another hello?
or my newest goodbye?
i want to see where this may lead
but this is how my first mistake started
a crush
and it did indeed crush me
when the guy got bored and ran off with another girl
you say i'm the girl of your dreams now
but what about a month from now
a year?
just be warned
i'm like the wave that crashes over your head
the first strike of lighting that scares
the first drop of rain
and the lasting puddle
but - - if you look deep enough
i'll also never leave you
as long as your mine

I don’t deserve to be happy but somehow I am.
I no longer know what’s drowning me - myself or the darkness.
Hold me in your grasp, I am complete (completely a mess

i'm just a lonely girl
my stomachs full of curls
my search just started
i'll search to the end
just to see your smile
i'd walk a thousand miles
just to hear you talk
on sharp rocks, i would walk
because there is no way
other than confessing it to you as i may
in saying that i love you

Like a razor to the skin

I bleed word of love for you

As each day grows colder, I find it harder to find spots

not engrossed by scars

a look is all i need
to fall down on my knees
to be shaken down by your grace
imagining your embrace
your hand caressing my face
there's too much space
in between us
there's too much distance
for us to ever
love on another
to find each other
with a dog-eared map
because i find myself slipping further and further
away

i saw you today
i smiled and stopped to
talk
but all you did was continue to walk
not a glance, or even a thought
was given
i could feel a break
either in the universe
or in
me
no, it was in me
my weak, frail heart snapped
no, stopped
i can't breathe
but who can save me?
you don't love me
you don't even
bother a smile
back to the darkness i go
back into the love-less world
without my
one and only

i want it to stop
this round-a-bout
i'm in
i believe friends cure all wounds
what if you only have five?
i won't be fine
i wish to die
sometimes
i wish to live
sometimes
so off i go
to happiness

Watching the stars and the clouds are too different things
clouds are a new form of their old self
but, stars are the beauty we finally see after death