we have it backwards:
fear of others
when
we are likelier to hurt others first
therefore
be skurred of ourselves
rather than others

then watch how
God enters our lives
on the quietus
gentle
forgiving
watchful
protective

and being skurred
turns to courage and

caring for others
first
last
always


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

plucked strings play dooms of love
as my Father moves over them
agonizing
guitar strings into torture
victorious   heated   triumphant
****** sacrifice
crucifixion by melody
made holy despite unimaginable selfishness
wiring His Wounds into connective tissues
through tsunamic surgery
opening ways covered in blood
but we choose to live in our dooms
our pink dooms of disbelief
rose colored glassy, glistering lies
and glossic dooms of disbeliefs

“I am become comfortably numb”


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

the language of my heart
reduces to symbols
unspeakable
kanjis whose colors are bright
precisely painted
with brushes, imbued with
unknown meanings
as read by blinded eyes
obscured deliberately, without
a key

without
God
a cipher is my heart
a living kanji whose meaning is
undiscoverable
without the cleansing
blood sacrifice of the sang real
a living grail
made unspeakable and holy by
Love


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

my blue eyes
when deeply angered
(too often)

your blue eyes
when I’m dangerously close
to angering you
(too often)

my thin lips
when insulted beyond
my humor

your thin lips
when anyone is insulted

we are so different
and
yet, so similar

I am flesh
you are spirit
ensouled in flesh

my adamantine
is selfish
yours,
un

my path now
to follow
to learn the lesson
of adamantine being,
selflessly


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

Shin

you tower over me
in every way
possible
soul
spirit
being
goodness and
Love

Soe

I reach to touch you
short by several measures
wanting to put my blossom
beside you
upright yet wanting
ever wanting to
reach your heights

Tai

grounded
I keep my soul stilled
nearest your feet
nearest your earthed roots
to balance the wanting
wanting
wanting
in my being
to be yours


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

and thus it goes
circular and direct
feminine and masculine
woman and man
and not in that order
in God’s judgement

it’s in the breath
which He put in man
as his blessing
to give strength for hard labor
not in the rib that is woman’s
blessing
to give strength for childbirth

God’s judgement is
all that matters
it is done

tamam shud


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater

there burns midst a
soul
within the breadth of
holiness

a starry fire
to
birth itself
of living Light

and enflame the
mystery
of holiness
hidden within the heart-rose

which
like the water lily
rises from depth
unknowable

from heated unknowable
depth
from infinite unknowable
holiness
from burning intimate
creation

amidst us


c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater