Intertwined with you early mornings and Late at night
There’s no other way I’d rather spend my time
than with you by my side

Man with the deep brown eyes
plump lips and textured hair
You make me feel a way I never thought I could feel again
I’m infatuated by you honestly
I’m so in love and yet it still feels like I barely know you
But just what I’ve seen I just love
I love you
I’ll always forgive you
I’ll always stick by you
I want to be by your side
I want to support you
I want you so bad

cursed little flower
doomed to have its roots decay high up in a tower
cursed little flower
no one dares to pick because her smell is sour
cursed little flower
hidden where light does not shine, deep so the darkness can overpower
Cursed little flower
always dreaming of tomorrow..hoping this hell won’t last forever
cursed little flower
is no more
She lost her battle

Dear you
It’s crazy that you were all I knew for so long
and now all I’m left with are mental scars that won’t seem to budge off of me
Dear you
I don’t know how to really word this
Or how I even feel about writing to you
I just been thinking about you
Trying to understand you
Understand exactly why you did what you did
And how I can forgive you
If I can forgive you
Dear you
Well to start I guess I should from the start
You stunned me in a way I never thought anyone could
You were like a viper
So majestic looking but holds a venomous bite
I Always was Intrigued by you,
At how you thought and saw the world
And the way you molded everything around you.
you held yourself up to a very high standard unlike most.
it was so easy to fall in love with you
It was so easy to be vulnerable with you
To knock down the fortress I made around me
And give you all the keys to my many doors.
It was natural
Not forced
Not pushed
Natural.
Loving you was natural and maybe that’s why I can’t wrap my head around what you did.
The love I felt with you
The love I gave to you
Is unlike any other and I am trying my very hardest to forget you but it seems that I simply cannot
And this may be an assumption but I know you don’t give a **** about me
I know you don’t care to know what has come of me

I don’t Know how to feel about myself
I don’t know where to start to build myself
I just want to ******* scream
Maybe I should scream
Everything I hate
Everything I despise
Everything I wish was different
Maybe I should scream
Till I lose my voice
So then my words won’t hurt people.
At least the ones coming out of my mouth.
I’ll be silenced.
Bounded to just my physical actions.
you know what they say, actions speak louder than words do.
Let’s hope for me that’s true

I feel like a prisoner in my body
And a slave in my mind
All the words coming out of my mouth
Seem to be pre-written
Destined to be misunderstood
Destined to cause me destruction.
And it’s because I fell at fault for your seduction.

Have you ever looked at someone you’ve known your entire life, and just not recognize them at all.
The words coming out of their mouth seem inaudible, words you never wanted to hear.
I didn’t know how much family meant to me, till I realized how broken my family really was.
I find solace in knowing we all may be growing, growing apart but at least we are growing.
I wish to god, I pray. That one day we all get back on our feet, and be together one day.
As a whole
As a family.
And not unknown strangers sitting at a dining table.