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I have only met you once or twice,
I don't even know how related you are to me,
Do we even have the same blood traces?
Or are we related by marriage,
I only have one or two memories of you,
You made me chocolate milk once,
You came to one of my birthday parties,
I don't know which one,
It was so long ago,
Now i will never meet you,
I heard you died in your sleep,
Very mysteriously,
Drug overdose?
Or a bad reaction to the "cold" pills you took,
What really happened?
Will I ever know?
I guess not huh,
I never really did know you.
Loving you, I see you shine through life everyday. i see you and your precious face, So pale and porcelain, but what i don't understand is how you could be so perfect and i could be so... not. Tragedy happens to the best of us but why does it happen to me? i understand why it happens to you, it is because no one, not even me, is as perfect as you, But what i need to know most is if you can hang on, i need you to believe, i am searching for that perfection within myself, i am so sorry that it took so long, I just don't want you to know me as someone who has wasted your time, i don't want things to end and i don't want you to feel like i am asking a lot out of you, i am so imperfect that i need someone as perfect as you to help me seek the better sides of me, my better sides have never shined around any one but you, even then did i lack the full ability to be your perfect, i can't seem to make things better but i really am trying, i have been trying so hard lately and you saw it, i knew i couldn't lie to you any longer, so i told you the truth, but i numbed you, i hurt you, and that is a side of me that i never ever want to see again, i want to make things better for you, and for myself, I see who you are, I know how fragile you have become, Even though i may not have been myself back then you still saw me, you had faith in me, you told me i was strong, but i wasn't, i was so weak to the point where only time could fix things. I am truly glad though, that i had the courage to tell the truth after so many lies, i was strong and you were stronger, I want to be able to tell you the truth from now on, because you deserve it, you deserve it more than anything in the world, You deserve someone to love you through everything, through thick and thin, although you don't make as many mistakes as i do, you still deserve it, In many ways you will always be more mature than I, but as you should know, I am much more mature than most my age. You will always be my perfection. I will always be  your imperfection.
How could i be so **** selfish?
You are not invisible,
Everyone else is just to plain to see,
Don't be so blue,
never let anyone stand in your way,
Be who you want to be,
Don't go changing yourself for the wrong reasons,
I say this because I have noticed you,
I have seen your sad face,
I want you to smile,
Live life the way you think it should be lived,
Because you dear,
Are perfect.
Take my hand,
Show me,
All the places we haven't seen,
Let us go make memories,
Just you and me,
Let me explore life with you,
Lets go on journies,
Pick a destination,
I will follow,
Lets explore everything,
Our everything,
You are everything,
Let me explore you,
I want to know who your heart is,
I want to know who it is gonna be,
I want to be with you through it all,
I'm here,
Right here,
Just wake up,
Open your eyes and heart,
Let me in,
I will show you love,
Love like never before,
Love worth waiting for,
Just let me near.
I want you to hold me tight,
I want you to fix my broken heart,
I need you to stay by my side,
I have to ask you to love me,
I have to apologize for my wrongs,
But i need you to see,
The beauty within me,
I know you know who I am,
You make me happy,
I am sorry if I have ever gave you doubt,
I am sorry if I have ever doubted you,
Thank you for all of your trust,
I will not throw it into the dust,
I think you should stay with me,
That is my opinion,
I hold your heart in my hands,
So gently baby,
So i don't cause it to break,
But so tightly,
So it won't try to escape,
I am always going to be yours,
No matter what.
Is love for me?
Do i have the right to have it?
do i deserve it?
Sometimes... i don't know,
You always find a mistake in me,
Even though you say i'm perfect,
I know it isn't true,
But don't remind me of all the pain i used to have,
It isn't right,
But what are we going to do?
I tried to fix it,
So many times,
All i got were let downs,
From everyone but you,
I'm sorry for the wrongs they have done to me,
I didn't mean for it to happen,
They deserve this punishment,
Not me,
But because of it,
Maybe I don't deserve you,
You don't really seem to want me right now,
I can't keep living with the sorrow,
The regret,
It does hurt me too!
i'm not an emotionless girl,
Although i may seem to be,
I have had you for three years now,
Shouldn't you know me?
I know you know me,
You just gotta find me in your heart,
You gotta learn to believe in me.
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