We talked for the first time in forever
Seeing you made me happier than I already was
I joked and brought a smile to your face
You joked but it didn't sound like a joke
You said it so I guess it's true
We would never work out
You don't see us happening
So I guess I should drop the hope we will

People in my family look at me and say
Where has the time gone
All I say back is
Away

They look at me and say it all the time
Things like why did you grow up so fast?
Or stop growing up

I look at them and say
Something like what are you talking about? It took me years to look this fabulous
Or if I could I would

Sometimes my comebacks are silly
Sometimes they are serious

There is just that one question that I hate being asked
Where did that little girl go?
To that I say
She grew up
But in my head I think
she died a long time ago

They ask it all the time
And I say something different every time
But I always think the same thing

*that little girl died a long time ago

I miss her
My sister
You know the one I used to have
The happy one
The one who laughed with me
Played games with me
And watched movies with me

But she went away years ago
Now I had an isolated sister
One that lied to me
Yelled at me
And threatened me

Now you're all grown up and moved out
You work all the time
Have a son I get to babysit
And have your own place
I'm happy for you
But I miss you

Of the 3 different sides of you
The happy, kind, loving side
The mean, lying, hurtful side
And the working, adult side
The happy sister I once had is the one I will always remember
But no matter what side of you I see I will always love you
Because you are my older sister
No matter what happens


(Side story) I remember once when I was younger I was really upset and I was crying so my sister took me to get some ice cream from the selma pantry and she got me a cookie from pizza king with her own money.

These are the things I choose remember the fun things not the bad things.

They say I'm
Annoying, stupid, good for nothing
*****, ****, *****, ugly, fat, weird.

They say all those rude things
To my face
Everyday

I say I'm
Cool, layed back, smart, good for something
Not a **** or a *****, beautiful,
Amazing just the way I am

Being a ***** is hard work
But someone has to do it

I am how god made me
I will stay that way
Forever

Love youreslf
No matter what people say

<3

I'm falling
In slow motion

And he is the one
The one who pushed me

Pushed me down
This never ending hole

I'm falling
Slowly

He pushed me down this hole
Then jumped with me

We are falling together
Then we hit the bottom