she is so tired of words for the first time in her life she had so much to say but now it clogged her throat burning like bile no definition is good enough to swallow the sorrow
she was born a half formed thing holes in her soul not enough effort left over to raise her better in her gasping wet breaths she tried to be smaller but only swallowed more becoming lovers with her failure missing the eyes and ears to know she reached for an absent future only learning later she was made in the perfect shape of their shame
her words make her feel like an imposter the past makes her feel like a spectator when he asks her how the family is doing she wonders if she looks pretty enough if it will ever be able to cover it all up he doesn't bother to ask any further and she gets her answer
you think it's cruel how quickly I forgot about you and when I remember to think of it I think so too if no one stays it's a lifetime of Object Impermanence baked in by nature but nurtured by others including you