Summer came and went
And with it my soul split and shattered
You threw the rock
But held the welder to put me back together
I reflected only what was there
And there wasn't much
So I became a window
Birds flew and grass grew
But I was stuck
Rooted to the spot as if I were an oak
Weighed down by branches
That gave nothing but took all
No leaves grew
Only thorns
And I was protected

Summer came and went
And ended as it began
Broken
Branches snapped
Thorns dulled
And I was left
Grass withered
Birds flew south
Trees were cut for fire
And I was no different
Ragged, I waited for summer to return
But when you did
You only went
Summer came
But no longer

I can't remember how to say
Everything that's in my head
The words that I believe by day
Slip through the cracks when I lay in bed
They sit on the tip of my tongue
But dance away before they are formed
Gone, before it has even begun
As if from my mouth they were torn
Past, deceased, die
Come from my lips as if there is a bond
But I....
Gone

See the sadness in my eye, if you took the time to look
But most people believe the lie, sinker line and hook
Embarresed to talk bout the feelings in my mind
So I internalize it all, get used to it in time
But the darkness never fades, it is always on the edge
Looking at these lines, that are dropping A from read
The scars will never disappear, remind me of my past
Even though I have moved on from that, fear that they aren't last
Still plague me in my dreams, wether waking or asleep
So I try to ignore the demons creeping out of me
They escape in time alone, but surrounded I'm no better
Short sleeves it's apparent, kinda like my scarlet letter
D for depression or M misunderstood
People say they're here to help, but tell me how you could
Do you get the pain I live with? Is it something you understand?
Do you lay awake at night, with a razor grasped in hand?
Does your arm run red, when the worlds too much to bear?
Or do you have another means to get you out your head?

So don't tell me you get it, sympathy for me's no good
Rather when you see me with my headphones on and hood
Don't tell me that it's nothing and don't think that you know better
Cause chances are there's reason behind wearin long sleeved sweaters
I don't mean to be scarin kids or give the wrong impression
It's just the more you know, the more you'll understand depression

It's sad how no one gets it, get judges it's so offensive
Like an expletive instead of answering a question
It's me, my scars my life
Not you, your kid your wife
Your ******* a bit too tight
Try to loosen up inside
Cause it's not your life that's ******
Not your problem you're in luck
Never wish this **** on anybody, no ifs ands or buts
Tormented by day, live with terror in the night
Cause the shade envelopes me no matter how I fight
Just gave up, my wall collapsed
Defenses didn't last
So I caved in let the darkness have a blast
Say it's just phase, **** I wish that **** were true
But it disappears then returners stronger in a day or two
The numbness creeps up higher, reaching for my brain
Then finally it's became part of every nerve and vein
Encompasses my body and it takes over control
Until the days fade together, looking like a blur
This is not a joke, you just probably don't know
Ive been dealin with this it's begun to take a toll

So don't tell me you get it, sympathy for me's no good
Rather when you see me with my headphones on and hood
Don't tell me that it's nothing and don't think that you know better
Cause chances are there's reason behind wearin long sleeved sweaters
I don't mean to be scarin kids or give the wrong impression
It's just the more you know, the more you'll understand depression

I get so **** frustrated when I hear these people hate
About how weird those scars look, they don't take a second or wait
Try to figure out the meaning, or the reasoning behind
All the anger or the sadness that could cause the kind of drive
That would force the decision to drag across your skin
A razor or a knife or a lit cigarette end
But to me that **** means something that to you it never could
Because livin it myself has brought me closer to
The truth that lies beyond what these people have forgot
It's not your place to judge anyone who's cut
Cause chances are your wrong, and you probably make worse
Cause from experience that won't make them think first
It's just another reason to be done with your surroundings
To disappear inside and become hard as granite
To live to die to choose
Some alleviate with *****
While others turn to pills or *** to get them out the mood

So don't tell me you get it, sympathy for me's no good
Rather when you see me with my headphones on and hood
Don't tell me that it's nothing and don't think that you know better
Cause chances are there's reason behind wearin long sleeved sweaters
I don't mean to be scarin kids or give the wrong impression
It's just the more you know, the more you'll understand depression

Dearest friend,
I can see the end
It is more exciting than just death
It is what is best
For me, for you, and everyone
I lack the urges to go on
The darkness that surrounds my mind
Consumes me all the time
It is all I see, all I hear
It comes through crystal clear
I know that you don't see it
But behind my skin I'm bleeding
From invisible cuts I give myself
As well as those that others dealt
My brain has gone, and feelings with it
To the point I can't pretend it's
Not my life, and not my end
But, my dearest friend

It is

Tomorrow becomes today while you sleep
Today fades to yesterday and
Reality becomes a distant memory
Forgotten amidst the shapeless space
Confined behind closed eyelids
Worlds are constructed and demolished in a single moment
Making way for impossibilities that we have created
Hours become mere moments
And mere moments last an eternity
Fireworks play in your mind
Each explosion of color a different universe to explore
Dreams become more than images
Sounds
Sensations
Inexplicably run while you sleep

Dreams turn acidic
Melting away the past and present
Holding the future at an arms length
While worlds spin casually

Reality bends and shatters
Fragments become shards become specks
And fade to past memories melting away
Until all that remains is the present

One second is infinite as it bleeds
To an eternity
But ends at the exact moment the next begins
What remains is mesmerizing and immaculate

That was that moment
And this is this moment