we were all kids once
we had a time where our imagination would take us to the stars
when we made heaven wherever we are
and happiness was never that far
we were all kids once
and there was a time when a smile never left our lips
when we didn't know the meaning of the word miss
do you remember the pure bliss
of being a kid
we were all kids once
but the demons we encountered
that society has called humans
demented our innocence
changed our perspective
and made us grow up
to the point where we question
if we where ever kids once

hello my name is whatever you want it to be I
guess that means I'm a pushove
r you used to call me easy
and yet I still crawled back to you
on my hands and knees
pleading for forgiveness
for just trying to please
I don't think you understand
how ironic thi situation truly is
a girl tries to help you
ends up hurting herself
and leaving you empty too
so I guess that means I'm nothing
a vessele thats  waiting to be used
and yet no one wants to use me
why couldn't you just use me

and so my name is whatever you want it to be
and I guess right now that means I'm nothing

don't forget i was your first kiss
the first girl you wanted to be with

don't forget how you couldn't keep your hands off me
that there was a time when you loved me

don't forget we rediscovered love together
dont forget the smiles we believed
or the demons we pleased

dont forget the trials we had
and don't forget they were not all fails

and if your gonna remeber me
don't forget
what we use to mean

i want to **** you
and save you
at the same time
you destroyed my mind
gave me a demented
a warped
view on life
you took me
saved me in a false paradise
fed me propaganda
told me lies
and you call me the liar
manipulated me to the point
that i thought i loved you
to the point that i still love you
you twisted reality
like a drug
i was addicted to the insanity
the pure mind boggoling
pain you gave me
and i thought you loved me
you said you loved me
and you call me
the **liar

are you happy?
did killing me make your smile?
did the steps you made to succes
with my broken heart
get you where your going?
are you happy?
are you living with love in your heart?
did the moment you left me
fill with joy?
how long do.we have to stay apart?
are you happy?
and if you are
i will **** myself
because that means for 3 years
i kept you depressed
i.made you bulimic
suicidal
and lost instead of found
are you happy?
Because if i made you that depressed when i was trying
how have i hurt the people i didn't strive to fix
are you happy?

The hardest part of letting go
is learning not to care anyone
learning not to think of them anymore
learning not to love anymore
the hardest part off letting go is the silence
the 0 messages on my phone
when i remeber you when the only reason i had one
the hardest part
of letting go
is learning
how to be ok
with being alone

im reading a book about you
a girl who lives her life
helping others
was buliemic for attention
it turned into an addiction
captivated by things they never mentioned
cut for reasons she never siad and
lived without regret
this book i have is called handel with care
impeachable timing
the minuet you leave me
i.pick up this story
of this girl whose mannerisms
match
your exact
making
handle with care
i wish you came with that warning
but i broke you
not knowing
you could be broken
im reading a book about you
but it sits in my backpack
im scared to flip the pages
to see what happens next
because everytome she cuts
its your memory that rushes
everytime she purges
i think of you in here place
and how i couldnt save
you
and i dont want to know what happens to this girl
when i cant know what happens
to you