Clouded judgement, biased opinions
based off stereotypes and ancient value
your own experience from perhaps too many years
it all makes sense but you can't lay it down on me.
Always wanting what is best, never fully healing past
what happened in your world which was catastrophic
but at some point we all come to the realization to move on
if we are strong, now I know why I can never seem to reach you.
Always seeming to gather thoughts and emotions reports and reviews
of everything from other people, having to master knowing what they think
before making up your mind so you aren't even really yourself
which is part of why you can't seem to reach me.
After all this time, nights of crying and asking why I have so much pain
can all this anger find its place, having no inclination as to where it all has come from
not personally experiencing what some may end up calling the textbook definition of
depression, post traumatic stress ,anxiety, attention deficit hyper whatever
but yet all at once aggravatingly confusing , constantly asking question after question
knowing they ultimately came from your inabilities, getting over every of my problems
simply because I was strong enough ,ironically in part because of you
but I think with those higher standards that could have been set by either one of us
the anger of you not fulfilling that is your fault the life you lead is your choice mine is mine.