Because it says friends never leave, but they always do
Because it teaches you highschool isnt depressing
and that a perfect boy is waiting for you
but the ones with the pretty eyes always decive you
sleep with you
than leave you
the reason i hate disney
is because it lies to you

the only thing you taught me
is that love
is conditional
and love is pain
love is temporary
leaves you empty
it strains
who you are
and what you believe
and that love is just a memory

i have no one to talk to
no one who accepts me
cares about me
thinks about me
wants me
i could die tomorrow
and no one would cry for me
i dont wanna be lonely
i want to have somone to look forward to
someone to live for
someone to stop cutting for
somone to eat for
somone to smile for
but i have nobody
and there is nothing i can do about it

Im Depressed
smiles are fading
the memories are blurring
r.i.p to my feelings
and r.i.p to whoever wants to know me

I'm Empty
i lost the best part of me
i lost my personality

I'm Angry
this fire is inside me
wanting to snap at everyone i see
not wanting to think
only wanting to scream

I'm Dangerous
don't try and get closer to me
i will **** you with my hate speak
my evil mind
abd my demented lies

Im D.E.A.D

and I'm nothing more

people only love me for moments
for misses
touches
abd kises
the first couple seconds
before im old to them
first couple seconds
before they're over it
im not sure ill ever be over it
not sure ill ever get over this
I'll never get over
how people never stay
how i can feel the loss
of somone i never had
how i can feel heart break
when i never really had a heart
because these people never loved me
and im not enough
to know how to love
so why
does hurt me so much
when they leave
people only love me
when they need me
otherwise im just an empty vessel
trying to fill your needs
and nobody
loves a nobody

because plugging in earbuds
and pretending the people you love
hate
or dont know
dont exist
is easier than realizing your alone
better than explaining why you exist
to people
who couldnt care less
better than explaing why you exist
to yourself
and hiding in a song you know all the words of
in a melody you can replay in your mind at anytime
because we as humans hide
so run from your own presence
because plugging in your earbuds
is easier than learning
how to survive

Have you ever felt bigger than your body?
as in your emotions swell to the point that your soul pushes against your skin
makes you question the reason you exist
have you ever felt big?
like alll attention is on you
like the world stopped for a momentt to laugh at you
critique you
make you feel alone
have you ever felt small?
as if everyone doesnt notcie you
steps all over you
the words you say fall on deaf ears
no point in speaking at all
have you ever not felt?
Have you ever
have you ever been alone?
have you ever
have you ever been without a home?
have you ever
have you ever had your heart stole
have you ever
have you ever
really
been