Can we try again?
one last time
I have really changed alot
its been a month since my last lie
can we try again?
i wont try to read your mind
im not infacruated by you anymore
i wont waste your time
can we try again?

I havent been eating
My stomache just hasnt craved food
the only thing on my mind is suicide
and you
so i havent been eating
my bones are started to pretrude
reminds me of what i use to do
I havent been eating
I dont know if its anoerexic
returning to haunt me
or if its depression wanting to love me
but i havent been eating
and Im ok with that

I want you to ****** me
I want to retrace the claw marks i left on your back
and rediscover your body
I want you to love me
hold me close until the sunrise
waking me just to kiss me
and tell me im pretty
I want you to keep me
and never let me go

I love being abused
the feeling of be able to earn love
but never being enough
abuse is my drug
I look for meaning in the words they sing
whether male or female
I can give them all they need
I guess thats why i fell for you
why i got addicted to you
you gave me all that i need
all i was asking for
all wanted to see
but honestly
I have been abused my whole life
your just the only one
who used the words
I love you
to **** me
to take the inside of me and put it on display
created a weapon out of a piece of art
ruining my perspective of beautiful
you  took abuse to the next level
told me I was the abuser
telling me i would never get it
leaving me just so i can feel the empty
than telling me I shouldnt feel anything
you see you discredited my belief
you used love
the sharpest weapon
to abuse me