High as I was
I took the jump for you
And as I did
You fell for her too
She took her leap
But she slipped from your hand
Now tell me, darling
Where do we land?

I swallow every bitter pill
Every ounce of thick liquid, red-blood
To get you out of my chest
To cough you out of my mouth
Leave
As I heave
Ignore the wheezing of lungs
As I take you in
As I let you out
Leave
Leave and let me breathe
Leave and let me live

I will scribble on your skin
all my feelings,
all my thoughts
***** with scratches
across words that sound wrong

You will know
all the lines that curve
into Os and Cs
into the tails of the ys and the js
and the gs
into beautiful phrases
badly written
on margins, on empty back pages
but nonetheless true

I will tell you
all the other yous I wrote about
You will know their names
Learn their stories

And I will tell you who I am
Lay myself between your sheets
I will bathe you with words
With ink
under fluorescent lights
Until we drown in each other