Inspiration
Looking for the right words to say
And actually finding them

Beauty
Is writing a poem and all the words fit
Its writing a poem only some people can get

Poetry
is an art
the most beautiful poems find a notion and grasp it
Explain the idea inside and out
Leave you with a question on your lips

Being a poet is a gift
Inspiration is a blessing
Use it wisely

The world never saw me for who I was
now that I think about it
the world never saw me
Somehow I escaped all their memories
I avoided all records of the time i spent here
my slate is white as snow
and much cleaner then my couscous
I thought you already knew this
I am an invisible girl
you have to see me to believe it

You know you were abusive right?
Honestly worse than your father
You strangled me with words
And left me riddled with questions and scars
Now the scars I applied myself
I had to create some physical evidence
Of the torture you left
And speaking of leaving
You left me
Which I'm happy to say
No longer distresses me
Even though you still won't adress me
Apparently
You go mute when I try to speak
Nontheless
I am no longer obessesing
But sadly
You learned to obess over me
It's obvious you started watching me
Amature
Cover your trail
You're immaturity makes your frail
But you were abusive
Though not anymore more
I finally have picked myself up from the floor
You see
I found the good in goodbye
And I don't crave you anymore
So goodbye abuser
And Thank you
For leaving me once more

Honestly
this is no more than me just getting over you
No more than me just contemplating
And not understand what logic I used
Back when I use to need you

I think it might be over
Even though I haven't been able to be sober
Even though I havent been able to stay focused
Even though I'm bipolar as *
And running out of luck

I think it might be over
Because throughout all this
I havent thought of you
Or what you use to do
I haven't craved your abuse

So I think it might be over
I think it might be done
I no longer dream of our  friendship
Or the mirage of 'love'
And when i see you
I honestly don't give a **

So I hink this might be over
I think
I'm done

I can't sleep
To many thoughts in my head
You block me so i have messages permanently unread
I wonder what you said
No i don't want you back
I just want it to be over
To erase you from my momery
And have a new journey
I want to be free
But these chains are hard to break
And they wrap back around me every time i see your face
But it's not sadness i am feeling
It's not want that i have
Its not regret for not knowing you
And not pain from memories of what we had
I can't explain it
When i see you its more like i don't feel
Like im back in that place when i first  met you
When i didn't have my own tears
And i can't sleep
Because this not feeling
Is filling my lungs the way you use to
Strangling me from inside like your words did
Making me shake like the pain you dished
Its been 6 months since we stopped talking
And i still
Can't
Sleep

Because the waves may hurt the sand
The sun may scorch the land
But they wait for it
They want it
And will relive it everyday