i'm feeling it
the drift
a wedge
i'm draining
no one hears it,
an empty void
pure desolate silence
i don't want to stay
“nobody cares”
so why should i?
the idiosyncratic facade
fazing everyone
compressing everything within
yet i feel so hollow

when i look
into his emerald eyes
i see a vast ocean
of colors that dont exist

when i look
into her hazel gray eyes
i see a road with a fork
that leads the same way

when i look
into his brown eyes
i see a beacon of light
a child's eyes;

when i look
into their amber eyes
i see the cunning
analyzing me head to toe

when i look
into my mahogany eyes
i see nothing
a void.

i (just) want to know
does your world spin
does your pain fade away
does your heart swell
like the new moon
does your mind fall
into a deep trance
does your soul soar
does your face glow
with the light of a star
does your eye twinkle softly
does your cheeks blush
with the colors of the sunset
does your spine chill
does your stomach flutter
like butterflies in the rain
does your breath
fold in and out like the wings of a butterfly
does your lips curve
into a smile that cradles your face

or do you feel barren
i just want to know
if you feel the same way
if not
it's okay

i take it all back
i don't want to know
i don't want to care
i don't care

do you think im stupid
i knew what you did
i kept quiet

you chose not to
you told my secrets
you shared my scars

you have issues?
so do i.
did you ever ask me
like how i asked you

never mind, im cutting ties
nothing between us
nothing to talk about
ever.

running around in circles
i love how dizzy we get
the world spinning around us
you spin my waist
bringing us closer
gravity shifting, i trip on my toes
we stumble and fall on the grass
laying down laughing
in each other's arms

now i lay down
on that same spot of grass
yearning your touch
from six feet below
as you cover me in soil