you told me you were leaving because i smoke cigarettes
i stopped smoking in fear
of losing you forever
i went by your place to tell
you i broke my bad habit
i saw you pressing your lips
against someone new,
my walk home was lonely and
the only thing pressed to my
lips was a cigarette.
i guess its time to quit
my bad habit.

don't promise me forever,
just promise me that if you ever stop loving me
you'll tell me.

i woke up this morning
with a heavy heart
and an empty stomach
i thought that maybe
maybe this is my life
homesickness
empty spaces
words left unsaid
and ones i wish
i never spoke
maybe its all there is
maybe its all i deserve

i want to tell you i miss you
with no subtext.
no guilt, no anger, no expectation
that you'll fix it.
i don't want you to feel bad
or tell me it will get better.
this is where we are meant to be
right now - me apart from you,
my hands a little empty
and my heart a little sad.
i miss you,
i just wanted you to know.

you were in love
with the way i
made you feel.

i will fall for you like gravity had let go of the earth.

dissociation in the shower
i don't think my mom loves me
i can't remember if i washed my hair