Why are you packing?
Are we moving again?
What am I going to do? I just made new friends
Okay so were aren’t moving then a family vacation?
The school year just started we can’t miss that many days dude
So you’re going this trip alone?
How that sound partna?
Stop joking around and you better unpack that playstation
He didn’t have a car so he must have took the train station

I was seven years old with no clue what divorce was
But even now while I’m 20 I still feel what divorce does

I wish I was there when he was getting ready to leave but he left before anyone came home
Even though it was my mom and my two older brothers and me he left us all alone

I’m asking my mom where did he go when is he coming back?
It had to **** her daily hearing me ask that

Where did he go?

Was it something I did wrong?
Is he still alive or are we the ones dead to him?

I never got any answers
I figured it was because I was six years old
But no one ever got answers

Jordan was attached to his hip he had to have told him something … Nah?

Ok Dallas his first born my oldest brother it has to be in his birth right to some information like this … Negative !

Now definitely my mom is older than him she should know something or saw it coming but she thought she would have too

One beyond selfish person destroyed a pretty cool family of five

And I thought everything was fine

Until about five and that after school program couldn’t keep this little kid from missing his dad only to realize that anticipation will only leave you sad

Only to forget that rule a few years later every time he said he was picking me and my brothers up and never seem to have stopped by my house to let us in the car

It’s not like we ever moved so I know he has the address

He tried to teach my brothers and I karate he taught us how to block “every single blow”

I’m still waiting for the lesson to block the devastating blow to the heart that he delivered  

I want my lesson where did you go?

Savior of my soul
Lord of my life
Son of Man
Ruler that Reigns
His words spit flames and said things that have never been heard before
A righteous man if the world ever saw one
Never fully accepted himself but always showed love to the rejected
Always practiced what he preached so everyday was a scrimmage
Til it was time for the big game
Never forgetting his main plan and knowing he is the only man who can conquer death
And he did it with one hand
With faith turned water into wine
One touch alone he healed a man that was blind
His name alone cause demons to flee  
Jesus !
Like geez how much he love us
Like geez what he does through us
Like geez his only purpose on earth was to die for us
Geez us I mean we are not worthy of your sacrifice
Geez us I mean we do not have anything that could ever pay for the debt you canceled on our behalf
All the crap we have done all the money in the world wouldn’t be able to pay off even half
But Jesus died and rose three days later to show you that death has no sting
And by his name you can do anything
Jesus

The untold story that no one has heard
The myths you always hear about but never actually find the facts to prove it
A temperature it doesn’t get any colder
Or any hotter
I can stare at it with no bother
the one in my eye is my personal heart holder
The one  I see is ageless it doesn’t get any older
My eyes blink only to bow
And the occasional wink because one eye doesn’t want to miss a second of your presence
The only thing raised is my brow
The sweet treats to my eyes and keeps on doing it’s job in pleasing them
It’s everywhere and concentrated in one spot all at the same time
It reaches both ends of the spectrum
it is black and white but does not mix to make grey nor does it go together like zebra stripes
It extends past the amount of letter combinations in every language multiplied by the extent that pi stretches to … It doesn’t end
It will never die to me
It’s much more than just what eyes can see
But that is the only part you think about when I speak of her Beauty

Your lips are like pressing my lips against two clouds and embracing what is really on the inside
Or maybe more  like a fresh mango from a tree when I take a bite my taste buds are in the state of euphoria and the juice left evidence of it's presence around my mouth
Those lips of yours are like a mother nuzzling her first born
That first kiss from you were against my lips but it touched my soul and changed my perspective ...
On what exactly I'm still trying to figure out but I know my perspective changed
I started thinking backwards and seeing in reverse
Your lips fit like the missing puzzle piece that one piece that goes in no matter which way you place it so you know it has to be right
After kissing you my lips become star struck they cannot believe that they are able to embrace the grace of your mouth
It's like all the passion stored inside of you is poured out when our lips meet
Kissing you lets me know how it feels to be touched by an angel

Mondays are like when the cops come to shutdown a party that is approaching the highest point of the night
Mondays are like when you found out your prospective prom date is interested in going with you
Mondays are like when you find out your other half is splitting themselves into more than two pieces
Mondays are like when you find your savior for the first time
Mondays are like when you fail a test you spent all weekend studying for
Mondays are like when the leaves change color on trees in autumn
Mondays are like when it rains on a day you planned a picnic date that you could not reschedule
Mondays are like when you find your purpose for breathing daily and using that as motivation to constantly progress
Mondays are like getting a broken ankle after scoring the game winning touchdown
Mondays are like when you find a pond of fresh water after traveling by foot through a desert
Mondays are like talking to your celebrity crush with spinach stuck on your tooth
Mondays are like buying your favorite pair of sneakers
Mondays are like waking up early for a class that was cancelled
Mondays are like when the flowers bloom in the spring
Mondays are such a buzz ****
Mondays are like a fresh start

I mean look at those lips!
Trying to figure out how I made it this far and what gave me the strength to resist
I'm talking to myself on how to go about doing this  
Anxious and nervous excited and doubtful all at the same time
Like what if her mind isn't aligned with mine and she's thinking just because I took her out for a little dine that doesn't mean I get to taste her wine
What is on that pretty mind of yours?
Is it me you are thinking about or what you have to do when you get home like a few chores?
I feel like a freshman at a college where I know no one and I am constantly having the fear of rejection  
I just want to fit in
My lips against hers
I don't know if she notices that I'm having a staring contest with her lips  
She is about to get on the train  maybe I can sneak one  then hit the dips

I did it ! wait I did it?
I went in for the finish and baby girl was with it? She was with it !
& I know she liked it the way she put a little umph in it
Now it keeps playing in my head
She wanted more than just a peck from Peck she wanted the whole beak instead
Judging by that new sparkle in her eyes she ventured home very satisfied
Thinking back I should have did it sooner but I was in no rush even though I felt like a loser
Actually through all my debating I'm glad that I waited because that promoted the fight between being patient and being overly anxious
It was the perfect time
When her lips touched mine she must have kissed my mind too because my thoughts are causing me to want her here and for the both of our lips to be near ...
Once again