outbursts
in
the hollow

break
walls in
eyes
of
somebody's
everybody

The grass is half cut.
much like me
average.

how it was
how it is
how it goes

we have finally made it to know nobodies
who wander the horizon lines
of our hasty dreams

this is it
to those girls I once knew
who I kissed with all my conviction
they held my hands
they held my hands
is this what it feels like?
to let go of time?

fall into the sky
it is something so painful
this glorious blue sky
and the cicadas hum in my ear
and the sky
it takes me
every single time

and I'm only a kid
who's lost in his time
jotting down love
as if notes could find
me in this maze
the cold reality
of the sky

this sound
gears, they grind
it speaks to me
a communication unseen

screaming
of metal together
"work!" they scream,
work

looking
to these gears once more
locked in place
bound by some normality

the rusty screams
somehow clean-cut
like a knife
sliced open

subconscious--
it leaks out
the ****--
shattered

in seamless now
the seamless that's smooth
the seamless that's the same
endlessly

the substitution
the understudy
ran out of living
we turned to working

to **** us
so hollowly
until we harden up
and rust over

grinding away
quietly working
(quietly screaming)
forgetfully crying

⁩   
OLD MAN                                    WHITE COLLAR
OLD MAN                                    WHITE COLLAR
OLD MAN                                    WHITE COLLAR
OLD MAN                                    WHITE COLLAR
                     SAYS SOMETHING
                     SAYS SOMETHING
                     SAYS SOMETHING
                     SAYS SOMETHING

The large pretzels
from the mall
taste delicious.

However, I do not
order my pretzel
with dipping sauce.

For the dipping sauce
contains too many
carbohydrates.

For Carl Solomon

I

I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked, dragging themselves through the ***** streets at dawn looking for an angry fix, angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night, who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the supernatural darkness of cold-water flats floating across the tops of cities contemplating jazz, who bared their brains to Heaven under the El and saw Mohammedan angels staggering on tenement roofs illuminated, who passed through universities with radiant cool eyes hallucinating Arkansas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war, who were expelled from the academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes on the windows of the skull, who cowered in unshaven rooms in underwear, burning their money in wastebaskets and listening to the Terror through the wall, who got busted in their ***** beards returning through Laredo with a belt of marijuana for New York, who ate fire in paint hotels or drank turpentine in Paradise Alley, death, or purgatoried their torsos night after night with dreams, with drugs, with waking nightmares, alcohol and **** and endless *****, incomparable blind streets of shuddering cloud and lightning in the mind leaping toward poles of Canada & Paterson, illuminating all the motionless world of Time between, Peyote solidities of halls, backyard green tree cemetery dawns, wine drunkenness over the rooftops, storefront boroughs of teahead joyride neon blinking traffic light, sun and moon and tree vibrations in the roaring winter dusks of Brooklyn, ashcan rantings and kind king light of mind, who chained themselves to subways for the endless ride from Battery to holy Bronx on benzedrine until the noise of wheels and children brought them down shuddering mouth-wracked and battered bleak of brain all drained of brilliance in the drear light of Zoo, who sank all night in submarine light of Bickford’s floated out and sat through the stale beer afternoon in desolate Fugazzi’s, listening to the crack of doom on the hydrogen jukebox, who talked continuously seventy hours from park to pad to bar to Bellevue to museum to the Brooklyn Bridge, a lost battalion of platonic conversationalists jumping down the stoops off fire escapes off windowsills off Empire State out of the moon, yacketayakking screaming vomiting whispering facts and memories and anecdotes and eyeball kicks and shocks of hospitals and jails and wars, whole intellects disgorged in total recall for seven days and nights with brilliant eyes, meat for the Synagogue cast on the pavement, who vanished into nowhere Zen New Jersey leaving a trail of ambiguous picture postcards of Atlantic City Hall, suffering Eastern sweats and Tangerian bone-grindings and migraines of China under junk-withdrawal in Newark’s bleak furnished room, who wandered around and around at midnight in the railroad yard wondering where to go, and went, leaving no broken hearts, who lit cigarettes in boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars boxcars 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vase
shatters
sound

hear it
sound

this is
sound

this is
sound

here it is
breaking

all away

voooooooooooo
   oooooooooooo
   oooooooooooo
   ooooooooooooid

The little girl
locked herself
away in her corner,
bellowing with grief.

I had asked her
what was wrong

and she unwound
her sorrowful strings.

Not good enough
she was,

not good enough
to breathe.

Infinity that touched me in a land of moonlit dreams that flew out of wheat fields with overalls and plaid patterns which pulled me in close in interlocking lips of candlelight's burning of romance and that Queen album

Artificial in nature.
Humanities failure.
Yet authority's savior.
This murky-dark stranger.
  
The black pearl watches me, faintly
  
I find it hard to bare.
That he was always there.
In the corner, computer, or chair.
Nobody can avoid his ruthless glare.  
  
The black pearl watches me, patiently.
  
I have something to say.
Must he always rue the day?
Can he not see our dismay?
Is there another way?  
  
Nay.
  
Because this black pearl is still recording me.
Embezzling my privacy.
Working so quickly and silently.
Until finally, our emotions were gone entirely.  
  
The black pearl is the camera who watches me,  
  
blatantly.

cars
bars

life:
dry,
on the rocks

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Yes, it was me back then
Amidst my pavement heart,
Wet with the ink of the pen

It is time to discard this shell of red
Something too old— that has been.
Leaving it to the old, ghostly wind

Time floats— it's paper thin
My mind is intent on her dress—
An apparent sin

The sand castle turns to glass
Amidst my pavement heart,
I have to change— but where to start?

Happiness is the darkest creature
The creature that has ripped me apart
Leaving the present as the final feature

Look on, look on
To what others bring to you
Until you cannot tell who is who

burn, i
yearn

Tossed into this world like a skipping stone
flung by faith and flung by hope
in thoughts of how I'll cope
sinking to the bottom of the riverbed
halfway home

That sort of song
does not recollect the shadows of passion
                                                            it is

For Sam, always.*    
    
                       She above
                       else.

                         halt,
the business (close).
                         shut
                         time as it goes.


The enter, the
                        bed of flowers
                        (the glaciers
                        of the poppy)
                        among & over
(the opening of the heart)
This is where we take our start.

Here, an atlas planted clean.
(the golden paint,
the dripping sheen)

I.

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love
ove
ov
nove
tovue
luv
luuuuuuhv

I need all of the flashbacks.
The air is nearly similar.
In all honesty, I don't know anything.
There is a mirror to my left.
Sylvia Plath, I think of you.
Here is my black shoe.

here i am
existing
thrown into this world on a whim
without the help of her or him
her i am
existing
  
i wonder as i wander through the words in my head
why should i exist
why shouldn't i be dead
  
here i am
outside in the winter snow
trying to figure out
the things i don't know
  
the snow is cold
much like other things
such cold as the ice
or cold as the wind
  
that’s just it
as i leave the snow and sit
next to the fire
  
you and me
we feel things
with our fingers
or our feet
  
we feel warmth
we feel cold
we have senses
touch
taste
sound
sight
scent
  
we use these senses
to grab a sense
of reality
yet what is reality
and how does it have a sense
of me
  
here i am
existing side-by-side
with reality
the reality that defines me
but can i define reality
  
knives are sharp
and guns can ****
so no i don't think i can
nor never will
  
here i am
her i exist
a slave of reality
  
a
slave
of
reality
  
no
no
no this is wrong
how can i be free
yet not truly free
i have no reason
not to **** me
  
here i am
existing
and resisting
searching for something
more important than anything
  
meaning
  
reality! reality!
oh great definer of lives!
you have taken my life
cut it open with a knife
and removed
  
my
purpose
of
life
  
reality! reality!
please give it back me
so i can be happy
knowing my goal
making my life
whole
  
reality…
...reality
i now believe i know
what you have taken from me
i now believe i know
where it lies
  
for my heart is my heart
and my heart is full
full of life
(full of strife!)
  
because reality. reality.
the only me is me
and no great reality
not even thee
can define me
  
i define my own
reality,
me.

the taste of numb lightning

A day, not a day
without you in mind

Cannot comprehend infinity
without you in mind

For it is you,
this missing link
forever lingering
in my river of thought

I'm out on it now
fishing for that feeling

Of starlit midnight
with you in mind

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nd it really killed me
with her skin
a
bl
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         et
I could wrap
my
self

   around

The melodious sound of rain hitting the ground
reminded me of you and your dreams.

Thoughts of love flowed through the morning
as the rain conformed into the puddles of society.

Man of the past
looks of the future
And spits with his mouth

maybe he's mad
maybe he's sad

maybe his fear of clocks
maybe his fear of time
will get the better of him

with walking
we find the lights

that only seem to
blend together

on top
of the Ferris wheel

walking the strangled sidewalk
taken to my mind
and the cement was ripped from under my shoes
I fell into her eyes
her rich brown eyes stopped my heart
life was her
life was always her
a second I’d rudely keep on my pocket

V.

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i stand here
before you
today, with a
troubled
struggled heart

in one life
that ended
had not even
began

for it is
my life that
has shriveled
up into nothing
turned  into something

reborn! reborn,
i am!
into this world i once grew
to despise

i
spit out death
i
inhale life

You are
so perfect.

paper—
white
cold

solid
color
takes
me

abyssal
skin—
soft
rolli­ng

fingers
hair
curves

red
scarlet
feelings
engulf

gray
white
­paper
time

clockwork
hearing
now

I.
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothong

nothing
nothing
nothing
nothi­ng
notjong
nil
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I let the people push me
to where I want to go,
to where I want to be.

They have their words that
punch and their legs that kick.

To the point where
I,
**** the bluebird
with my eyes.

For Pat Stone*

            I remember you from a time once before dinosaurs roamed
the city streets, reeking of peach scented candles and boxed wine,
yearning for some sort of darkness.
            Reading from the novels of Stephen King as if they
were revisions of the bible.
            Who found darkness in a mammogram and shoved it into
her pocket along with the rusty brooches and earrings.
            Who lost love with an aneurysm.
            Who lost love with withering age.
            Who lost love with pneumonia.
            Where the remainder of her loved only existed in her short,
black hair growing from the roots of the past.
            Where her eyes look back onto the golden infinity known as
the old cornfield next to the big red barn of Mid-Western-Minnesotan  
conformity.
            Of the calls made to mother regarding how she'll die each time 
she notices something new.
            Who cried with me when mother had left me for sailing the sky.

            Oh, she was the mother.
            The mother of a generation much like mine.
            The mother who was the domestic wife in her natural habitat of
pots, pans and aprons.  
            The mother who was softer than the belt.
            The mother who kept family gatherings illuminated with award
winning short stories of brother, brother or sister.
            The mother who dealt with apocalypse that was Karen Grenier
as a child.
            The mother who did it.
            The mother who created lives and the mother who took death
as one of her daily pills.

            Brother, brother and sister now out the door, gone to make
their marks.
            The mother who was left only to mother the darkness in tastes of
boxed wine and Stephen King.

here
let me die
here

I am hope
I am faith

for I died
for everybody
around me

I did not
die for me

**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
but I love you
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me
**** me

This poem, which will be presented to the American Dialect Society,
proposes the addition and acceptance of a new word to the English Language.
This word is a combination of the words "magnificent" and "marvelous,"
known only as "magnarvelous." The word "magnarvelous"
has a meaning that combines the definitions of the previous words
from which it originates from. Magnarvelelous is defined as
causing elaborate wonder, extravagant beauty, or expresses
the extraordinarily striking characteristics of an object.
Here are a few examples of magnarvelous in use:

“I am enamored by how magnarvelous your eyes look in the moonlight.”

“The sky during sunset was beautiful in a way that could only be described as magnarvelous.”

“When a film like ‘Troll 2’ fails in every aspect, it has accomplished a magnarvelous feat.”

“There was something magnarvelous in how he made her laugh.”

“Once we are old and married, could we discuss how the process of falling in love was
magnarvelous?”

As you can see, magnarvelous is more than just a portmanteau of
magnificent and marvelous; it is a profound expression for the unrelenting and
indecipherable beauty of the world in which we inhabit.

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