Ruby Nemo

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

a bad night, good girl

with missed opportunities and a realm of mistake

travel to the past that disappointed her once before

high and lacking information

as the world moves

. . . slowly . . .

praying for an end to a night so short

leave her! don't speak!

a song to distract and a drink to recover

a breath of fresh air and a car to take cover

she's never felt alone like this

always surrounded by a welcoming world

a decision took three seconds

to discredit a lifetime of virtue

she wants to come down

but the moon promises a fun time

useless vows and thoughts disregarded

help her, she's sinking . . .

a car seat to catch her and jolting her back

tremble, shiver, she needs a new way

to stay true to herself

in the midst of decay.

08-29-18

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

Fake Famous

reasonable doubt uplifting my heavy head
a conscience too regulatory
it needs the freedom of a summer's way
reassure me of the death I hold dear

whisper, protect it, erase it, my dear...
to which I hold dear, we aren't stopping here
alone yet conceited, revenge in the air
step soft on this ground as you lighten the eyes
a hidden soul, that no one shall know
dead as a Hollywood lie

as you sing me to sleep I will plot the next step
for future days when you say that you'll stay
but leave it all without a word.

holes in the sky that allow for a dream
to creep out and hover when everything seems
to weigh down the night
don't grab her hand tight
'cause we'll faint and not understand why.

09-12-18

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

Where Pain Lurks

today I'm insane
thinking of ways to occupy this brain
I'm empty-handed , hopeless even . . .
you're like a light
and I'm drawn to you
all the ways that you move
a glowing perception
so beautiful I must . . .

but touch it I do , and it's not enough
so I take it and swallow
the light moving through
the lungs and the heart , it tears me apart
it burns , like a flame
it's painful , your love
how can something so attractive . . .
be dangerous ?

09-18-18

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

Familiar Demeanor of a Friend

skimming a surface with help from the fortunate
along the lines of doubt I walk
settling for something, unsure of the outcome
when all is said and done, we're one

read yourself into a mood
of glory and pain, it's all the same
closed off and solitarily occupied
by the mouth of a thief, hollow and daunting

arisen like a storm
weighted by the sound
of your keys hitting the ground
with the lonely I take refuge

09-11-18

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

Lonely Dad

waiting, portraying
all the instances of territory explored
higher above all the ones
you're in love
an admission, I'll tell you why
gutted and misconceived
like a treacherous body of solitude perceives
staring out, frozen solid like a beam
of light to the rescue, the idea is unfinished
you're too much of a risk to take hold of
alone and confined
crowded, out of time
if you'd show me, I'd rock on
this party starts at dawn
held captive like a son of a . . .
well, I don't know, can't think of the show
dripping from sweat in this maze
a house that I'll set ablaze

09-06-18

Ruby Nemo Sep 2018

To Capture a Cold Heart

sympathy in the lowest state
an aching pain you can't escape
today, we're fearless
doesn't matter how they feel back home.

a single whisper
a million more
I'm hopeless without one foot out the door

you're high on that ****, don't know what it is
another delusion to satisfy
comparing each one to the dream of a man
a flicker that enters my life
and leaves like I did something wrong
when it was his head all along

a fleeting image
it's dangerous
a little old soul
to capture a heart in the cold

09-05-18

Ruby Nemo Aug 2018

Ghost Girl

it's torture to remain silent
a pain to restrain what I feel
it's tempting and agonizing, in an attempt to deal
all I want is to speak
and to reach out to you
to create a buffer between this life and that
you blur the lines best
so while you're here,
I'll get this off my chest.

08-30-18