When life gets tough
You have to get tougher.

With every new twist in the road
Comes a new wall built up
A wall trying to shield from the pain.

With every loss life gives
Comes a new smile
Not a real one
But, one to hide behind.

With every new wall built around you
A little piece of you dies
A little piece of you is hidden.

As you hide behind wall after wall
You become lost.

This is the problem.

Lost in yourself.

Hiding behind the smile of pain.

Wall.

After.

Wall.

How can I find myself hiding behind these walls?

Oh darling,
Your love I could not doubt
Gleaming eye and tender touch
Gentle kiss and loving voice
Knowing I am yours
That is what's nice.

Loving someone is grand
But, knowing you love me back
You love me like no one else can
Though miles apart
By your love I am still touched
That is what's grand.

With every word he speaks
Taking my breath away
His embrace wrapping me with warmth
Keeping me safe
Protecting me from harm.

It's his love I've longed for
So long I've wandered searching
Waiting for a love like this
Not only loving
But, having love in return.

Oh darling,
Your love I could not doubt
Gleaming eye and tender touch
Gentle kiss and loving voice
Knowing I am yours
That is what's nice.

Loving someone is grand
But, knowing you love me back
You love me like no one else can
Though miles apart
By your love I am still touched
That is what's grand.

With every word he speaks
Taking my breath away
His embrace wrapping me with warmth
Keeping me safe
Protecting me from harm.

It's his love I've longed for
So long I've wandered searching
Waiting for a love like this
Not only loving
But, having love in return.

The days grow long
The nights grow longer
Things get tough but,
When I look at you...

Tears I shed
One after another
Life gets hard
This gets even harder
But, when I look at you...

In bed I cry
Fight after fight
But, when I look at you...
If it wasn't for you...

Fast motion time
Slow motion life
So much to do
So little time
Stress after stress
So much to address
But, when I look at you...

I don't even have to look at you
When I think about you...
It all goes away.

50/50
Hurt
Pain
Pleasure
Happiness
Take it
It could be worth it.

Two naked bodies entwined,
getting lost in time.

Reflecting upon each other
Soaking up the warmth from their bodies
Warm and damp from their Love.

Breath slowing from the rapid pace,
Bodies relaxing from their tense state.

Like an animal after their prey we pounced.

Devouring each other.
Devouring until our hunger for one another was satiated
Our thirst for lust quenched.

Our hand roamed
Our bodies merged
Our voices rose

Becoming one in the throws of passion
Now becoming one reflecting on shared Love.

We were given one heart to find another
So take mine, dear, I can be your other
You can be mine, until the end of time
I'll be yours.

Don't hurt it now
Keep it safe in hand
Right next to yours, that's where it'll be forever more
Right next to me, that's where you'll be forever more.

Driving through the country side
Windows rolled down
Music blaring
This is the good life.

It's that time of year again
The weather changes and things grow
The sun comes out
Washing away the fears of the past
Bringing forth a beautiful future
Smiles of people pass me
Walking down the street full of bliss
The sun on my face and wind in my hair
Not a thing wrong with the world
A kiss from a stranger
A hug from a friend
At this rate
Our world will never end
Music pumpin
Heads thumpin to the beat
Not a care in the world
Oh, it's that time of year again
When the weather changes and life begins
Opening a bright future
The world is beautiful, friends.

In the green meadow I sit
Cross legged in the grass
Sun soaking my skin
Warming me in it's comforting rays
Spreading over me
A blanket of youth

Opening my eyes I see
A strange bird
Staring at me
Feathers of red and a curved over beak
A strange little bird
Staring at me

A song it does sing
While looking at me
A song so beautiful
It caught me of guard
I get to my feet, unable to speak
For this beautiful melody has made my voice weak

As I walk to the bird
The beauty does strike me
Not only of the sound but, of everything around me
The leaves on the trees, dark reds and greens
The twinkling of the stream
The shine flowing the currents so mild

Walking to the stream, I begin to dream
Then the bird waddles next to me
The bird so odd with an exotic beauty
I reach out to touch but, it moves away
The bird of red motions to me
His thoughts aloud they seem
"Look in the water with me"

Craning my head I see what he sees
No longer is there a bird looking at me
The beauty is mine
My features they shine
Against the sun, against the wind
My wings, they will fly.

Rest your weary bones, my love
For tomorrow the work begins
Goodbye is just the start
For us two, connected at the heart.

The tears may shed tonight, my dear
Not only yours but, mine
On this, our last night
Our last night.

Close your eyes and I shall be there
Wrapped in our warm embrace
Giving your lips a gentle taste.

Now as I write this the tears flow down
As you lay next to me, snoring loud.
Who would have thought that I'd miss the sound.

My love, oh, my love...



I shall wait for you, my dear
Always waiting to be near.
Always waiting for the next embrace...

On this our last night I write
About our last night I write
With a smile upon my face
For tomorrow will come with haste...

You're resting now, love
Something I will not do tonight
For the thought of you gone leaves me torn
My mind not sheltered from the storm.

So, I say, rest your weary bones, my dear
For the ending time is drawing near.
Be prepared for what lies before us
I know it will be hard
But, we are connected at the heart
I know it will be hard to part
Not yet, love, not yet
For now rest those weary bones, my dear.

Things I want you to know are so hard to speak
Blinking away from tear stained eyes
Biting my trembling lip
All to say what I need to say

I can't look at your beautiful face
It is beautiful
I can't look knowing you have to leave me
I can't look at my love when it'll be gone

Like a knife in the heart
Wedged deep inside
Twisting the blade
As I watch you leave

Anticipating this moment
The moment when I have to see you walk out my door
I don't know if...
I can't...

It hurts to think that this is coming to an end
But, it must...
You must leave...
And I must stay...



Oh, but, my love...
How I wish we could stay near.

I can't imagine life without you
Things will be so different
I try not to think
But, it's hard...

Stay here, my love
Don't leave me alone here
Alone to be stuck inside my mind
Please, don't leave...

I cherish these moments
For I know they will be few
I love every bit of it
This life with me and you.

I'll remember this and relive it
Every second of every day
You will be there and I'll be here
But, still...you'll be near.

Though distance separates
Nothing can part my love for you
I shall stay here, waiting patiently
Happily waiting for the next time...

I shall be here with a smile on my face
Because I know I'm not alone
So, smile, my dear
Because neither are you.

When you write
Will you still think of me?

When you sing
Will you still think of me?

When I write
Will I still think of you?

When I struggle
Will I still think of you?

Have you found her?
Have I found him?

You won't think of me when you sing
And I won't think of you when I write
What once used to be one
Has become two.

Two for the better


Don't think of me when you sing
Just don't forget
As I won't.

You'll think of her
I'll think of him



He'll think of me.

Open up
Face your fear
Lose it.

Lose yourself
Cherish someone
Lose the fear.

Trust yourself
Trust him
Trust her.

Be their's
Be your's
Be mine.

This feeling
This new feeling
What is it?

What is it about this
That puzzles me so
Intriguing





Intimacy.

Why did I let you be the one
To ruin all of those love songs?

Why did I let myself
Fall so madly in love with you
When I knew things wouldn't be?

Why did I let it get this bad?
Now I can't listen to a single tune
Without getting sad.

Why did I let you be my passion?
Now it's struggling to live.

Why did I let you control me?
I lived my life around you.
Do you know that?

Why did I let you give me so much
When I knew it would just get taken away?

Why did I let you be the one?
Because I was in love with you.

Pangs of jealousy
Twinges of regret
Pulsing anger running red through my veins

The distant look in the eyes
The ache of the heart so heavy
It could sink out of one's chest

Like a punch in the gut
The news always is
The truth of the matter
What one never wants to hear...

It is not truth which sets us free
Handling the truth is key

It's another cheesy thing
There's been a lot of those
And all of them
They've been about you

I wonder if you still love me
Like I love you
Though it's different
I'm still trying to think it through

Do you think about me
As much as I think about you?
Day in and day out
I'm still trying to think it through

Best friends until the end
That, I know is true
Both of us said forever
And forever...I meant

Don't forget
The words I've said

Best friends until the end
You're stuck with me
And I'm stuck with you
I'm still trying to think it through

I know I'm not ready
I'm not ready for you to be out of my life
That...will never happen

Always on my mind
That's where you'll be
The one that got away
The one I can never have

I say with a smile on my face
Best friends until the end
That's what will be
I will love you always, my friend


My friend.

Forever wondering
Was it right or was it wrong?

Choices
There is always a choice

Yes
No
Maybe
Kinda
Later
Now
Black
White
Square
He
She
Ri­ght
Wrong

Right....



Wrong....

Is it?

The end is drawing near
Can't you feel it, too, my dear?


Slow the breathing, my love
Soon...soon, it will be gone





Leave us, heathen
Leave us to live in peace

Slow the breathing, my demon
Soon my pain will be gone



You've served your purpose
What little that might have been
Now go on and cease
Can you leave us feeling proud?

Grasp your last days of life
Love your one true love
The bottle you always hold dear
Never the ones that are near

Ignorant you are to the pain
But, that is fine
Sweet salvation is near
So, slow your breathing, my dear.

Your life will fade away
As will our pain
I will never forget
How can I forgive?

You don't deserve
You can't have us
Our pain will fade


So, slow your breathing, my dear
The end is drawing near.

I'm happy now
I didn't think
Without you
I could be
Happy.

Now I smile
A real smile
I wonder
Did you do that to me?

Our life we planned
Was never meant
Our fairy tale
Come to an end

So dry your tears
And make believe
Because all that we ever were
Just a dream.

So rest your head
Dream again
Because that's all I ever was
Just a dream.

The droning bass
the big piano swells
Like the swells of my heart
Growing
GROWing
GROWING
Like my affection for you once did....

Flitting of keys
High and piercing
Sweet dissonance
Minor seconds...the major sevenths
Coming together in sweet cacophony
Just as our bodies once did....

The warmth of the chords
Sending sweet chills through me
Making me close my eyes to enjoy
The music entirely
My body surrendered to music
Just as it once did to you....

Now it's just my music
The swells
The dissonance
The warmth
That is what love is
So I shall make love to music
I shall make it mine
I shall love and be loved
Just as it once was us...

I never thought this day would come
The day I write something like this about you
The day the words creep into my head
It’s over
Is it over?

We used to be so perfect
Despite everything, it was perfection
But, nothing is every perfect…
That’s what I’m finding out

I never thought the happiness would fade
I guess I was wrong
You say you’re happy but…
How could you be happy?

I wish I knew what to do
About me and you

I thought we were indestructible
We’ve been through so much
And we’d be through so much more
Through it all we’d triumph and love
Through it all…

I love you, do not forget that
The tears that fall from my eyes are yours
I wish you could see….

It isn’t a matter of love anymore
It’s the situation
Two perfectly imperfect people thrown together
Under a very imperfect situation
A situation that…I can’t

I can’t…
I….

Is it over?

With you                              Without you
Forever waiting                       Forever lonely
You’re my world                                  Do I have anything?
I made you everything                          Maybe I was wrong
It’s so hard                                         It’s so hard.
                                           Either way
                Tears will be shed
                 Pain is to come
                   Either way
                   It’s so hard.

It's the holiday season
Christmas eve to be exact
I'm sitting at home with a cat in my lap
The television is on
A Christmas special
What else is on?

**, **, **!
Says the santa on TV
Trying to spread joy and cheer
I smile a little then look over at you
Eyes glazed over, nursing a beer
Tears begin to well
I turn away
Who knows how you'd act if you saw my face.

I look out the window at all the snow I see
Wondering what is exactly out there for me
Standing up, I grab my coat
"Where you goin?" he slurs, a hiccup in his throat
With no response I go
Right out the door

It's a little bit chilly
But, I do not mind
Walking down the New York streets
On Christmas Eve night
The street lamps are on and I can see all around
The houses lit up
They truly are homes

The family cozied up
All around the tree
Ornaments and lights
Tinsel and beads
I stop and I stare
If they saw me, I wouldn't care
The family inside
Oh, how nice it would be

I keep walking, my head held down
Thinking about the joy of the families around
I can't help thinking
Somehow....I missed out.

I walk down the street
Down to the local park
It's where we first met
But, things are different now
Sitting on a bench, I take in the scene
Freshly laid snow, not tainted by feet.

A couple comes by and I close my eyes
They're just like we were
Walking so late at night
Hand in hand
Kisses galore
Giggles and laughs
It brings them back

We used to have that
A love so true
Now I'm wondering what happened to you
I never thought this is the way it'd be
Afraid to come home
Afraid of what you might do to me

It's time to go home
How nice it'd be to walk the other way
My feet move reluctantly against my will
Leading my home
Leading me back to you

I walk in the door
You're nowhere to be found
I see a note on the couch
It reads "You're better alone"
I hear you upstairs as I walk in the room
"I thought you'd be longer"
You're there, packing a bag
Both of us look down, tears in our eyes
How can we salvage all of these lies?

You come to me and I flinch for a second
Until you look at me, soft and warm
A tear runs down and you wipe it away
I can't look at you, I just wish you'd get out of my face
"I know things have changed"
You're getting choked up now
I've never seen you cry
It's about **** time

You sit on the bed
Your head in your hands
"I want to change back
Please give me another chance
I'm getting some help
Please take me back"
You're in tears now
Pleading in your eyes
I know you had prepared to say our last goodbye

You're eyes
They don't lie
I know you're genuine inside
I walk to you, cradling your head to my chest
"My darling, it's Christmas Eve night"
You look up at me, sadness in your eyes
I say "This night can be salvaged, break open the wine".

I find it alone.


It is for me,
Only mine.

I find it inside.
Deep within my mind
as the night goes on.


Alone with my thoughts
as I lay in bed.
My piece of peace within myself.

I find it alone.
As I fall fast asleep.

Vision blurs
Mind goes blank
Knees weak
Hands are sweaty
What is it that I'm about to do?
Sell away my soul in this sad attempt
An attempt to make my life better
One must suffer to know happiness
Well I have suffered
Stomach churns
Mouth goes dry
What is it that I'm about to do?
What am I doing with my life?
Why must one live to die?

Hey you
Yeah you
The one that ran away
Did you know I was faking it
Every time I came?
Did you know your words meant nothing?
Did I know mine meant less?
Hey you
Yeah, you
Thank for being a man
Instead of telling me the truth
You just up and ran
Away from me and all my pain
Why the Hell did I help you with yours?
Did you know how much I hurt?
Did I know how much you didn’t care?
Hey you
You know who I’m talking to
There’s no need to point a finger
The blame is all on you.

Milky white
The skin of your *******
In the pale moonlight
Spilling across the satin sheets
Your dark hair in waves
My gaze is drawn
My breath is caught
Skin on skin
Yours so soft beneath my fingertips
A push and a pull
A breath and a moan
Eyes gleaming against the moon
Locking on to mine
The moment is quick
But, it is all that’s needed
To make you mine
And to call me yours.

A little girl so naïve
So young
She didn’t know what love was
She didn’t know anything
She did know trust
She trusted him and thought he would never do her wrong
He was older
Like a big brother in a sense
The next door neighbor
The one she could depend on to look out for her
They spend days fishing, nights laughing
Happiness was all she knew
He grew older
She did not
He knew what he wanted
She didn’t have a clue
He asked her to do it
She knew it was wrong
He said it wouldn’t hurt
She was too young
He touched her
She laid there
He touched her more
She was stiff as a board
He climbed on top
She felt the pain
His breath picked up
Hers seemed to stop
He was done and left
She stayed and cried
A year passed and things seemed alright
Nothing else happened
She thought it was over
She was naïve and young
She never understood what had happened
He came to her again
He threatened
She was afraid
He touched her
She looked away
He moaned and sighed
She was stiff
His muscles tense
Her mind forced numb
He got off
She just stayed there
“Get your clothes on”
That’s what he said
Before he left
Now she’s left broken
After what he’s done
The boy that she’d trusted
Well he broke it all in her
Now she can’t even speak his name
She’s got to learn it again
She’s got to regain her pride
And all the tears, she’ll hide
The last thing she wants is for him to see her cry
He may have stolen from her what she can’t get back
But now she’ll make it alright
She won’t look back

Going back to it
You'll never hear
All the wasted anger
All the wasted fear
Memory no more
Everything will be lost
Now I'm left by myself
To figure it all out

Ten page paper
Orchestral Excerpt Jury
Music History
Sight Singing exam
Practice piano
Piano final
Make revisions
Evaluate
Drink coffee
Cry
Get drunk
Try the ten page paper again
Take some advil to get through the jury
Try to wake up in time to get to 8am Music History
Hope to not get a sore throat for singing exam
Piano piano piano piano
What were we talking about in religion?
What am I doing my paper on?
When's it due?
Music. Music. Music. Music.
Cry.  
Cry some more.
Get **** done.

I used to think loneliness was something I could bear
I'd pride myself in living this life alone
Now I seem to find myself just longing for the love I've missed

Living alone was not so bad
I had time to find myself, time was mine and no one else's
Though time grows old when you're alone
You question why the clock ticks on
You count the seconds until the day is done
Then rest your head until your mind is numb

The numb is over and you rise again
You begin to ask "When will this end?"
Stuck in that dark place you wonder why
Why?
Why?
Why?
...why?
Why go on with no one here?

You've been strong, yes you have
You've found yourself, grown wise on your own
But, now what is the purpose?
Living your days alone holds no fulfillment
All the love you have to give
It is something, only if there is someone to share it with

There was so many words not spoken
Between you and me
Before you left it could have been
You said you’d be back
But that’s not to be
I know my thoughts are getting to you
Some way or another, I know they are
There’s still that one connection
The little thread between dream and reality
I can feel it
If only I could see you one last time
To tell you those three words that mean the most
The only three we haven’t said
I wish I could feel your arms around me one last time
I know that can’t be
I just wish that you knew
That I love you

My morning goes as such:
I take a shower
I brush my teeth
I comb my hair
And have nothing to eat
I sit with a mirror and stare at my face
So many imperfections that I try to pluck away
I squeeze into jeans and look at my ****
I don’t like the way it looks but, I guess I’m out of luck
Now time for the hair which I dry and I brush
Then I **** it with my straight iron until it looks good
Then the make-up goes on until my face is away
I try not to look fake, I wonder what you’d say
My lashes get long and my face gets bronzed
Now I stand in the mirror and I ask myself “What went wrong?”
Why is this me?
My stomach sticks out
My thighs too big
Too much muscle, it’s like I’m a man
Standing in the mirror I move and I shift
To the right, to the left, Why is it like this?
Every day, every night, every time I see in a mirror
I see myself as this
The ugly one
The odd one
The one that’ll never fit
The one that’s too fat
She looks like a man
She tries to be pretty
Clearly she fails
So, I find myself, standing in the mirror
Tears in my eyes, my face bronzed
What went wrong?

This is one of those cheesy things
One of those things about love that people can’t stand
It starts with “I miss you” and ends with “I love you”
In the middle comes “I always knew you were the one”
Later on comes “We’ll be together forever”
And it ends with “I love you”
But, now we are at the start
I miss you
I miss you terribly so
There are times I cannot bear it
There are times I think it’d be easier if I were to end it
Then I think of the next
I always knew you were the one
From day one, it was only you
Through the ups and the downs, lord knows we’ve had them
It has always been you, faithful and true
We’ve been going strong and showing no signs of slowing
We’ll be together forever
That’s it, that’s the next part
Pieces start to come together
Our life begins to form
That’s when the ending ties it all in
I love you, my darling
I always have and I always will
From start to finish and life to death
Forever, my darling
I love you

It’s been 2 months
And I can’t do it
Living without you
It’s something I could never do
I spend my days coping
Work, food, sleep, work, food, sleep
A never ending routine
Our life was never routine
There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t mourn for you
For the loss of you
The loss of our love
The loss of me
I don’t know what to do
Sitting here with this bottle of pills
I don’t know what to do
You’re picture on my desk
I don’t know what to do
Maybe if I were dead
I’d see you again
But then again
What if I don’t?
My mind races
Heart beat quickens
You would tell me I’m being ridiculous
You would tell me to stop
But, I was never one to follow directions
Now was I?
It’s what you loved about me
I went against the grain
Well now I don’t
I think
And think
And think…
Till death do us part
I said
We said
I was never one to follow directions
My last thought before the room began to spin
I see your face before my world goes dark again

Now we have lived a life together
Our life has been happy
Through triumphs and strife we have stood by
We’ve been by each other through it all
Our love was long and still is
My life has ended
But, I can tell you this
I still love you
I pray every day that you can still feel me there beside you
Because I am
I am with you, forever and always
Our love has not died
Death could not destroy this
I see you cry at night
And I wish I could help you
It tears me open every time I see you cry
But, forever, I will be by your side
I sit at the table with you
I eat breakfast with you
I sleep with you
Forever by your side
I wish you to not mourn for me, my love
For I am right here
I know your heart is breaking
For mine is breaking, too
Our hearts, torn in two
I ask you to remember our memories
Remember the long nights alone
Our wedding, the proclamation of our everlasting love
The countless vacations spent together
Remember it all
Relive it all
Though we are in two different worlds
Our love is still
It will never die

7:45pm
That’s when I got the call
I dropped the phone
I couldn’t believe it
“We have your wife”
It was the hospital
Our life flashed before my eyes as I drove
Her hair, shimmering in the sunlight
Her big brown eyes smiling at me after a hard day
Those eyes
I lost myself in them
I was never happier
Now
All that is shattered
My foot on the gas
I speed down the highway
My knuckles white against the dark wheel
My face white against my dark hair
Slamming on the breaks
Running inside
I see her
And I see the doctor
I see the look in his eye
He says the words but I can’t hear
I walk towards her
Tears in my eyes
Laying there still
Deathly still
It’s my baby
My one and only
No more shine to her hair
No more sheen to her skin
I take her in my arms and weep
Her lifeless body stiff against mine
My cries turn to screams
How could this happen?
Why her?
Why not me?
They make me leave
I sign forms
Talk to people I don’t know
It’s all a blur
My life
My love
It’s all gone
I leave
The ride home
It’s raining
My mind is numb
Shock
Walking in
I shut the door
I walk to the bedroom
I see her
Her jewelry
Her clothes
She’s here
Why isn’t she here?
She isn’t here
And never will be again
The rage builds up
My tears begin to fall once more
I wake up the next morning
The mirrors broken
Clothes everywhere
My hand is broken
But, you still aren’t here.

A love so sweet
has now turned sour
I'm at the window
you walking to your car
Tears in my eyes
like the rain falling on yours
what went wrong?
I ask, the tears falling fast
what did I do?
You slam your hands on the steering wheel
Driving dangerously fast
You call me
I ignore it
Unable to utter a sound
The love we had, where did it go?
It has turned to anger
Fists in the air; voices raised high
why were we fighting?
I can't even remember
what made me do that?
You ask yourself as you drive
dangerously fast
without a destination, just driving
I cry on the floor, thinking you're gone
you took my heart with you when you left
Will I get it back?
You pull over, trying to think
I'm the love of your life, and you just left me
Your face goes white and you turn around
Driving fast
Dangerously fast
You call, I don't answer
You leave a message
"I love you, baby, and I'm sorry.
I'm comin home, please let me back in."
I cry more
I'm so happy you're coming home
I call you
I'm sorry too, I say
I didn't mean the words I said tonight
I never want to be without you
Both of us crying, proclaiming our love
I love you baby, you say
Till death do us part
You cry, tears clouding your eyes
driving dangerously fast
I say, a smile on my face
Till death do us part

My knees feel weak
My heart is all a flutter
I look down at my dress and smile
You stand there
Waiting for me
A smile on your face
Never to fade
I take deep breaths
A tear runs down my cheek
I’ve never been this happy
The time is finally here
I look in the mirror and wonder if it’s a dream
You look so handsome
In your suit and tie
You straighten your tie
And smile wide
Our wedding day
It’s here
Our love wasn’t just a dream
I stand and wait
The veil over my face
The door are opened and everyone stands
People cry and people smile
I walk past
Doing the same
I see you and I cry
Tears of happiness
Knowing that you will be my husband
And that I will be your wife
Your eyes light up
As you see me walk down the aisle
Misty-eyed you smile at me
Mouthing “I love you”
I reach the altar and you lift my veil and kiss my hand
I smile
You smile
Everyone is smiling
The vows are said
We love each other
We couldn’t live without each other
I would die for you
You would die for me
I’ve never loved someone so much
You’ve never been happier
We’ll be together forever
Until death do us part
You put the ring on my finger
I cry some more
I put the band on your finger
A tear falls down your cheek
“You may kiss the bride”
We kiss….a wonderful kiss
I see our life in that kiss
I see the love
Sitting on the front porch early in the morning
Sipping our coffee
Late night movies
Curled up by a fire
I see the fights
Money
Jobs
Things that won’t matter
But, most of all
I see our happiness
The mornings
We wake up and smile knowing we’re with each other
Knowing we’re madly in love
The kisses
The gentle touches
Our love is a great love
One this day, our wedding day
I love you more than ever
I am yours and you are mine
When that kiss ends
I see your tear stained eyes
And you see mine
We smile and walk down the aisle
You take me in your arms
And I take you in mine
An embrace full of love
We kiss again
And I know now
Our love
Forever this will be

Feel the heat
My body against yours, pinning you to the wall
My kiss, electrifying, quick with passion
The look in my eyes, burning with a fiery desire
A hunger that must be satisfied
You pull me close
I feel you grow on me
Your hands ravaging my body
I can't catch my breath
Off comes my shirt, see it lay on the floor
Yours soon joins, and then more
Our naked bodies pressed together
You can control it no longer
Pulling me up, my legs wrapped around you
You lead me to the bed
The blank canvas on which we will paint our love
You kiss me all over, making my body tingle
From my lips to my neck, making me moan with pleasure
Your hands caress and rub, making me squirm
Your kisses go lower and lower
Until I scream out of delight
You taste me and lick me
My hands in your hair, my head thrown back
It couldn't get any better
I see you sit up and I look in your eyes
Your animal instinct, failing to hide
You pounce on me and I feel you inside
My legs wrapped around you, your hips going deep
We share a kiss, breathless and wild, you biting my lip
Your movements get quicker, my hips move with yours
My nails dig into your back, your teeth in my neck
Both of us close now
Me screaming your name
We both yell out, with one final ******, no longer two people, just only one
Our moans soon quiet as you fall limp in my arms
Both of us breathless
You wrapped in my arms
We kiss a soft kiss
You roll on your side
We face one another and stare into our eyes
You graze your hand along my cheek
I move in closer, our legs intertwined
You kiss my lips softly and I close my eyes
Pulling me to you, my head on your chest, a kiss on the head
Before a whisper befalls my ear
"My one and only, my love, my angel, goodnight."

Feeling my heart beating out of my chest
I'm sitting here and you there
Inches away but seeming like feet
You look at me, I turn away
You smile at me, I see out of the corner of my eye
I clear my throat and your hand grabs mine
My cheeks flush red and I pull away
Your gaze falls away and you take mine
I look at your hand
I look at mine
My hand inches towards yours
Timidly, I reach for it
My touch surprises you but, you smile
I look in your eyes and see all I need to see
We just sit there staring, our eyes doing all the talking
Your hand grazes my cheek
My cheeks flush once more
I smile
You smile
We are closer, our bodies nearly touching
The electricity running through our bodies
I can feel it through your touch
Your fingertips at my neck, sending sparks through my body
Just a simple touch, that's all it took to send my mind spinning
You move in closer, your eyes half closed
You being so close, I'm nearly breathless
My hand grazes your cheek, my lips longing for your kiss
You're close now, your hand in my hair
Your kiss hits me and leaves me without a breath
Your soft lips on mine, your hand on my knee, mine on yours
My body on fire, ignited by your kiss
The kiss comes to an end but both of us linger
A breathless whisper, "I love you"
A tearful smile across my face, A kiss that says the same
Our touch so tender, our kiss so sweet
What seems like hours, is only minutes
Lost in love, lost in touch
Your hands trace every outline
Your lips saying everything that I need to hear
How speechless you leave me
I can only stare, admire the beauty
We look deep into each others' eyes
Needing no words to say how we both know we feel
We've waited for this moment
We've waited so long
Now it's here and it's here to stay
Forever you're mine
Forever I'm yours
Together at last
Forevermore

This day has come too soon
The death of a friend
I thought it’d never end
You’ve been there for me
Through thick and thin
The good and the bad
I knew it would end
But it’s too soon
Coming to this life’s end
Too soon
For the life of my friend
Words were not needed
For the love that we shared
You stuck by me
And I to you
Till the bittersweet end
I will remember you
For what you were
The friend to me
Covered in fur
Yes, you were a dog
But, no, that does not change
The love I had for you was strong
Stronger than any human being
Now it’s your time
Your time to say goodbye
And though I may cry
I know it’s for the best
That you close your eyes
And say goodbye
I see your weary and your pain
And it would be selfish of me
To ask you to stay
But, come too soon
This day has
For I am not ready to say good bye
Not just yet
I will never say good bye
This I know for sure
Because I am certain that we will meet
Meet surely once again

I’m driving down the highway
After we said goodbye
My foot pushin on the gas
I’m tryin not to cry

I look up to the horizon
And see the setting sun
My thoughts all on you, dear
Because I’ll miss you so much

I’m drivin away from you today
I can’t look back or I’ll turn away
I never want to leave you
I want to be beside you
Forever holding you
But I gotta go
Yeah, I gotta go
But, you know
It won’t be for long

I’m tryin to hold it together
But its no use
I’m lookin at the cars through blurry eyes
Those eyes are seein nothing but you

The day turns to night and I’m still driving
Driving away from you

I’m drivin away from you today
I can’t look back or I’ll turn away
I never want to leave you
I wanna be beside you
Forever holding you
But I gotta go
Yeah, I gotta go
But, you know baby
It won’t be for long

I push on the gas
I’m here at last
But still without you

Walk in my house
But its not home
My home is where you are
And you aren’t here
But, you know baby
It won’t be for long
Soon you’ll be here
And I’ll be there
We’ll be together again
Forever at last
But, baby, just for now
It won’t be long

Here I stand
Watching you watching me
On your finger there’s a wedding band
Guess she’s not what you need

So here I stand
Looking at my face in the mirror
I see the band in your hand
Do you even love her?

Do you see the pain I see in your eye?
Do you see it in mine?
I give what you pay for
It’s all just a big lie

Go back to your wife honey
I ain’t worth your time
Walkin down the hall, I hold my head with pride
What a girl does for money….but, oh, it ain’t me

When I get home I find dinner on the table
Little baby loves her mommy
She’s passed out on the couch
Her mommy carries her back to bed

Tucked in bed, I kiss her cheek
Keeping the tears back, afraid to be weak
I run the water and hop right in
The tears begin to flow, only then

Do people know what goes on?
Can you see it?
I come and I go but, I never truly leave
This was never what I wanted

There I see you again
This time, no wedding band
You tell me its wrong
I say I know
Pulling me close, kissing me
There all my pain seemed to go
There I let all my tears flow

You held me tight
Told me that I’d be alright
And here you are kissing my baby goodnight
Looks like, in my life, I finally did something right

Home
There’s no place like home
What is home?
The place you grew up
A building filled with memories
Is home a town?
Or is it just simply a noun?
Home is neither town nor place
Home is a feeling
Home is that special feeling in your heart
That feeling of comfort
A warm safe place like that of a child in a mother’s arms
A lover’s embrace ending with a kiss that says it all
No, home is not a place
Home is where you are and where I will always be
Home is by the sea
The feeling of waves against pale skin
The sun licking the face with its warm gentle rays
With wind-blown hair
That is home
Curled up in bed with a warm blanket and a good book
Listening to soft music in the dim candlelight
That is home
Home is excitement riddled with comfort
Home is happiness
Home is love
Home is music
Home is yours
Home is theirs
Home is that one person that knows you better than you know yourself
Home is having a shoulder to cry on
A warm meal at the end of a long day
What is home?
Home just is.

Not ideally planned
But under the circumstances
You’re with me and I am with you

And the life we thought we knew
Is slowly changing, too
Is it what we’re dreaming of?

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all

Day after day I just cannot wait
To see you
This feeling grows and it grows until it explodes
Inside my heart
Day after day I just sit here and wait to see you
Now tell me, darling
Is what we’re dreaming of?

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all

I’ll be loving you until the night is through
Inside your head
You make me feel a way I’ve never felt before
I’ve never felt you before
You’re the one I’m dreamin of
The only one I’m thinking of

I’m thinkin about
You and I
Together
Me and you
Yeah, forever

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all
I’ll be with you through it all

Like the moon sitting high in the sky
Your beauty does shine
Like the sun shining bringing a new day
Your warmth radiates through me
With every breath I take
And every move you make
I know you are mine

Like the moon and the tides
It’s like you and I
One without the other
Would make anyone shudder
Our hearts are intertwined
Our love aging like fine wine
Without a doubt I know you are mine

And the tides they will shift
But every day will still seem like a gift
And I know we will cry
But I’ll always be by your side
So here’s to love, my dear
Here’s to love without a fear
Without a fear, for you are mine

With you by my side
Anything could be mine
My love, can’t you see
Forever we will be
Here’s to love, my dear
Love without a fear
For you are forever mine