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rose14195 Dec 2015
maybe i was wrong
maybe im not strong
maybe i dont belong
with you
maybe im not perfect
maybe im not worth it
maybe im not better
than your average boo
because you like her better
I guess I dont count as a best friend
because you like her better
I guess I cant win
because I hold my tounge
I make fake words
I pretend to laugh
I pretend to learn
I pretend to remeber
I pretend to cry
I dont try to annoy you
I just want to survive
I found this in my notes. I was such a sad freaking person
rose14195 Dec 2015
I'm like the character one of those cheesy movies
when a person is bleeding out for what seems like eternity
ironic
I never thought I would be cast in such a idiotic role
those last moments when the words you say aren't enough
sigh
i guess I'm just a minor character dieing  in the film of your life
do me a favor
and be the protagonist in this novel
and not a John Green one
because i don't want you to die and leave someone you love behind
or live having someone you love die
but regardless
my chapters are over
I hope they where real page turners
because you need to get over me fast
your story is going somewhere
God is trying to make you a story
DONT FIGHT THE F*ING PAGE TURNING
lol i quoted you in the last line
rose14195 Dec 2015
Death is funny in a way
Knowing it is coming makes you wanna live
no matter how many times you asked for it
the reality of death
makes you want life
rose14195 Dec 2015
If you break a poets heart
You will live on forever
Everything they say will be infused with aftermath of you
The emotions
Loneliness you left with them
Will fill all thier writing
Inspired them to write more
You will be a co-author in millions of poems
The inspiration to thousands works of art
And you won't even know it
You wont even know in a hundered years you will still live on
You dont know about your newly found
*Immortality
  Dec 2015 rose14195
Mike Hauser
Just when your world collapses

To the point of fall apart

There still resides a tiny spark

Deep within your hungry heart

The tiniest of slivers

A slight glimmer of hope

A righteous nod from the voice of God

Letting you know you're not alone
rose14195 Dec 2015
I feel free
Finally
I feel free
rose14195 Dec 2015
Once I believe in fairy tales
then life came knocking
I let it in willingly
not know what it would steal from me
or what i would give it
you see my world was fake
i live in a bubble where hope
and love existed
then you came along
you showed me the hurt and pain
that came
with the reality of living
you gave me all the reasons I had to die
all the pain i had to feel
the depression that i had in me
The fact that love isn't real
you taught me
so many things about life
lessons I have to unlearn everyday
Have to convince myself that you lied
that its not really this way
that i interpreted it wrong
that I had nothing to say
It was you
who came knocking
and showed me how broken
I was
you taught me
lessons
of self destruction
and left me
when I started to listen
you taught me how to slowly dismantle my soul
until all that was left was emptiness
that only you could fill
and you told me to get over it
and forget the lesson
and you left me
with it
with the emptiness
you told me existed
but I'm unlearning your lessons
learning what you said doesn't matter
and the mundane things in life are blessings
so my dad is a mess
and so my mom is disabled
so i have no friends
and sometimes i feel depression
but my life isn't over
I'm getting stronger
learning love isn't an emotion i can get from anyone
until i feel it for myself
You made me learn that
and I thank you
for teaching me pain
then letting me beat it
you made me stronger
I'm STRONG NOW
and no one
not even you
can take that from me
IM FINALLY OVER IT YALL
HALLELUJAH!!!!!
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