dear mom
for the times i hurt you and lied to your face. for the times i told you i hate you. i watched you die and you took me with you . those drugs that took your life have stollen something presious. a poets pain deep inside my heart, i wish i could see you one more time, hear you laugh one more time a wish indeed it is to have you here . i miss the words i love you, i miss your beautiful voice, my heart breaks to hear the screams all over again. you said you would never leave me. you left me and i went with you

broken to shreds ,lost all hope ,for the pills you took are my nightmares and ,watching your heart stop was enough
to think i would of done something more than call my dad
i could of saved your life but instead i just watched '
im sorry i couldnt stop you i couldnt save your life

an angels gift
shining bright
sun light
painless hope
wishing for the best
nothing less

watching over you
keeping you secure
guiding you gently
across the land

caring need
glitering love
powerful and strong

you make me sick
you make me mad
you laugh at deaths strike
you bring me down
you tell me yes
than tell me no
make up your mind

your wasting my time
its such a shame
your very lame
thought you were worth it
but now i know your the same
you break my heart into pieces

you say you love me
but its just a lie
for if you loved me
you would not of died

you hurt me when im with you
i hurt when im without you
i need you when your gone
i need you when your here
i feel like i cant live without you
i ache with this embarssing need
ill cry if you leave

poison in my veins
you are my main
i love you with all my heart
till the end
you broke me once
you broke me twice
i can never live without you
for i keep coming back
only to be hurt again

this ache is very strong
this need very big
i love you till the end
always and forever

i look at the pain in my heart
the ache for love
i feel like giving up
cause i'm all alone
no ones understands this pain  
watching your mama die
drugs that took here life
i wont give up
i wont give in
i wont let the bad win
i will try harder
ill learn to forgive
this ache will get stronger
the times will become harder
but i wont give in
i wont let the pain win
i wont cut my wrist
i wont break my skin
i wont see blood

heaven's call
bight and gentle
hope for the best
love no less
angel guides you deep
into the world of love
into loves gentle arms
they cradle you close
they protect you from evil
their wings spread wide

there they lay full of hope
there they stay
arms open wide
they pull you in
they whispear in your ear
telling you what not to do

hopeing for the best
loves first kiss