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Ruby Nemo Apr 2019
you've abandoned your brain for a good time

too sweet for me
you're the ache in my teeth

I always seem to go back to the same songs
I always fall asleep in someone else's bed
tell me something of substance
to make up for this meaning-stripped world
04-22-19
Ruby Nemo Apr 2019
let's act like it's all okay
for I cannot thrive without you
although I am proud of who I am,
I'm sorry for not feeling the way I want to feel.

I'm sorry for not loving you anymore.

no one can fill this space you create
a cure for my loneliness
a distraction from pain
(so come back to me, come back to your girl)
I'll tell you how I feel if you provide what I need.

it's a shame you can't be perfect for me,
please just adore me like I've asked you to.
and my sobbing *** would kiss your face,
every time you muttered "goodbye."

I'll shiver with you against this cold

you laugh like you're mine, but it's just not our time
my mind has been betraying me.
my mind has a habit of betraying me.
and I still belong to you,
so teach me how to erase your memory
when I'm out of the loop on your life

and these drunken decisions haunt me in segments.

I'm hopeless for the future
and it's all because of you
deceit is a skill, and I'm willing to learn.

I'm surprised at my own indifference
when something so real becomes distant
my friends turning into strangers
my nights turning into days.

I long to dance in your world,
to feel the solemn comfort of your arms around me
but I can't seem to find the line between the good and the insane.

I've cried tears of pain in your absence
leaving me with no person to turn to

[ I've found a rebound, it feels like I'm dream-bound
a more painless route for my heart to depart
I can't bear the pain a second time around ]

hookup with a looker
I can't do it anymore
unfulfilled and out of time.
thinking meaningless things matter.
making time for purposeless friends.
I can't sleep 'cause this brain of mine is on overdrive

craving a smoke to forget you
hoping your heaven is full of debris
when I'm left to myself, that's when I'm free
and I'm star-kissed under the moon

I was in love, I was abandoned.

to be in love, to be abandoned.

to be consumed by a brand new best friend,
you've swept me off my feet, and I know you will never let go.
04-13-19.
Ruby Nemo Apr 2019
my time is spent in funny ways
my love is spent on solemn Tuesdays
switch my ring, your words still sting
and I'm left to my own devices

you're a color I've never seen before
an act I cannot distinguish
though my love is spent in funny ways
your heart can never hold all of my rage

because what am I to do,
when I wake up with a headache and intent to enjoy
and it's evident in a heartbeat

my violets are withering
my eyes are glazing over
over, begin, what are we to do?
04-10-19.
Ruby Nemo Apr 2019
Venus returns to my heart once again
Lovers before we had the chance to be friends
As the stars rip their holes in the open night sky
So you've ripped a hole in this poor faultless soul
I've heard of your hell, but I've lived in your heaven
Call me a breathing home for your poetic projections
Let me become your burden
Let me be all your songs
When you say that it's you
But I know that it's not
I'll nurture your being and await your return
03-27-19 A little poem for my wittle steve
Ruby Nemo Apr 2019
our heat is rising above us
when I was taken to heaven in a mini van
maybe I feel like reliving,
maybe I want to relive
an afternoon with a bad man

wake me up when it's over
wake me up when he's gone
the day is too real to sleep

the urge to give in comes easy

tip your hat, hail a cab
a new destination for you to take me
take my mind, this body's a shell
I can't seem to burden you with a simple farewell
04-04-19
Ruby Nemo Mar 2019
which night out would best suppress
the draining, helpless, high unrest?
your word beckons a solemn walk
up to your damning throne.

give the girl the last of you
the hardships that they've put you through
for today's the bitter end
to an endless raining sky.

my heart beats like hurried footsteps
upon a chest of grief,
but when they follow you around
and scurry through your hollow traps.
03-30-19
Ruby Nemo Mar 2019
I know I am acting strange
but you asked for all of me
So here I am, in dirt and grit
Do with me what you will
Fulfillment's overrated
and now I'm seeing stars
Disoriented on a train track
I'm working myself to the bone
a war I've already won
Though they see me as weak,
I could do this for hours . . .
I'll staple your notes to the ceiling
Just to fall asleep to you
I'm stealing satisfaction
as you steal your parent's car
for a stolen moment with me
We'll sink too deeply, I don't know why
I'm still so inclined
to leave family behind
Because if you ask me,
Your love is all blind
I laugh when they say bind
No matter what, you'll be forever for me
03-23-19
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