway.
A crook — Fallen on the floorboards.

The air
Was drenched in electricity. Wind almost slithered
From the windowsill. A wooden thing;
Layered with a single coat of white paint. Waiting
To peel off and reveal itself to me.

It is I, the camera.
My skin — a metal slab;
Cold and real.

Time touches me like love,
Feeling me up as if I had slept with it.

My brain is a roll of memories
Embedded in flashes of time.

I have seen life—
**** and unclothed.
I take it all in.

My crystal eye — the grand abyss,
Looking back at me.

Oh do I terrify?
The world I built with my memory.

I have seen life —
Depleted and dead,
Living in pictures.

Peach colored woman — what is it you ask from me?
Spoken with lips skinny and true.
She lay naked,
Spread out upon the staircase —
Like an uncanny form I could not recall
I pass, pass on it all.
Porcelain hands are over my eyes;
Surrounded in the chiming of pots and pans.
Maybe it must of been
The scratches
On her stomach
Caused by the apple tree.

The fruit of creation—
Running triathlons in my veins;
Reflections in the river water.

Somehow even familiarity
has become distorted
beneath the the raw cinder blocks
doused white enough
that I could see
the eyes of the past
the eyes of the future
looking back at me,
the eyes of the present

that must journey
behind the white walls
into the familiar unknown

For there is something there

Beyond the white walls
there are grand structures
of such stone, of such wood
of such rainbow rays
casting themselves into
    such hollow ground
in attempt to make familiarity
solid like stone
like the golden man, nestled on
the lowercase t

aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum
aum aum aum

But not if is love almost. But not if is almost love. But not if love is almost. But not if love almost is. But not if almost is love. But not if almost love is. But not is if love almost. But not is if almost love. But not is love if almost. But not is love almost if. But not is almost if love. But not is almost love if. But not love if is almost. But not love if almost is. But not love is if almost. But not love is almost if. But not love almost if is. But not love almost is if. But not almost if is love. But not almost if love is. But not almost is if love. But not almost is love if. But not almost love if is. But not almost love is if. But if not is love almost. But if not is almost love. But if not love is almost. But if not love almost is. But if not almost is love. But if not almost love is. But if is not love almost. But if is not almost love. But if is love not almost. But if is love almost not. But if is almost not love. But if is almost love not. But if love not is almost. But if love not almost is. But if love is not almost. But if love is almost not. But if love almost not is. But if love almost is not. But if almost not is love. But if almost not love is. But if almost is not love. But if almost is love not. But if almost love not is. But if almost love is not. But is not if love almost. But is not if almost love. But is not love if almost. But is not love almost if. But is not almost if love. But is not almost love if. But is if not love almost. But is if not almost love. But is if love not almost. But is if love almost not. But is if almost not love. But is if almost love not. But is love not if almost. But is love not almost if. But is love if not almost. But is love if almost not. But is love almost not if. But is love almost if not. But is almost not if love. But is almost not love if. But is almost if not love. But is almost if love not. But is almost love not if. But is almost love if not. But love not if is almost. But love not if almost is. But love not is if almost. But love not is almost if. But love not almost if is. But love not almost is if. But love if not is almost. But love if not almost is. But love if is not almost. But love if is almost not. But love if almost not is. But love if almost is not. But love is not if almost. But love is not almost if. But love is if not almost. But love is if almost not. But love is almost not if. But love is almost if not. But love almost not if is. But love almost not is if. But love almost if not is. But love almost if is not. But love almost is not if. But love almost is if not. But almost not if is love. But almost not if love is. But almost not is if love. But almost not is love if. But almost not love if is. But almost not love is if. But almost if not is love. But almost if not love is. But almost if is not love. But almost if is love not. But almost if love not is. But almost if love is not. But almost is not if love. But almost is not love if. But almost is if not love. But almost is if love not. But almost is love not if. But almost is love if not. But almost love not if is. But almost love not is if. But almost love if not is. But almost love if is not. But almost love is not if. But almost love is if not.

I am nothing
so clean
never to be seen again
pushed aside by  everything else

look at me
o, look at me
I am crying
and you look right through me

love is the deepest poison
I ever did know
the struggle of being invisible
you're dead

and I'm here
off to the corner of the coffin
but the sun is more important
I am so hollow

Should I tell her that I love her?
Would I love her if I tell her?
That her should love I her;
Her? love would I tell her? I tell I if
I her? her that her?
I would her;
I love should her? if would I.
Love I I love her I love.
Tell if her should tell
Love her? I would I love her? if if tell;
I I tell I her?
(again)
I love;
That if.
Tell should her? her would;
Love should her? her? I her tell I I tell I should love I should her that;
If tell her? her that love her that tell her I would would I love.
Love her? tell
If tell if love;
I I should;
Would love;
Love that;
Her would.
Her? her I her?
I I her? if I tell her I;
If her?
Her? I that her? love her I.
That tell tell her? tell tell love;
Tell her should her? I love if if I her? love if her? I would her;
I I love love would.
Love I should love;
I tell.
Absolution.
I that her I should;
I her? her I tell would I I her love if.
Her her her tell would;
Tell her?
Her? tell her would.
Tell I her.
Love her? her if I tell;
Would her I her I her? I love if her? her? tell would love would should her her? I her;
I tell would;
I love love love should I.
Should I I her? I love if;
If her? love I;
(I her?)
I love I.
Her I love her?
(again)
Should her? I love;
Love I;
Her? I her.
Love her? that if
Her? should.
Her?
Tell that tell;
Should that tell her? that I;
Would love I absolution I;
Love I her should love should love that;
Should tell if her would love her I tell love I if.
That I love would.
If love I.
Her I tell her? would if tell.
Her? as tell that;
If her tell.
Tell I if love that.
If love.
Tell if.
Her? tell if love;
Would tell;
Should I.

LILAC          LILAC


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jgoounceudftyp soh crutyh
sondbydiooa ooa ooa ooa
gonddybiaoo aoo aoo aoo

The shivering, constricting;
Orange peel of this earth;
Ripped from the helm, torn.
As loose leaf from a notebook.
The layers of this fragmented heart.

I call myself scar.
These gashes are the marks; I make.
A destructive path so lovely,
So real,
Rolling like a boulder that is,

I think therefore I am.
This boulder of philosophy.
Emersonian morality.
Watch me rumble,
Hear me roar.

This deadly call,
I am big,
I am so tall.
Bowling ball to societal pins.
That never fall.

All my life
burnt in skull
full of potential
threw away it all

oɟ. Ʇı ʇ’uɥɐs
ɹɟo puʇǝ ɯɹɟo ıs oɟ ǝʇɥ oɟ. Sɯoɹɟ
ɐ ɐɹʍ ɥǝʇ ɐ oıʌǝɹspdp

˙ʇɐɥ ıʇ ؛ǝʞɔıʇɹןs ɟǝןǝubı ǝʍɥʇı ıu ıɥʍʇ
ıu ɹɟoɯ. Ǝɹǝpɔʌǝı ǝɥʇ; Ǝbuıbquıu ɥʇǝ bʞuɐsı
ɹon ıʇ ”˙ǝɔpɯɔɐɹoʎ uıonuɔɯoɯ ǝɥʇ. Ʇɥǝ ɐɥʇu ’ʇɹɹısǝʍ; Is

ıubuɐʍʇ ıu puʇǝ ıu 'ʎǝʇ
qɐnǝsɹןɯdʎ ɥʇǝ osɔıdnsuı ʇ’pou ʇןɹǝʇǝ ɐɥʇu ɐ. Ʇɥǝ
ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʇ ıs oɹɐʎɔɔǝpɯ 'qʇoosɥ

ǝɥʇ ıs ʇɥʇɐ ǝʇɥ; Ʇsıɥɹ uı pǝnɟɟʇs ǝʇɥ
˙ʇɐɥ ؛ǝʞɔıʇɹןs uıonuɔɯoɯ ɯɹǝo oɹnɥbɥʇ
˙ǝ ǝuʇʇɯʇǝɐs sı ʇɥuɐ ou ʇo ɐ

uı. ˙ʇǝɯı ɐɥʇu ıs ʇo oɟ. Sɯoɹɟ
ʇǝɥ; Ʇǝɥ oɟ oʇ puɐ. ןɥɟɐ ʍospɹ; ʎɹsnןǝ ɐ ʇןɹǝʇǝ
˙ǝ sı ıʇ puʇǝ ʇɥǝ

qɐnǝsɹןɯdʎ ǝɥʇ; Ǝbuıbquıu ןɟıǝǝbu ǝɥʇ ǝʇɥ ɹǝɯo ’ʇɹɹısǝʍ; Is
ǝʇɥ; 'snbǝǝʇɹ ɯɹǝo qǝuǝ oɹɐʎɔɔǝpɯ pʎɐ
ʇǝɥ; Ʇǝɥ ɔɔʎpɐɹǝɯo ǝʇɥ oɹnɥbɥʇ ɐ ǝʇɥ ǝɥʇ

uıɟǝןbǝ; Is ɟǝןǝubı s’ıʇ ʇıɹuɐoǝp ıןuǝ
ɹon ”˙ǝɔpɯɔɐɹoʎ ǝʇɥ; 'snbǝǝʇɹ ɥʇǝ sı ɥǝʇ. Ɯɐubǝuı oɟ
ɐ ˙ʇɹopıǝ ıןuǝ ɹǝɯo ıʇ; Ǝɥʇ“

ɹɹnʇɹǝuɔǝ ıʇ ɥǝʇ ǝʇɥ ɯɹǝo ɐ oɟ. Sɯoɹɟ
ɥʇǝ ǝɐɹ; Ɐ sɥnɔ ɐ ǝɥʇ
؛ǝʞɔıʇɹןs ɯɹǝo s’ıʇ uı ʇןɹǝʇǝ oɹɐʎɔɔǝpɯ ˙uıɥʇu

bǝuo. Sı ʍospɹ; ʎɹsnןǝ ؛ǝʞɔıʇɹןs ʇɥuɐ uo
ıu ןɥɐɟ uı ʇɐɥʇ bʞuɐsı ıu ʇo
ǝɥʇ dɔʎʌɹɐı ɟo uo ɐıpǝ

ɔɔʎpɐɹǝɯo ˙ʇɐɥ sı ou ıu ʇı 'ʎǝʇ
bǝuo. Sı ʇɥǝ uı ʇıɹuɐoǝp oɟ
ǝoɹsɔ ɹɹnʇɹǝuɔǝ ʇɥǝ oɹnɥbɥʇ ıɥʍʇ ɥǝʇ uo

ǝʇɥ ʍospɹ; ʎɹsnןǝ oɟ ıbʇɥɹ ǝɥʇ
ɥʇǝ ɟo ʇuo; Npʎʇ oɟ ʇɐ qǝuǝ ˙qpɐ. ןpǝɯıp
ʇʇıɐʌʎןı; Ʌuıʇbo ɟo uı ɯıןppǝ ɐu

ʇʇıɐʌʎןı; Ʌuıʇbo ǝɥʇ oʍʞu ɥʇǝ ɥʇǝ; 'ɐɹʍ oɟ ʇɥʇɐ
ʇɥʇɐ ǝɥʇ; Ǝbuıbquıu ɟǝןǝubı sı ɹɐqpo. Ǝןoɥ
ʇɐ ɐup. Ɔɹɐǝɔɯoʎp oɟ ʇı ıu ʇo ɹon

sbou ɹɹnʇɹǝuɔǝ ǝoǝןdd bɹnsʇǝǝ ıs
ǝɥʇ ɹon ʇuo; Npʎʇ ˙ıs obp sı pǝnɟɟʇs
ǝɥʇ ןɥɐɟ ɥʇǝ ɐɥʇʍ oɟ

oʇ ɥǝʇ sı ʇ’puo ʇıɹuɐoǝp uı ɐ
ɐup. Ɔɹɐǝɔɯoʎp ou ʇ’pou ǝʇɥ uı
˙ʇɐɥ ǝɐʌɥ; ʍɐʇɥ ɥʇǝ ɹǝɯo ɐ oɟ. Sɯoɹɟ ǝɥʇ

dɔʎʌɹɐı ןɥɐɟ uı sı pǝnɟɟʇs
ʇǝɥ; Ʇǝɥ ıs ɹɟo ɥɥʍıɔ uı sןןoʎʍ oɹɐʎɔɔǝpɯ
ɹɟo ıʇ ɥʇǝ ɐ ʇo

ɹɟo ǝoǝןdd uıonuɔɯoɯ ıs ɥǝʇ. Ɯɐubǝuı ɐ ’ʇɹɹısǝʍ; Is
ıs ʇ’pou qǝuǝ 'ʎǝʇ pʎɐ
ǝʇɥ ʇǝɥ; Ʇǝɥ oʇ ʍsnɐspʇ ɐup. Ɔɹɐǝɔɯoʎp ɥıɥb ʇǝɥ. Iʇ

so one time i was using my **** whacker
and suddenly, a brown gopher appeared
the gopher said that if everything is poetry,
then a panda **** is the best poem ever written

maybe the tree branches and the sky like to talk to each other
i wonder if they're into bird watching
but honestly, I would bird watch the hell out of the sky
and eat a ******* while doing it

I want to say hi to you
& show u my quarter collection
there is a tunnel and a dog barking
Sometimes the cleverest person is an idiot.

In this fog I stand
not sure how to live
any fruitful life in this land
Oh how this fog hides,
hides something so bad
Out here in the red, white and blue
we are taught to be free
"I should only care about me."
Yet we must have forgotten
we are taught to follow society
Nearly more valued than money
For this is America's greatest hypocrisy
We want popularity
We wish not to be free
in this land glazed in haze
in this grim-hopeless reality

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The earnest mother carries her kid across the street.
She looks at me and she says, “Are you the sun in the morning that shines on the edge of the cliff that I sometimes want to jump off of?

Are you the dismal scholar who sips beer at the college bars? I’ll pretend to read a pretentious book with you.

We can be a double negative in the light of the afternoon. We can love each other until we cancel ourselves out.”

something I could not define
my darkest dreams are flat lines
and is this what I have been?
to forget it all before I begin?
the stars of the midnight sky
a light so bone dry
touched on my ghostly skin
to close my eyes

She had done it once and then she did it again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and 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Like sapphire,
the rainwater 
sporadically develops
refractive vision.
It is often not
a full construction,
but a sight engineered
to see things from most
practical angles.

I
Half of me has already died
and lies inside
the wallpaper called my skin
What is left within? I ask,
What is left within?

The past has been washed away
the future in blue-darkness
I am submerged
in the deep-dull ocean

I’ll drown here
I’ve said it for the last year
yet my lungs have not filled with water
they’ve stayed filled with air
that’s life, you know
underwater, in this cold sea of despair

But I’m Socrates
why, why, why, why
must I let this murky water
eat me alive?

These questions come and go
such as the women
talking of michelangelo

The water runs
deep in this hollow-hole
of something once called
my soul

my soul

My soul
hanging by a string
that’s me, you know
I am just the string
grasping something so heavy
oh, the hell I’ll bring

The water runs cold
turns to ice, like stone
But
my soul is alive
my soul is on fire
let it melt like butter
and burn like desire

II
Alas, with life melted away
underwater I still lay
and to my dismay
nothing has changed

I’m back where I began
underneath the water,
smothered by the hand
of the greatest man
forever and only known
as Mr. Jones

He holds me down
underwater

God
he’ll make me drown

No
my soul is alive
my soul is on fire
let it melt like butter
and burn like desire

I singed his hand
he let me go
as I float to the surface
to and fro
only to be greeted
by the lovers
of Mr Jones

With their fiery hearts they push
me back down

Back to the ocean
back here to drown

Give it
to me
straight.
Memory
nestles itself
over there
in the corner.
     Like the seasons
     warmth comes
     and goes. Cupidity
     lies in the sensual
     snow tonight.
          I dig it out.
          I uncover it.
          My hands are
          wet and cold.

her
body was cold
she felt dead
curved as the arctic waves
I couldn't **** her

a bee buzzing by the semi-truck with a click

You do dine so emergently that
sanguine trepidation
overcomes the house-staff.

Legions of Communists
worship your robust cannibalism
of Capitalists clad in junk mail suits.

The dimples of your ******* do
pucker evocatively
when you smile.

Those wooden boards—
Indolent *******
Who covered me well.

to be what is
what may for
now knowing
lowing going
rowing through
hazy lilacs to rip
                to drip
apart time as whatever
lever
sun
young
****
***
nudenudenudenude
nudenudenudenu­de
nudenudenudenude
nudenudenudenude

i will not stay in this city of tradition
it is only stone statues who inhabit it now
slowly building a wall with where their lifeless bodies
lay on top of each other until all of time can not get in
only tradition
in the city where i have been held down and force-fed
tradition for 18 years
released at 18
but to what?
for i am only a bi-product of tradition
all i can feel is
tradition
all i can love is
tradition
all i can taste is
tradition
all i ever will be is
tradition
i am
tradition
controlled
enforced by the dictators called parents
do you know me?
you do not know me!
i only know me
you only know you
please leave me
let me be
let me live
let me thrive

let me go

alas i am cold i am stiff
i am stone
i am
resilient
i am
individual
i am
human
i am warm
burning
turning
yearning
leaving
finally leaving
they did it
im free
free to be
they let go of
me

A walk in the darkest night,
my heart filled to the brim.
So thick with concrete reality
until only darkness will win.

  The guiding light is gone.
  I've never really heard
  my parents call me their
son.

they call me the proton boy
because I like rotating quantum *****

A quarter
becomes me

a quarter           a man

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ʍsɐ 'ɐıbuɐ ıu ˙ןpıɐɟǝ nɹ
     ǝdɹןxǝpɐǝ ʇǝɥ ɥɹʇɔǝpʇsǝ oɟ ɟʇuǝo ıu ʍɐ
uɐp ns oǝud ɥʇʍı ʍɥıʇ
     oʎpq 'ǝןıɟ ʌǝǝssǝɥǝןɹʇu uǝo ɟo 'ןuppnǝ
uʇo ǝou ooʇ ɔsuboıɹ ɐb
     bbʇɹnsןǝ ʇǝɥ ɐpu ɔɥıʍɥ ןǝsb ɹsɐʇʇ ןɐpʎd

I had sometimes
thought of her

. . .

where the mind goes
a star,  a coat —
on the bee

Here I live
in the city lined by the river

Here I live
under the great blue bridge
that loses it's battle with time
and rusts away

Here I wonder
Here I wonder

If I'll stay
in the city lined by the river

The ornate
lamp

situates its
light

against the
wall.

It gradually
produces

a gentle
glint.

The chair vanishes. A rope breaks. This man will open his eyes. ******, I am still here. Who is death? To no surprise, my mind trembles. No forgiveness will engulf this moment. The beach bows under the morning sun. Some of the reflection is lost. A few cracks unhinge themselves. You are never what I think. My fingers move in a gentle fashion. The moon will do no looking tonight. What do you think it’s like? The clouds do not forget to remind me. I keep looking at you. There is a moment in which the moon illuminates the water. The weather is melancholy at best. At this point, you are a ghost.

Sleep comes before morning. Forget who you are. I will tell you how I deal with emptiness. You made me who I am. At this point, the road split off onto a gravel passage. This light creates a subtle gradient. I am a corner of space. Their backs are facing me. God, it’s so cold. The wet rock looks dead. No, it is a green bench. Two dogs look in the same direction. My mind loops back on itself. *Is this what I encompass?

I’m heading near the ***** pine
To pick a flower from the mind.
My footprints leave a brawny mark
Along the tender forest line.

-And may the grass stay keenly clear
Before the sturdy moon appears
Above the trees and limpid lake;
It barely needs to be sincere.

people
people
people
people
**** people
and their dreams
of white fences
and tidy suits
and red convertibles
**** that life

oh the profanity
the profanity!
you serious *******,
do I terrify?

I’m watching
all natural disasters at once
melting all together
morphing into
this human race

american exceptionalism!
I’m dead
in my boots
walking across
the shriveled streets
of rolling cornfields
of the past’s future
of the optimism
the ******* optimism
that is nothing but words
that is nothing but hope
we can’t eat hope
we can’t drink hope

time to starve
and pretend
that we’re
changing
when we never
moved
in the first place

bury my heart in the field
in the tall grass,
drenched with sunset
for it will grow there

tell your lover
to come to the field
take her by the hand
pull her close
in the tall grass,
kiss her with the sunset
for it will grow there

to your lover:
tell your son or daughter
and their sister and brother
to go to the the tall grass
in the field

bury your heart
bury it deep in the earth.
and love,
for it will grow there