The lies you told burned every bridge
between you and me - reality
red rain falls and fall turns leaves
tiny hands claw behind your eyes, making me trust no one
I turn to walking at night, during the moon’s light
but the ground moves me to tears
your name etched on my wrist causes my fears
You don’t blame yourself, but the green mind of God
but i see you - never moving along
stuck at a standstill
sinking in guilt.

I don’t deserve to be happy but somehow I am.
I no longer know what’s drowning me - myself or the darkness.
Hold me in your grasp, I am complete (completely a mess

Like a razor to the skin

I bleed word of love for you

As each day grows colder, I find it harder to find spots

not engrossed by scars

i'm just a lonely girl
my stomachs full of curls
my search just started
i'll search to the end
just to see your smile
i'd walk a thousand miles
just to hear you talk
on sharp rocks, i would walk
because there is no way
other than confessing it to you as i may
in saying that i love you

a look is all i need
to fall down on my knees
to be shaken down by your grace
imagining your embrace
your hand caressing my face
there's too much space
in between us
there's too much distance
for us to ever
love on another
to find each other
with a dog-eared map
because i find myself slipping further and further
away

i saw you today
i smiled and stopped to
talk
but all you did was continue to walk
not a glance, or even a thought
was given
i could feel a break
either in the universe
or in
me
no, it was in me
my weak, frail heart snapped
no, stopped
i can't breathe
but who can save me?
you don't love me
you don't even
bother a smile
back to the darkness i go
back into the love-less world
without my
one and only

i want it to stop
this round-a-bout
i'm in
i believe friends cure all wounds
what if you only have five?
i won't be fine
i wish to die
sometimes
i wish to live
sometimes
so off i go
to happiness

Watching the stars and the clouds are too different things
clouds are a new form of their old self
but, stars are the beauty we finally see after death