She adds contrast to my life
She can turn anxiety into ease,
Fear into comfort, anger into calm
She adds color to my cheeks just above my pale lips
My cold fingers melt as I trace her warm skin
And when I hold her close
She melts my cold heart
When I am in her arms
Time stops and I want to stay there forever

She is the perfect contrast
She balances out my disaster
with her perfection

I have tremors

I have no control of my hands shaking
As calm as I may be, I have tremors
And when I get anxious or anything
The shaking is far, far worse

Yet all I ask is for her hand to hold
And I will never let go
And I hope she will hold on
No matter how bad my fingers tremble

you are the prayer
and i, the sinner

you are my last salvation
you are what i utter
over and over

for years now
i've been praying
that God would send me an angel

and it's also a coincidence
that you are named
after an angel

you left me
two years ago

what made you change your mind?
i look back at all our memories
how happy we were
and how our love seemed perfect
then suddenly you told me
that your feelings faded

years later
i'll admit, i haven't fully gotten over you
but now, i look at you
the person who once loved me
the person who changed her mind
the person who left me

i recall in my brain
the woman i loved
but i look at you now
so much of you has changed

this is not the soul that i used to know
this is not the same person
that i loved two years ago

What if one day you'll wake up
And realize you still love me
And regret everything you said
And the time we wasted away from each other

What if one day you'll wake up
Aching for my kiss again
For these lips that utter 'I still love you'
Will forever crave your mouth.

What if one day you'll wake up
Cold and freezing
And you wish to be in my arms
I would gladly wrap you in my love.

What if one day I'll wake up
And hear you knock on my door
With tears in your eyes
Apologizing
I would gladly take you back, my love
But then again, what if

If I were to end my life
with a gun aimed at my temple,
just know, my love,
the bullet wouldn't be
the last thing inside my brain.
The last thing on my mind
would be you.