I am nothing.
Swallow my pills and thoughts
To an empty abyss at the end of my throat
Scream raw, ***** in a vacuum
Can anyone hear me?
Please?
I am nothing. dont let me be-

Is my skull eroded, decayed?
I want something more- to be something more.
But how can I be anything more
than this?

Petals shrivel at the brush of my fingers.
Icicles drip off moth eaten clothes.
I’m forced to exist. Why?

Why do I feel this way?
I promised I would never.
I don’t deserve you, baby.
You know I’m right.

But maybe I’m allowed this one gift.
Your twinkling eyes, your Saturn smile.
If only I knew it would last.
If only I wasn’t so afraid.

My love. Mine.

Don’t undress me
With your eyes.
I wish I could show you-
Raised, jagged, ugly marks
But I can’t.

So we dance
With clothes on,
Until you get bored.

Why would I give you my heart?
I know you’re going to break me.
Why would you break me?
Take it back, baby.
Take it all back.
You didn’t mean it right?
Say you didn’t mean it.

I loved you.
But I’ll take it back.

Little snowflakes plummet behind glass panes.
Are they mocking me?
Do they know? Can they see my arms and legs?

A car shivers beneath street lights.
Will she know when I’m gone? Is she sad I left her
Alone?

Do you wish I was more, baby?
That I could say ‘I love you’
In more than a whisper-
That I could hold your hand
Without shrinking-
Whats wrong with me, baby?
It’s not fair.