I met God shes black

Broken hearted girl
lived like she had no cares in world
then one day she looked up
and realized she was alone
her broken soul shattered floor
She was a broken hearted girl

Woke up in the morning
went on her way
smiled as people passed
all they did was wave
they never say her frowning eyes
they didn't notice when she drifted away
to them she never changed

Broken hearted girl
lived like she had no cares in world
then one day she looked up
and realized she was alone
her broken soul shattered floor
She was a broken hearted girl

Who am I really?
My friend asked me this question(And it was not you nina)
who are you really?

Who am I really?
I don't really know
because at home
I act for my family

at school
I act for my friends

at church
I act for the preachers

and alone
I act for myself

so who am I really?
I don't know
and I never stop asking

Im tired
of being tired

Its funny how kids try to make themselves look older
and adults try to make themselfs look young

Baking Cupcakes
Broken Cutters
Bleeding Children
Black Color
Backing Circles
Before Christ
Beautiful Children
Blessings Come
Blank Canvas

what was your life like before christ

Sometimes I wonder am i just like a blank canvas
waiting for someone to come along and make me amazing

When you listening to a song
and the piano makes you wanna cry

That feeling
when you see the person who loves you

When you see the sunset
and fell as if you did something amazing by surviving one more day

When you watch someone cry
and you feel so bad you cant speak

I cant sleep
but I would rather stay up knowing
you are somewhere awake thinking about me
We cant sleep

Am I wrong
but didnt i care about things
I can remeber crying
when my dad dropped my pet fish in the sink

Am I wrong
but didnt i feel things
I remeber laughing
and crying
and hoping

Am I wrong
but didnt you love me
I could remeber your face when you saw me
your eyes said more than your mouth

Am I wrong
but didnt I love you

Am I wrong
but doesnt this situation hurt you too

Am I wrong
but arent you thinking about me like i think about you

Am I wrong

There was this girl that I once knew
she was happy
she would laugh at nothing
and she would laugh sincerly
and she always loved tickling
she would sit outside in the snow
just to watch the snow flakes fall
she didnt want to get away at all
she was happy

A girl that I once knew
was where she was meant to be
she was still in her element
she didnt want to be
anyone else
but she

A girl that I once knew
Had dreams
she would imagine the most amazing things
and actually had a couple happen and made people realize
she was amazing

A Girl that I once knew
use to stare back at me in the mirror
now all i can see
is her shaking her head disapointed in me
all i can feel is her gaze telling me im lost now
that im not anything

That girl that you once knew
Is no longer inside of me

I was staring into the night watching the time click by
Right then you walked into my life
that was the last night
I watched the starts alone

We where up there dancing
The two brightest stars you could see
With smiles that where brighter than the moon

We where beautiful

Then you left me
We ended up being nothing

That night I went to watch the stars
and remebered us dancing
us shining
but now all i have is memories
because we became nothing

Nothing but fallen stars

I wish I could just go out onto the street
scream all my secrets to the world
and have at least on person
ask if i needed help

Time goes really fast
dont waste it worrying about me

I never thought I would have to leave you
I always thought you would leave me

I want to stay in this world
but its not where i was meant to be
in this place i cant be me
I dont know what to believe

and now im sitting here
writing about my life
wondering how to make it past this fight
then realizing i shouldnt

I know thats not what you want to hear
but the end of my story is near
this world is ful of fear
and i dont want to be scared
im sorry im leaving
but I was just not meant to be here

I'm sitting here trying to be strong
listening to passenger songs
trying to find out what is going on
i try to sing along

but i know the words far to well
because I know how he felt
I know what it felt like when he fell

I'm sitting her trying to be strong
listening to passenger songs
wondering where you have gone

I'm tired
but all i do is toss and turn

all i can think about
is a blade cutting my skin

all i can remeber is the blood on my fingetips

all i can do
is dream about what it would be like for one more cut

but when i want to do it
when i decided its time

I see your face

and i remember
you don't want me to live this way

you believe in me
when i didn't believe in my self

you trusted me
when i didn't trust you

And now when my mind says
One last cut

I see your face
and remember you don't want me to live this way

God created a being so complex

it cant even understand its self

My secrets eat at my soul
at my gut

screaming
ringing in my ears
they want to see the world

and yet I don't want the world to see them

My secrets
I hold them close
and yet the want to go far

My secrets
I don't want anyone to know
and yet people i love always find out

My secrets
I don't want to let them out

My secrets

My secrets

If you want a rainbow
you have to put up with the storm

Dont get upset you dont know the real me
I dont know her either

How can I jump when no one will catch me?

Dont hate the player hate the game
fine then I'll stop playing

she is an amzing young girl
she has talent greater than she knows
and yet she wont let it all show
you see she doesnt want people to know how shes feeling
she doesnt say stufff to revealing
or she never even talks about herself
she writes about others and tries to help
but the girl who needs the most help is the girl staring back at you through the mirror
she wants to be set free
but you hide her behind things
you don't want people to see
that person who i believe
is living inside
and if nina just opened her eyes
maybe she would see
that a lot of other people are going through the same thing
and maybe she would actual tell someone like me who actual would listen if she told me how she was feeling
she needs to set herself free

My cousin Diamond Johnson just received this email for posting a poem about her boyfriend Josh who isn't on this site.

*Silent screams  10 hours ago
Hello, so I'm not sure if you have a serious mental problem
or if you're just flat out *******.
but, Josh has never loved any other girl besides me and he will never love another, and the same goes for me as well.
We have had a mutual love affair for a year, and I don't appreciate you writing creepy poems about my boyfriend and making up fake "love" stories
If you pursue or try to have any further contact with him, so much as a message or a text or anything.
the police will be notified and I will pay every last cent I have to have them track you down and find you, and that is a promise
Now get a life, and stop trying to interfere in mine.

I feel like a roller coaster
I go through all of these ups and downs
and I always end up where i started from

Every day I try to make progress
but I feel like I'm running on a treadmill

Your standing in a light so bright
I start to wonder if your in the dark

Man is taking an experiment with a frog
He tells the frog jump frog
He jumps 10 inches

He cuts off one leg
jump frog
He jump 5 inches

He cuts of a leg
jump frog
He jumps  3 inches

He cuts off a leg
jump frog
Frog jumps 2 inches

He cuts off the last leg
jump frog
The frog doesn't move

He concludes when you cut of all of a frogs legs he goes death

She was girl with the world on her fingertips
yet she didn't know couldn't see how it could end
No hope
she was hopeless even though
she could make it
She was put down
for being loud and proud
She was let down
by everyone around her
But she didn't see
her fire
She was put down
left out
broken down
She was a girl with nothing but the beating heart in her chest
yet she loved everyone and spread her  joyfulness
Smiling wide trying to forget her past
She tried to make through and pass her test
She was worth it
thinking she was
Worthless
and she was amazing
But she didnt see
her fire
She was put down
She was left out
She was broken down
Tried to please
tried to be
everything but who she was
she disapeared
left from here
all because she couldnt see
her fire

She just wanted her to graduate
do what she could never do
she regreated dropping out everyday
she didnt want that same regret for you

when she died you couldnt take it
why didnt God take your life
you decided to grant her last wish and go to college that night

but while you where there
you met a dashing young man
he promised you the world
at the flick of his hand

and you  feel for his trap
left school with 2 more years to go
only if you would of known

after 2 years he got violent
hit you for the first time
all you said in your mind was lies
then you realized what this was
you called the police
and to this day your baby girl
wonders why you took away her daddy

they always said she was different
you never denied she was strange.
she come asking for help,
but to you it was all just a game.

she came to school,
hurting the most by far
. but instead of crying,
she held up her heavy heart.
and you said you didn't know about her scars

she was never the same,
after that day.
when she showed you her bruises and you laughed anyway.
you said she was weird,
you used to call her smart.
you claim some friends just drift apart.

she came to school,
hurting the most by far
. but instead of crying,
she held up her heavy heart.
and you said you didn't know about her scars

She was hurting
but you didn't seem to care
she called out
but you were never there
you didn't love her
when all she needed was a friend

She came to school
hurting the most by far
but instead of crying
she held up her Heavy heart
and you said you didn't know about her scars

She leaned on her religion
yoiu called it weak
but to me it is the strongest thing see
because she was christian and she wasnt afriad to tell anybody
you see this is how most christians see and react to things
they say
"I dont hide my christianity
if it comes up in a conversation I might say something
I will be nice if people need me
but I dont walk around knocking on doors
I  dont go out evangaling
So christian is not what people see when they see me
thats not my problem
not my fault that they dont see the signs
that they cant read between the lines
not because of me"
and then they say
"I don't hide my christianity"

She was bueatiful
her hand graced the piano as she played
her voice morphed into something that touched my soul
her feet floating as she danced to her own beat
she was graceful
But alas she couldn't see
you see she didn't she the beauty in  the way she moved
the way she put her hair behind the ear
the way you could always tell what she meant by looking in her bueatiful eyes
but all she saw was her fat thighs
she didn't believe me when I said she was bueatiful
she thought I lied
I could tell by the look in her eyes
that she wasn't planning on surviving past this night
so I held her tight and didn't let her go
I fell asleep and woke to empty sheets next to me
I ran into her room in the morning and found her body cold
she was bueatiful and now she will never know

age is timeless

I feel like the sand
and everyday I lose more of myself to the ocean

I can not love you
If you don't love yourself

She had to many curls
I mean she was asking for it when she came to church dressed like that
Lets face facts she wasn't looking that good
her shoes where falling off her feet
she really need to do some laundry
but is that all you see
I know you see a reckless person
who you think could never be your friend
but if you looked deeper you would see something different
if you looked in her eyes instead of leeking at her eye shadow
maybe you would find the hurt that lies behind
or maybe you would see her cry for help
or maybe she will look up to you like no one else
you could change her life
and yet you walk out of her way because you think she wants a fight
Maybe if you told her what you thought
instead of holding in your laughter with all your might
you should see what she went through in her life
because while you want your dad to bring home take out
she hopes she gets food
you got to school caring about being cool
while she thinks about hot water
maybe if you just looked a little farther
but no its just to fun
laughing at someone
you dont know
because you think everymans on there own
well you know what
thats not true
while you walk down the hallways with your crew
texting them i cant live without you
yet she doesn't know if tomorow she will still be able to live
maybe the reason she has those clothes
is because that's the only thing she owns
and maybe she got those shoes form the dumpster out back
but your to busy having fun to admit the possibility of that
and she feels alone
more then she ever felt before
because she goes to a place of refuge and they laughter at her some more
when she finally has had enough
she picks up a gun
then you cry "I didn't know!"
maybe you would of known if you decided to look in close

When the world is darkest
Heroes see the stars
but don't so caught in the light
you cant see the dark

Pressure flooding on top of me
from all directions
from my family
my friends
from everyon who has ever meant anything to me
All telling me
what i should be
I constantly say I don't care what they think
I wish I wasnt lying
and if you know me I'm always trying to please
to be who they want me to be
I want to be free
free from stereotypes
free from what people want me to be
please let me be free

People everywhere hurt bullies before they can hurt victims like me
they have riots to tell bullies they wrong
and it has lasted this long
Yet if they only took a second to see
what the victims thought of things
they would realize we don't think I don't thing they are right
They are trying to fight
this problem
and think that is wrong
because when  there is a fight someone gets hurt
The last thing i want is more hurt people
I actually feel bad for bullies
because all of America just pointed their guns towards them
their friends ignoring them
people they don't know hating them
talking about them
they must feel just like me
because that person, or bully was hurting before the victim
and now BRAVO! you made them feel worse then ever
and everyone keeps filling them with hurt
and when they are filled with hurt that is all they can give back
And then you get mad at that
"A is a bully
they can never change!"
Maybe they could change if you gave them a chance to start changing
lets walk through this shall we?
If you fill them with hurt
they give hurt back
But when you fill them with love what happens with that?
You see bullying isn't a fight we should be fighting
They are broken people we should be fixing
hurt people we need to be healing
rips in them need mending
we don't need to tear them apart
we need to put them back together
show them love from the heart
that is were bullying stops

I'm not here to tell you you are wrong
i know a lot of christians sing that song
But I'm not going to tell you you were right either
I'm here to talk about love
Love is strong
love can tear a world apart
love is the way he still listens to us
when we pray for things out of jealousy
love shouldn't be on the streets
Yes, love is on the streets
People are in gangs because the love attracts them
they make an attachment
to a thin layer of love
that tends to fall short often
You might think they would realize thats not where they should go
but love attracts more than you know
They should go to the church but that is not where helpless people flow
Because the church is no longer filled with love
And don't get me wrong I've seen amazing things with help from above
but since that doesn't happen a lot
hopeless people turn to ***
Then the church is the first place the gossip goes
The preacher talks about drugs that Sunday
he didn't say your name
but everyone knows he is talking about you anyway
Then the hopeless people leave the church
and they are back on the streets
You see where I am going with this?
We are quick to blame them
yet we are to blame too
They jumped off a cliff and we talked about them as they fell
not knowing if we will ever see them again
And you fake like your their friend
till you slip up and they stab you in the back
do you think God will be pleased with that?
Lets rewind back to when Jesus was on Earth
He loved us more than we knew
while he was on the crosse he screamed
"Forgive them, they know not what they do!"
Yet you still don't know do you?
Do you know you are hurting the people God loves?
Hurting them when they did nothing to you
And they thought you loved them too
Jesus forgave you, and you didn't know the power of what you do
Right now I am telling you
You don't have the right   to talk about a man because he has tattoos
Or even judge a girl because you think she stole her shoes
Or even gossip about a dead beat dad drinking *****
because one day that might be you
Let me tell you what to do
love
because then you have the assurance one day someone will do the same for you
You see love is like a bandage mending broken wounds
Love is  a wall you can lean on
like the souls in your shoes
They keep people from falling
and they catch you if you do
love is something that makes people brand new
love is inside of you
Give love
because there is someone who needs it from you

Question: How do you get out of a house
with walls of hopelessness
a floor of despair
and a ceiling of what you can't do?

Answer: Suicide

They scream for me
They want me back
Their claws tug at my back
and you where holding me
pulling me away from them
but then you left
And now I don't have a chance against my demons