I’m disgusting
I think I’m going to spill my guts
All over myself
I can’t stand it
Living in this skin
In this mind
I’m trapped
Help me! I can’t get out!
Please!

nothingness buzzes—
static sharp—
from a box screen
the galaxy spins
around my legs, arms, chest

take me with you.

i want to fly away
far far away
if i close my eyes i can feel it
my arms shifting, breaking apart
morphing, forming-
into mangled raven wings
the window calls for me
i'm flying-
flying-
my wings are gone.

I hate this game
To stagnate to move
To care-
So why are my eyes leaking?
Why is my throat raw?

What is this?
You’re a moonbeam-
It’s so blinding
So binding

Seep through the cracks of my skin
Gnaw at my veins
My heartbeat slows.
Can you feel it?

Tell me we’re alright?

I don’t want the curtains to close
The shows not over
You’re my love-
Say I”m yours
Its so hard to give up
Hold on-
Shelter me from my mind.

You’re my love-
Say I’m yours

When will this end?
Is it too good for me to last?
Why do you love me?
When are you leaving?

Can you see me?
Im looking, but the world blends away.
There’s so much on my mind.
What about you?

Baby-
What are you thinking?
Why is it so hard to live in this moment?
What are you thinking?
Where did you go?
Are you still here?

I love you, baby-
What are you thinking?

How are you willing to give yourself to me?
I can’t seem to get close
limbs frozen solid
Im terrified to be so open

But you’re so warm
Melt me
Arms wrap and scorch my waist
******* lips
Im still so terrified.