In your slaughterhouse solitude
You've butchered rationale from your mind
It seems reason just doesn't want to rhyme with your life
You've hacked away at happiness
Left nothing for it to cling to

Now sinking into sadness
You're trying to find what that can bring you
It's depressing
The damage a meat cleaver can do to your head
Along with the other rattle brained cattle
Aligned and angry
A silent herd
Longing to be heard by anyone

The belt moves and
The blood thickens
The inevitable inches closer
A steel rod to bring you closure
Cut you off from this
Cold world exposure

But you can reverse this
Even though you've rehearsed this
In your heart of hearts you know
Your conscience speaks
Don't do this
Jump off and
Hit that emergency stop button
It's bright red you can't miss it
Put there as a lifeline to
Dismiss your pain
A backup escape so that you can convey
Your true desire to live

In this motionless state
Breathe
Don't think about me or
Anyone else
Only yourself
The hurt has halted and
You've hopped off that ****** train
You will not be slain from anguish
Instead allow the clarity to
Carve itself within you

I wish the world was rounder
Or at least a little softer around the edges
But what I've found up until now is that
The ground we walk on is flat and sharp and
I can only assume that the cosmos is the same and
Further conclude that the universe reflects
Our names in the stars
In a Milky Way white wonder  
With a backdrop of midnight mystery  
Placing obstacles in the way between
Us and our true identities so
We only get to see them as a
Twinkling reminder of history
Paying homage to the past
With a flat pinpoint canvas
To show us the sky is smooth
A shining mirror
The earth is flat
It has an edge
You can fall off
It happens so fast
I hope it starts to spin and
Begins its orbit
Before I slip again and
It's my last

I rewound the memory
A minds eye film of my heart on fire
One of my favorites to replay

I see it frame by frame
As if I were pressing pause repeatedly
Aflame from friction
I can feel the heat fill the air
The sparks lick my imagination
Surrounding with its love and conviction

I've always been afraid to hit fast forward
Watch my passion swiftly burn and extinguish
Leaving behind my ashen anguish

But this time my feline curiosity gets the best of me and
Suddenly I'm seeing the amber glow
Grow at double speed
Getting brighter and brighter
As the seconds keep accelerating

The warm ember a beacon
Illuminating our kindled future
Proving my worries wrong

Instead of dimming and losing life
My heart will be hotter ignited
Each moment we are together
Beside each other
Alive

Why would I ever venture to guess
That you would be willing to meet me halfway?
My empty attempts are wasted endeavors
I give it my best shot
In pursuit of mutual presence
A hesitant undertaking that
Solicits the same solidarity I strive to stifle
I know I'm a hindering burden that
Overloads you like a snow covered tree
Still clinging on to its leaves
Never letting them go until they're
Weighed down and overloaded
A strain crack break
Brings it down in a thunderous sound
To handshake the ground
I am a huge hassle that hugs his hostile self
Grabbing his own handful heart
Holding it in the air as a sign to declare
Sorry for the inconvenience
I've been rocked goodbye
The wind didn't blow
It was snow that broke me
The bow never budged
It was the entire tree that plummeted
A swift fall to bring my cradle and all
Crashing so you no longer have to sit

Some people think they speak with razors and spit fire
But there's a gun on the tip of this tongue
That shoots the truth straight through you
I know it goes in one ear and out the other  
I wish the words would fill your lungs
As punctured penetrating proof

Don't deny
You can't lie
For a moment you felt it
For a second you knew
I was right

I can remember growing up in my car
That year of not so sweet sixteen
As my line of sight aligned with my knuckles and
Further to the cyclops viewfinder windshield
That showed me the world through its
Cracks of heat expansion and cold contraction

I remember getting ice cream with a girl once and
Realizing that high school never was one of Baskin Robbins 32 flavors
Maybe that's why I never bought into it or liked the taste
Feeling it to be a waste of time

I remember driving by the school
Bright and early in morning
Deciding today was not my day and I'm not going
Because I was always too cool
Or more accurately too foolish to see the point of it all

I remember drug filled days passing by in a daze slowly but surely
But in my mind they drift by like a cigarette drag in my memory
Subsequently with each inhale and exhale

I remember the day I chose to walk the halls like a ghost and
Make as little impact as I possible
As far as I'm concerned I was fairly successful

I remember not knowing what it meant to be a sophomore
Only that as the pain progressed I was beginning to feel more and more soft

It's hard being the ****** in the vehicle
It's a vicious vessel to handle

Four grades in a classroom
Three years in my backseat
Two days in jail
One life to live

When I was sixteen
I wish this wasn't the future
Now it's my past

Your rants and raves are really jokes
Not everything that happens is planned and hoaxed
You live your life in paranoid anxiety
'The government is out to get me!'
All events are viewed as conspiracy
Even in light of true tragedy

You put a spin on victims emotions
Insisting there must be more to the story
You thrive on scandals
They're like handles that drive you
Your rumors humor me

We watch the news as politicians falsify
Every word said is meant to forward their cons and lies
However this may be the deception you crave
Just go with the gossip
It's all crime
It's all fraud
It's all hearsay

They all have schemes
They all have scams
But will you allow their crimes
To cheat and swindle their way into your mind?

Of course you will
Buying into fake feelings
You fabricate your reality
We can't remove their ***** linen
So why don't we all commit
Treacherous treason?

By all means be aware and informed
But be fair warned
Our opinions play an insignificant role
In issues that go beyond our control

The Internet has proven itself a poisonous tool
I'm using it to show you that you are all fools
Myself included

Get a grip and
Lighten up
Lets make the most of it
Because apparently
It's all corrupt