“The Owl and The Fox”

Silvery white shines the moon tonight

As the sea caresses the shore

And rain slips through the door

The wind roars aloud

At a ship sailing on a cloud

My safety seems so weak

For these walls are all i seek

To guard against these forces strong

But my safety will not last for long

This hope I abandon in all

And pray to God to catch my fall

His hand i do not feel

Though his help I know is real

My castle is gone

Standing alone I feel so wrong

Secluded on this sandy stretch

I look to my right and to my left

Then looking to the water black

I see a face that has no lack

Of terror and fear

That drowning is near

Forgetting all thats been lost

Saving them is my only thought

Plunging into the icy sea

I try to save them as i tried to save me

Kicking back in hope of life

The waves cease their strife

And the wind sinks in its icy knife

Looking down to face this man

I see it was a woman i brought to land

Taking her hand

I lift her from the sand

Staring at me she opens her lips

Then speaks in a voice not honeyed or crisp

Never the less her speech I can tell

Is the voice of an angel chiming as a bell

I try to let go of her hand lily white

But she holds on so very tight

And whispers so slight

Nine words in my ear

That I could barely hear

“Thank you for saving me

my gallant gray knight”

Heart skipping a beat I knew that I would

Love only her for as long as I could.

I'm sure you can see

Even though this may be

A story far off way out in the sea

I still hope in my heart its about you and me.

From The Fox, To The Owl

Have you ever forgotten an appointment?

Or maybe a birthday that was full of dissapointment?

Imagine forgetting weeks?

Loseing days!

Can you comprehend the terrible ways?

The torment that ensues?

Now go one step further

Follow me a few steps more in ferver.

I dont want your sympathy.

I need you to comprehend

To simply understand

I lost ten years of my life, and i cant bring them back.

Still i forget, never do i know

If these words were mine

You all are to kind.

For kindness does nothing to help me find

The lost years or missing months

These sprinkled days filled with that ticking clock

Im talking about some serious memory loss

Silvery white shines the moon tonight

As it peaks out and beams,

I think maybe I see

A little sad smile,

just the slightest of smirks

Two crinkled eyes,

on a face that would make you cry

Its the full moon,

That makes the night feel like my day

I am a Vagabond
A prince among the poor
The best of the worst
The one who puts the worst at their best

I am an Outcast
A king among the fallen
The lowest of the least
The first step to becoming more
Is climbing over me

I am a Gypsy King
An Outcast Prince,
The Vagabond

“Anxiety”

Hell awaits seething
As flames flow bleeding
Through my fingers burning
The tears in yearning
Shed in payment red
For my shadows dead
All they sought was redemption
For falling to temptation
Never stopping to think straight
Judgment I laid down on their fate  
Only to find the light
Was always in the right
Again I have fallen prey
To everything the voices say
Anxiety...Anxiety
Its all I can hear
...
Next all I can see
....
I'm sinking beneath
.....
The weight of this sheet
......
Being pulled over my face
.......
Now I share with them their fate

Rolling thunder from its waves
Crashing lightning upon its shores
A ship battered forever in the sea
This is all the chaos and contradiction
A storm left raging deep inside me

There is a change
A life that waxs and wanes
It happens when you least expect
And you never know what's next
Its like a dream
And hits like a solid moonbeam
It'll turn you around
And sing the purest sound
So keep your faith
Never stop giving grace
Because you never know what's next

A freak with a gift
The beast able to lift
The very sky
And hold it high
But no one sees
No one heeds
Its whimpers of pain
They only want to gain
Control of a monster
Who tries to say he lost her
His beauty and love
When he reached up above
To help all of you
He lost her too
Now he is alone
Frozen to the bone
With fear and doubt
Unable to shout
That he needs his life
His love his wife
The only one who never screamed
But looked up and beamed
At this monster so strong
Who no one had loved for so long

So run and hide
Any who seek to guide
This giant will
Let loose and ****
Anyone between him
And his most precious gem
You wont be cut
Or clawed and shut
In a coffin cold
Filled with mold
He needs no weapon save his eyes
For they will pierce through your lies
Laying bare your soul
Leaving just a gaping hole

You will die, you will fade
But he cannot, for there will always be shade

I have a million questions
That ide ask you night and day
If i thought you loved me
In remotely the same way
So instead i'll run and stay
In my cottage far away
Just living alone and peacefully
On the sea shore were i lay

Looking inward I see out
into blackness into doubt
A deep dark that screams
it rips apart my life at the seams
A lack of surety stoops me low
like a burden no one else knows
But I will stand up straight and tall
I will not falter or fall
for I hold the sky above you all

“goodbye”

Don't think
Don't even blink

The stories are coming
The songs are humming

Rising to ****
All those who fill

All imagining dreaming
And pictures sinking

My stories are stirring
The beasts are luring

Don't look
Don't leave

They know your names
Just as they know my shames

I had them under control
Until I tried to console

The monsters I made
Then put in a cage

But I broke
And then they spoke

For When I thought
Is when they fought

Now I see
My burning tree

Its my heart
The very start

Of love and laughter
Along with all i've sought after

But their souls are screaming
As flames flow bleeding
Through my fingers burning
The tears in yearning
Shed in payment red
For my creations dead

Every time I would die
One of them might fly

Afraid I deny their freedom
And sacrifice them fearing

Their fate
Is mine now late

So goodbyes are long
Since soon i’ll be gone

From all this light
And the ceaseless fight
goodbye