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234 · Sep 2015
Slow Fall
Slam Sep 2015
Slow Fall
As winter weather fall like feather
The ashes of my heart trashes me apart
Like nudging the piercing to get a feeling
It makes me pay away
The deeds of my yesterday

It's slow like cancer
And the pain was from your answer
That I can never be your lover
I know I'm just a cover
And this isn't forever

So I'll bit my tongue and bleed
For someday i might succeed
But for now I'll hide this pain
Like wearing a jacket on my pocket

On a rainy season of May
So i crawl down your hall
Out of this place
For i know i have a replace
Just let me take time to call
For what i can only do is slow fall
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223 · Mar 2017
The world we live in
Slam Mar 2017
The world we live in
As the bone of the body decay
Everything in the world remain
The Cycle of words polluting the air
Continously sleep walking in circles

People looking through the unknown
In stranger places
Less cruel than the crowded home
A place where pain is tolerated

All the way down
Feels like hope is gone
Everything has just gone wrong
Journey had become too long
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222 · Aug 2016
Write
Slam Aug 2016
Write
Write
Write it all out
Put it down in a paper
Make the paper feel even if its numb
Put the ***** you hold back in a white lined wood
Call it the stroke of a hand
Or the confusion of the hands
Put it in and leave your misery on it
Let it slay the rocking heart of yours
In it are written thoughts you hide to peek
Its an art
A dangerous art of making a sense out of the confusion we hide
Write It in the paper
Read all it and leave it in your sheets
Publish your minds disease
Spread the plague of words to their hearts
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221 · May 2016
Lost
Slam May 2016
Lost
We were stars in the dark sky
A shiny piece of light
We guided our path
Not knowing where to go
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217 · Aug 2016
Lost in Silence
Slam Aug 2016
Lost in Silence
The silence got a heavy price
The pause that cause unwanted applause
It jiggles from the freckles in your heart
Clinging a heavy sac of blood beneath the moment
Rings the tone of a cold heavy embrace
Chills by nightmares by unpleasant stares
Awake no sound
For the silent view will open the darkest remnant
Pause a while in the shatters
Clap for the untamed voice of yesterday forecast
Quiet for the silent moment can call on you
Don't make no noise for it shall be screeches unkown
Listen well in silence
For the wake of all your chapters will open again
Never pour the storms for they shall never see the suns
Try to put the rain for the calm indearment shall pass
Try to put all in silence
The view will come slow
The moment will fade
It will show the mirror with nothing to reflect to
Be quiet
Be still
Now
Your
Gone
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217 · Jul 2016
Before I go to sleep
Slam Jul 2016
Before I go to sleep
Before I go to sleep
I fake my tears into dreaming
Pulling the gun inside my head
Trigger the pain i suffered long past
Awakening the tormented last
I remember their faces again
They carved my soul into the night
They dashed my summer with snow
They reached the echoes of my voice
They Planted the seeds of unwanted harvest
Rotten in sweetness of the bitter heart
Drowned to water of sugar and salt

Seek it out
The day of light you walk by the night
The shadows i called upon the pit
Shallow as the wounds of defeat
Oh fainting in a line
Dancing in the forefront of mind

Before I go to sleep...
Seek it out..
The days of nightmare have long past
Throw the bullet
Keep the gun
The trigger will not harm anyone

Now i close my eyes
Let the memories bid goodbyes
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216 · Sep 2016
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Slam Sep 2016
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The things we do not see today
Will lead us to our tomorrow
Have you ever noticed that the things that we do not have today becomes the things that we wanna earn in the future. The people that left us today helped shape our tomorrow. We search the feeling of love and belonging because we haven't felt it today. We are who we are because of the emptiness and thirst that drives us to live. Because there is still purpose. There is still more. We are more than the nothingness we feel today. That will be the defining words of our future.
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216 · Mar 2017
Innocent
Slam Mar 2017
Innocent
I used to feel free
Doing things like climbing a tree
Looking at the view past my insecurity
Pointing my fingers to the sun
Running around with no care
Feeling the emotions with sincerity
Painting my imaginations with silence in my sleep
Placing the moments inside so deep
Believing the great unknown
So hopeful in ways that is known
In morning songs the melody of my heart is revived
I was taking one step at a time
Making use of wasted time
I was good at staying alive
Letting myself breath in the greatness of world
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215 · Mar 2017
The weight of living
Slam Mar 2017
The weight of living
I want to breath but I'm not allowed to
I am suffocating with everyone else
Their voices are ill
I can't find no comfort
It is excruciating
Feeling the stabs of guilt
All the emotions are loud
I have not spoken though
Not even for once my ache
I am tired and sleepless
Finding a home i am restless
I hate them
I hate myself
All the anger i felt inside
I wanna cut myself open
Let it bleed
Feel the draping blood of agony
Curse the idea of healing
So painful
My mind is injured
Every bone i have is breaking
I cannot understand
I want to feel
All the emotions i can have
But this is all i have
I am scared for life
Chained in the burden of living
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215 · Mar 2017
The way of truth
Slam Mar 2017
The way of truth
As i lay down in bed
I have thought about thousands of words that infected my head
From my brain to my actions
Dazed and confused
Been hearing the same things
Feeling different emotions
Oh... So heavy
Decoding each phrase
Encoding each meaning as wounds
An awful way of truth
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214 · Jul 2016
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Slam Jul 2016
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The time ticks 1 2 3
See the 1 you hate to love
Love what the 2 eyes see
Say the 3 words
I love you
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204 · Oct 2017
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Slam Oct 2017
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As the window grow older than the webs wrapping
A young boy stares in gloom
The view outside gets older
Dry leaves and wet flowers
Rain pouring as the sky grow in tears
He saw all outside are washed away
Sulking soil turning to mud of new beginnings
Birth of the sun at the end of rain
What he had inside remained
His old room
Plagued with random past thoughts
Boxes filled of love, regrets, and all that is still…
Covered in walls
Restricted dreams left under his bed
Only a window to view reality filled with fantasy
Seeds became flowers that bloom
Trees getting stronger
Storms ending…
A new day come as the old washed away
However…
The boy looking through the window
Remained…
In the shadow of his old room and ways
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203 · Jan 2017
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Slam Jan 2017
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It is a feeling
I felt it for the first time seeing
Never thought i would experience this rare meeting
They say it is once in a lifetime
I say it remains even if all we have is fading time
I wasn't aware that these unexplainable feelings exist
It is something so precious yet short
A sensation you can't resist
I failed to respond to it
But it still taught me the way to fit
It brought the pieces together
Knowing that being complete means finding another
How sudden it was
So briefly it last
10,000 words i need to left spoken
A few just lasted in that right moment
Now it says i must be dreaming
Because i was looking for a shot
Finding the sentences i hope end in dot
A dot for all my unknown emotions
Answering the question mark to what i am feeling in these sensations
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196 · Oct 2017
Silence
Slam Oct 2017
Silence
I have a secret
I can’t say it
I can’t explain it
I feel it
I never knew there was something that could be so precious
Yet you cannot own
Not when your words are locked in your lips
Stitched and tied by the thread of the fear of losing, risking…
Feeling pain that is unknown
I can’t not know the feeling
There is no box in the mind that fits it
I hold on to it with both hands
It’s empty like you are holding onto air
I know that it’s still there but it will never be held
Not until my mouth breathe life to it
Not until I broke the seal of fear
Not until I believe that it could happen
Only I could make it real
So should I listen to what I feel?
Or silence myself… find comfort in the blinding darkness
Take cover from the truth
Live behind a wall while holding onto the same air
Be a prisoner of the same chains I made
Silenced by needle and thread
Live without words
Feel without saying
Holding onto words
Letting go of a dying chance
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188 · Sep 2016
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Slam Sep 2016
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Now I see the sky is blue
And here I go thinking of you
My heart felt like none of these are true
Cause you are now with someone new

Then i remember the bus rides in our trip to 2nd. Chances
But all you did was treat me like a ball that bounces
Now I caught the memories with every tear and ounces
All i ever asked was your last forgiveness

You said sorry i can't anymore baby
And all I thought was infinite maybe
You left me out with misery
And all I heard was sorry your out of my priority

Here i am again and again remembering
Feeling the lost past suffering
Her voice in my head is like an alarm keep ringing
And I can't seem to stop myself from believing

She's gone
She's in the arms of someone
I no longer feel another one
She's finally gone
She left me hanging hurt and undone
I don't ever wanna see the sun in the blue sky when it run
It reminds me that she was with me just for fun
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183 · Aug 2016
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Slam Aug 2016
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The lava will flow
So shall the water
Don't grow in pain
Make that a choice
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