A little girl so naïve
So young
She didn’t know what love was
She didn’t know anything
She did know trust
She trusted him and thought he would never do her wrong
He was older
Like a big brother in a sense
The next door neighbor
The one she could depend on to look out for her
They spend days fishing, nights laughing
Happiness was all she knew
He grew older
She did not
He knew what he wanted
She didn’t have a clue
He asked her to do it
She knew it was wrong
He said it wouldn’t hurt
She was too young
He touched her
She laid there
He touched her more
She was stiff as a board
He climbed on top
She felt the pain
His breath picked up
Hers seemed to stop
He was done and left
She stayed and cried
A year passed and things seemed alright
Nothing else happened
She thought it was over
She was naïve and young
She never understood what had happened
He came to her again
He threatened
She was afraid
He touched her
She looked away
He moaned and sighed
She was stiff
His muscles tense
Her mind forced numb
He got off
She just stayed there
“Get your clothes on”
That’s what he said
Before he left
Now she’s left broken
After what he’s done
The boy that she’d trusted
Well he broke it all in her
Now she can’t even speak his name
She’s got to learn it again
She’s got to regain her pride
And all the tears, she’ll hide
The last thing she wants is for him to see her cry
He may have stolen from her what she can’t get back
But now she’ll make it alright
She won’t look back

Broken ambition
Lost in admiration
Of a life that seems so appealing
But, in the end is only demeaning
Because your worth is not based of a boy
But, to you, of course it is
Because with the people in your life
Who have done nothing but criticize and fight
And treat you like ****
And leave you regretting it
It's just so sad with so much potential
But, it's all the wrong things that are influential
On your life and your actions
People have done you wrong
And it makes you succumb
To all the easy roads in life
Becoming a broken wife
To some pill-pusher with no job
Who beats on you day in and day out
But, you'll say he loves you
Because he ***** you
You think he does
But he DOESN'T
That I wish I could make you see
No boy and no man can ever be
Your source for happiness in this life
Because in the end it is only you
Only you in the world
You against the world
You laughing with the world
You crying with the world
And if you can't be happy with the world
There is no can't
There is only won't
And no one can force you to see
The woman that you're meant to be
But, I can tell you it isn't this
Picking the piece just because it kind of fits
Please be careful
I don't want to get that call or see that post
I don't want to see you on the 11 o'clock news
I don't want to have to visit your grave
And I don't want to have to visit your prison cell
All because you can't see what you're worth
And what potential you have in the world
So I pray that tomorrow you wake up
And you see that worth.

This familiar feeling
Upon the leave of my love
The tears and sadness well
So many tears have already fell
On your t-shirt staining the white
I still cry with you holding me tight
Then when I look in your eyes
I can't help but crack a smile
because I know
And you know

Out at your car
Waiting for you to leave
Stalling with words
Nearly an hour goes passed
A series of hugs and of kisses
The first step is to get in your car
How I wish I were coming with you
Tears well up inside
Then I look at you
I can't help but to crack a smile
Because I know
And you know
You'll be coming again.

All along I thought you were there to help me
Little did I know you were the cause of everything
All the tears and all the pain
When I just wanted to take it all away
It damaged so much
Nearly took all of me away
But, now that you're gone
I get to put the pieces back the way they came
No longer shrouded in your shadow
Seeing the sun for the first time in months
Hurts my eyes and makes them tear
What do you expect after a year?
But, the pain will slowly fade
Day and day, it'll get better
That's more than I can say for you
I'm not the only one who needs a mirror
But it's not about you anymore
As it never should have been
Who knew that I was never broken
It was just you telling me your truth
You wanted power to cover the pain
I let you touch my heart, now it's stained
But, without your shadow over me
Finally, I can breathe.

Cut me open like a knife
And let the words come pouring out
Onto this steel plated table
As you cut it all out
What is this all about?

Watch me bleed out
Never once trying to stitch me up
Never once holding me
Telling me it'll be okay.

And all the while you told me you'd stay

Please explain to the next one
Why it's so **** hard to hold on
Why it's so **** hard to let go
When you just gave up from the start
Explain to the next one
Exactly what happened to my heart.

Now watch me bleed out
On this table we built with our love
I was naked and bare
Laying, waiting for you to come back
Watch me bleed out as you turn and leave me again

And tell me again and again and again
How it's my fault we're broken and bent...
Tell me again and again that I didn't try
Then look at these cuts, these bruises, these scars
And tell me you didn't help rip me apart...

Cuz you watched me bleed out
Never once trying to stitch me back up
You saw I was dying and you wanted out
Guess I can't blame you
Because I'd do the same
Pack up your things and leave me to blame

And you said all the while that you'd stay...

Did that just happen?
Or was it just a dream?
Maybe I'll just lead myself to believe
That it was all a dream
Including the scent of your skin
And the feel of your lips
Against mine in the pale moonlight
And your warmth swallowing me once again
I'll convince myself it was a dream
So I don't get burned again.

But, it felt so different
Like we were starting again
Two new people in two new lives
Two people with the tools to make it through
With the tools to start anew
Feeling the same would have been great
But, I would have had to politely depart
Because it would have been the same road
Just a different time
Same place
But, it felt so different.

I think it's safe to let myself believe
It was all just a dream
But, you know me
I was never one to be safe
But, I've turned a new leaf
So it'll remain a dream
For now...
Just let me know if I'm wrong
Let me know if it happened
Let me know if we really sang that song
Because I meant every word I said
When I said I was in it for the long haul
We may be a little bent
But, we can learn to love again
Oh...and there I go...

Saying the things we never said
How can this be the end?
Even if it was just a dream
It's one I hope to have again
And again and again
Well, you get the idea
So just let me know
There's no rush to the end
Though I'll always be there for you, friend
Even if it's only a dream
I'll be with you until the bitter end
Call me a hopeless romantic
For these love driven antics
But, since you've been gone things just got so clear
And, in all honesty, I have nothing to fear
Because even if it was a dream
My eyes will always gleam
Because you helped give me strength
A voice
You helped me find my own mind
And that isn't a dream.

Did that happen?
Yes, it did
Will it stay reality
Or will I have to believe it's a dream?
I don't know, my dear
You tell me.