what is wrong with us?
sipping tea in blood stained clothes.
millions swarm. stab. shoot. eat melted flesh.
millions weep. scream. bleed. DIE with their kids.
millions sit. stare. drink. eat. yawn
in heated robes.
What is wrong with you?

Those swirling gases are fading.
It’s not blue, black. It’s gray. So gray.
Am I desaturated or is the sun rising?
Colors dance in a kaleidoscope twirl
Around my fists. Stay with me.
The sun is so pretty.

will I be happy? be loved?
when I'm skinny, thin?
weighed down, a freak, monster
while everyone else is flying.

baby, how do you love something
like me? this rotten bag of flesh.
I wish I was better for you.

They’re everywhere. Let me hide.
I can’t face them.
Piercing, stabbing.
What do they know? Do they know?

What’s behind your irises?
They’re beautiful. They’re terrifying.
Two, but they’re multiplying.
Stop. Make them stop.

Is it fine? I don’t know why,
But I need your approval.
My last finger’s holding on now.
Can I let go? I’m sure you’ll be fine.

If I fall, what will I leave behind?
Will you still love me?
Is all of this for nothing?
Just let me know.

I’m sure you’ll be fine.

what's my name?
can you tell me
I must have forgot
something new is bothering me
I can't seem to escape my brain
it's lonely
it's boring
it's everything.

It’s not the same
You know I wish you were here
don’t you? Dedication to the tree.
She doesn’t know you. I hate it.

Old videos, pictures, memories
I hate them now.
I hate that I hated them then.
You then. I wish you were here.

You’re not. You’re not coming back.
I cant stop thinking, wishing, dreaming.
You’re here. I’m happy. Everyone’s
normal again.