i look at the pain in my heart
the ache for love
i feel like giving up
cause im all alone
no one understands this pain
watching your mama die
drugs that took her life
i wont give up
i wont give in
i wont let the bad win
i will try harder
ill learn to forgive
this ache will get stronger
the times will become harder
but i wont give in
i wont let the pain win
i wont cut my wrist
i wont break my skin
i wont see blood
beacuse im a survior

a cutters song
sweet and low
sad and gentle
a lovers hope
that one day
she will get better
that she will put the razor down
and try harder
so she dose not give up
to have hope once again
20 years later

her kids ask her about her scars
she says
they are battles i have once lost

alone
once again
dad left
moms dead
sister is hurting
beacuse of me
the cuts are too deep
this pain too high
do i have a chance ?
to keep going

mama loves you dear
but cant love herself
puts on a fake smile
for her children
takes pills behind their back
fails to stay away from the drugs
gives up on herself
cry's herself to sleep
in constent pain
broken beyond repair
confused and alone
loves her kids to death
would do anything for them
try's to stop taking the pills
succeds for a little while
than starts again
takes too many
dies
kids all alone
dad not there

an angels gift
shining bright
sun light
painless hope
wishing for the best
nothing less

watching over you
keeping you secure
guiding you gently
across the land

caring need
glitering love
powerful and strong

break free
from your hatings whip
break free
from your meaning stare
break free
from your cold hands
break free
from your devils worship
break free
from your angry voice
break free

chances
you either make a good choice
or suffer the conqunces
you either love yourself
or you forget how to love
you either be youself
or be no one
either its a yes
or its a no

children children
calm you joy
children children
laugh out loud
children children
stay alive
children children
have hope
children children
dont give up
children children
smile hard
children children
be yourself

dear mom
for the times i hurt you and lied to your face. for the times i told you i hate you. i watched you die and you took me with you . those drugs that took your life have stollen something presious. a poets pain deep inside my heart, i wish i could see you one more time, hear you laugh one more time a wish indeed it is to have you here . i miss the words i love you, i miss your beautiful voice, my heart breaks to hear the screams all over again. you said you would never leave me. you left me and i went with you

broken to shreds ,lost all hope ,for the pills you took are my nightmares and ,watching your heart stop was enough
to think i would of done something more than call my dad
i could of saved your life but instead i just watched '
im sorry i couldnt stop you i couldnt save your life

its all about death
you have to take the first step
forgiveness is the key
with your family
everlasting hope
big test to come
trusting each other
so your not alone
hope is the key
to a good family
strength is a guess
setups and the rest
aching hearts
stepping stones

deaths dance
the struggle for life
is so real
for deaths hate
is still
like a whip of fire
it burns you deep
like a whip of hate
still steep
like a whip of anger
you feel it all

deaths **** is
endless pain
you lose so many
when your broken down
and no one cares
your all alone in this world
deaths whip
lashes you down
till you can't breath
and you can't fight it
this endless hole
breaks your heart

father father
you hurt me bad
father father
all alone
father father
why oh why
cant you see
what you've done to me
father father
you've cut too deep
broken down
and very steep

father
why do you hurt me
you say you will be there
than you leave
in and out of jail
you come and go outta my life
you break me down
i cry and plead
daddy please don't go
stay for a little while
let me have hope
instead you pick up the pills
and pop them inside your mouth
you pass out
than wake up
and start all over again
this never ending cycle
i cant take much more

free as the wind on my sail
free as the bird in the trees
free as the love in my heart
free as the ocean seas
free as an angels voice
free as a butterfly
free to laugh and hope
free to smile
free to cling to love
free to sing
free to say yes when needed be

giving up
is the easy way out
giving up
is for weaklings
giving up
is not for the strong minded
giving up
is for faliures
giving up
is for loners

i will not give up

goal for today
not to cut
goal for tommorow
not to die
goal for the future
have hope
goal for my past
forgive my mom



note :
love yourself, always for you are beautiful and wholly made,
life can knock you down ,just get back up and fight for what's right,always try, life is full of wonders and hurts but that's life,

God
I see now that i just need you
I need your arms wrapped around me
I need your guiding hand
Jesus died on the cross for my sins
I love u jesus

this insufferable hate
this anger
building up inside
this confusion
this raw need
to be free
this need to be happy
sometimes wonder why
i even try
i fight for whats right
and you sit there
and laugh
i tell you no
and you tell them yes
i bite back my tounge
from a sinners veiw

heaven's call
bight and gentle
hope for the best
love no less
angel guides you deep
into the world of love
into loves gentle arms
they cradle you close
they protect you from evil
their wings spread wide

there they lay full of hope
there they stay
arms open wide
they pull you in
they whispear in your ear
telling you what not to do

hopeing for the best
loves first kiss

hey, hey little girl
its going to be okay
the sun is shining on the other side
have hope
and have some fun
mamas on her way
daddy may be missing
but mama has your back
hush darling
don't say a word
your gonna be okay

hoping you wont say goodbye
hoping you would stay
hoping for that gentle look
upon  your simple gaze
let me love you till  the end
even if i count to ten
simply upon your soul
an enternal look
let me say the words
i love you

love me like you would love yourself
love me harder than a rock
love me till love gives out
love is what its all about
love like the oceans waves
quieter than the birds gaze
genteler than a hoping heart
its a start
love me till the end

you hurt me when im with you
i hurt when im without you
i need you when your gone
i need you when your here
i feel like i cant live without you
i ache with this embarssing need
ill cry if you leave

poison in my veins
you are my main
i love you with all my heart
till the end
you broke me once
you broke me twice
i can never live without you
for i keep coming back
only to be hurt again

this ache is very strong
this need very big
i love you till the end
always and forever

i hurt when your here
i hurt when your gone
i ach with this loving need
i promise to be by your side
loving you all the way
i promise to hold you close
keep you dear
for those who love me
tend to get left behind
for it is not mine

will make up for the lost time'
between you and i
dear sister of mine
don't go away
stay for a little while

love me now
love me then
love me forever
in this broken den
love me always
little child of mine
little yes
little no
maybe so
love me now
love me then
love me forever
dont let me go

love
live and laugh
laugh and love
never alone
always at home
friends will be friends
enemies will be enemies
haters will hate
lovers will love

mama mama
i love you dear
mama, mama
i miss you so
mama, mama
please don't go
mama, mama
let me know
mama, mama
Im all alone

masterpiece
where are you now
you can not denie
whats deep inside

masterpiece
your all alone
nobody by your side
your tired
your scared

masterpiece
you see some hope
shimmering through the window
you see life
you strive for succssess
you make it

beacuse i am a
MASTERPIECE

you are my sweet sugar pie
my ice cream sandwhich
you are my cholcate fountain
my blue berry mix
i could never leave you behind
i love you dear
its too much to bear
but i'm willing to share
this love you and i have
is one of a kind
but all mine
we don't have much time
i am you lemon
you are my lime
you are all mine

i look at the pain in my heart
the ache for love
i feel like giving up
cause i'm all alone
no ones understands this pain  
watching your mama die
drugs that took here life
i wont give up
i wont give in
i wont let the bad win
i will try harder
ill learn to forgive
this ache will get stronger
the times will become harder
but i wont give in
i wont let the pain win
i wont cut my wrist
i wont break my skin
i wont see blood

all this pain
all this shame
its no game
such fame
its very lame
not very tame
dont know my name
mama
i miss you dear
i wish you were near
cant deal with the pain
wondering whats my main
dont even know my name
mama i love you so
its a no

how can i save someone else
when i cannot save myself
how can i live
when i'm dead inside
how can i give up
when i'm a survivor
how can this be
how can i feel so alone
when there's so many people beside me

rain rain go away
come again another day
let me have hope
to see the sun again
happiness is the key
to all

rain rain go away
come again next year
let the sun shine
once again

here we are
fighting for another day
another hope

shes just a girl
who hides her scars
hides her feelings
is all alone
little hope
has a little sister
shes trying to be strong for
when she cant even be strong herself
dose she have hope?

sister
little sister of mine
come to me
lets play around
sister sister
i love you dear
hoping you will stay near
sister sister
ill hold you close
cherish the moments
we have together
sister sister
don't go away

dear little sister,
for the times you will cry
i will be there
for the times you get sad
i will be there to make you happy
for the times you get angry
i will make you laugh
for the times you feel alone
i will cheer you up
for the times you call my name
i will awncer

today
i am strong
tommorow
i will make it
yesterday
was a struggle
my past
is behind me
my future
is in front of me
i love myself for who i am
my gentle soul
my kind heart
my understanding self

i'm a survivor
i'm going to make it
through death and pain
through hate and anger
i will not let sadness win
i'm a survivor
this is not the end
i will make it

take you down
let me show you what i'm about
take you down
to the ground
loves endless abyas
hold me tight
love me deep
keep me close

the girl who lied
the girl who stole
the girl who cheated
the girl who cut
the girl who fought
the girl who died

the girl who showed warning signs
the girl who told every chance she got
the girl who warned
the girl who comited sucide

the girl who survived
the girl who won
the girl who stood up to bully's
the girl who smiled
the girl who was honest
the girl who beat depression
beacuse
i'm the girl
and
i'm a survivor

to the girl who told lies
the girl who hides her scars
to the girl who hurts all day
to the girl who puts on a fake smile
to the girl who cuts to feel
to the girl who feels nothing at all
to the girl who has given up on herself
to the girl who is all alone

or

to the girl who smiles for real
to the who dosent give up
to the girl who loves all
to the girl who dosent cut
to the girl who shows her beautiful skin
to the girl who loves herself
to the girl who isnt afraid to stand out

I search my phone every time I unlock
His smile brightens my day
He came like a bullet
Unexpected
Stole my heart
Wraping me in his chains
Locked in his eyes
Wanting forever
Tells me he loves me
Would die for me

the struggle is real
the pills that took her life
deaths strike
this acheing need
to be free
for death follows me
round and round we go
fight after fight
pain after pain
the struggle is real

I thought you was mine
But
Now i see you were a waste of my time
You took my heart
You Ripped it up
Was i not good enough
For the love i desired
Now
I see
It must of been me
Not good enough
Not worth it
Using the phone behind my back
You and your secret ways
No way i cant trust you
Even though thats all i did
Till i did one of your ways
A little sneaky is all it takes
And now i know
You
Were a Fake

true loves kiss
sweet and gentle
hopeful and kind
true loves kiss
always there
never alone
true loves kiss
relizing whats right
and whats wrong
hold me tight
don't let me go
keep me close
love me harder

You fool me once
Shame on you
You WONT fool me again
Trust you once
You BREAK it
You have to earn it back