No one to talk to
No one to be
To coexist with the same kinds
Yet I will never see.

I saw him in my dreams
The man who always saw potential in me
Who saw all my aspirations before he could see
me achieve them
And so I told him
that he should buy a lake house closer to home.

I've relied on time too much
I'm aware that I confide on a basic thought
"pretending" to be real...
Although, I'm not the only one who checks their watch
watching numbers change patterns
reminding people of moments forgotten
We've all been tricked
I mean what exactly are you looking for when your alarm goes off
"You have to wait an hour" etc...
That's a waste, you're waiting on things that have already passed
and yet... We've all been tricked
We're not able to actually describe time
Our definitions would include the word time itself
But yet,
I think the only "thing" that can tell time
is Fate.

A week of reality is gone in just seconds
As my life comes back to the reality
that lacks truth and acceptance
Not everyone can be an actor he said
but not everyone can tell the truth.

So I'm back to where I remain in the back of any group gathering photo

including my family's.

Tonight I was face to face with a boy who used to ask me out
Constantly
Years ago
Today I ordered a scoop of chocolate ice cream from him
as if it were some usual encounter with a Coldstone employee
No acknowledgements
Just him, me, and the held out ice cream between our distance
It's funny how things change
It's funny how things have changed
And it's quite hilarious how I've changed.
I tend to always search for a group to "fit" in to
But on the contrary I do not.
And just because he forgot who I was
I, along with him, did too.

I (x)
am (is) equivalent to
the negativity of becoming someone who is
neutral
when breaking down the exact same yet half
of being yourself, being yourself
taking afar For a common knowledge
that rationalizes you
To become of an existence.

Headphones in
On your mark, get set, go.
Time to really look at your surroundings
and forget that you exist for just a moment...