I have a horrible taste in men I don't care if they're short or thin but I need them to hit me as in physically hurt me take me bones and break them in ways I didn't think possible
Twist my mind take my beliefs and shatter them take the walls I built and bulldoze through them
lock me in your basement keep me there rotting for years tell me you love me as long as I let you in
I need to feel that abuse I want a love that hurts me I need you to treat me just like my father did
I guess you could say it's over that after months of contemplating weeks of fantasizing it's all gone to nothing dust blowing away in the wind as if they were never here at all we wont ever been more than acquaintances but at least this way he's not tainted by me
im hungry as in i didnt eat dinner my stomach is caving in on its self and i dont know how to fix it i could eat food but honestly i dont have any so i keep watching others that are eating and hoping i get some of that feeling
I'm hungry for hope as in I stopped believing my faith is caving in on itself and i dont know how to fix it I could find joy but honestly i dont have any so i keep watching other that are smiling hoping i get some of that feeling
We have a desire to matter To be remembered To have a life that was more than the standard Work to die Or always be dieing to work We live wanting more than average But won't take the big risk Because if they don't work out You die So we all strive for the middle A secure life where we are truly happy And mean something To someone Anyone It's a roll of dice But I will ask you one thing How do you expect to be remembered If all you do is work a 9 to 5 How do you want to be the greatest writer of all time If all you do is just enough to survive It's not going to be easy But it will be worth it Because you will finally find joy in your work Until you aren't working anymore So it's really a roll of the dice But the it will never roll in your favour If you don't try
I really do If I could just stop pretending around him He would know it too I'm just so stupid Just so young and dumb I don't know how to act Now that I'm in....
Hold on to me As we treat carefully Through our feelings I know I say I don't And I know I push you away But it's because I love you baby I love you and I don't want to hurt you Like I did to her
I don't want to be black anymore Strip me of my melanin My natural curls Take my lips My hips Remove the rhythm from my steps
I don't want to be black anymore Because in this society that means fear That means your death is warranted no justice exist here
I don't want to be black anymore Because that means my son Or daughter Is a victim of the world before us Where thier deaths are seen as collateral For the peace of all those lighter than them
I don't want to be black anymore Because I am a walking target Aim your gun at me Because my life means nothing
I don't want to be black anymore I was so proud of my ethnicity But now my race only means one thing Death
So no I don't want to be black anymore Because I don't want to be scared of everything I want society to love me And I want my life to be worth something