venom veraciously running through my veins
cowardly hiding from your cordial love calls
relentlessly rounding up their rigid rumors
now hoping to hide my heightened helplessness
diminishing those devious devils, drowning all
a hatred hovers for them, always haunting me
does a *****, almost lover lie? no, no, no--
so sincere, so saintly, so astounding.
i'm wearily weaved in your web
i'm caught.
i'm caught.
i'm caught.

i guess i'll light up this memory again
it'll sputter at first, then the smoke will billow
a grey cloud of memories surrounds my reality
my reality, if you can call it that

because i'm dreaming in and out
just searching for the pristine light
that's going to keep me moving
i need some gasoline on these rotting logs

a kiss, to stir the embers
an embrace, to see the flames
a serenade, to make the light dance
your presence, to fuel my bonfire

although it's withering during the night
i find comfort in the heat and vivid colors
whoever conceptualized love, knows of fire
knows of the burn, knows of the mystery

i'll leave coals across the distance
this distance that greatly separates
but it'll light your way back to me
and you'll see, i'm left burning for you

a red, passionate heart left simmering
while you fetch more firewood, out there
you'll find your way back through the woods
and see, i've kept us alive all this time

whoever conceptualized love, knows of fire
knows of the burn, knows of the mystery

<3

fingertips tracing an outline
surely tainted by our love
not a gaze, but a fixation
on all i can imagine
silenced by the drifting conclusion
that you'll be gone
i'm left with seven days
to drown in your icy undertow
although it burns my core
and lights even the darkest what-ifs
i'll soak you up, every bit that i can
it will have to last me a long time
dreams are beautiful
and memories, unreal
but even those won't compare
to the holiness of your heart,
the affection labeled on my soul,
and a persistent need to adore you.
it's one that i can feel beating
hidden beneath blood, flesh, and bone
i'll ask the moon to watch over you
and maybe even the sun, you'll know
i'll clench to the sound of your voice
radiating in and out of the long days
long for your smile... oh, ****, your smile
i won't be able to quench my thirst
it will be a long desert walk
until i'm finally back into your arms
but i'll be waiting
loving you more than today
and even more after that.

cupid took his aim
shot through the heart
so different this time
the arrow struck deeper

his venom took it's course
heart, mind, body, and spirit
crazed motion, slurred emotions
i fell through destiny's walls

so he found his victim
steady and content
piercing my innocent core
cupid took pity on me

i begged of him one last thing
before i fell under the spell
"pray that i don't regret"
and was swept into a current of love.

wake me. are you really here?
a butterfly hunter
draped from the top of my neck
a conqueror of heart and soul
fastened at my fragile side
a sun, that casts out the winter
adorned with a perfect halo
a guide, brighter than a lighthouse
cherished by day and by night
a singer, serenading your love
welcomed by my chilled spine
a slow dancer, feeling each word
sculpted by our intertwined bodies
an inspiration, for every poem
adored by my ever so bold heart
a figment of my imagination
descended only from dreams
are you really here? wake me.

i swallowed a butterfly,
to see what it's like to fall in love
she readily confided in me
"my love, your heart will find an escape
unanticipated, unforeseen
wrapped in a tight embrace
side by side, one content soul
lifetimes before, you suffered
infected with lies, deceits, and cheats
but you have a pretty, scarred heart
but i promise, you'll quietly be cured."

since then, i've invited that butterfly in...

i swallowed a butterfly,
to see what it's like to fall in love
she acts up, in the middle of the day
diving, from shoulder to hip
breathlessly, twisting up my lungs
fluttering wings, at any given moment
she recognizes your name
and surely your voice
she reminds me of your presence
and she too, longs for your absense

since then, i've invited that butterfly in...

i swallowed a butterfly,
to see what it's like to fall in love
and greedily treated myself to more
so you could find them with your touch
her wings are quicker than i imagined
chilling the weak spots on my neck
cradling words that hopefully suffice
caressing moments that make me smile
still...

since then, i've invited that butterfly in...

racing so fast, i'm forgetting to breathe
tripping over gasps and skipping over beats
tell my heart to stop, i plead and plead
this insane love is making my heart bleed

thoughts swarming in and out of my head
crashing with might and a kicking, brute force
the words on my tongue prove such a weight
is this free will, destiny, or some kind of sick fate?

drag me through your piercing thorns
drop thick mud into my glowing veins
trade this situation for a new one. no, that won't do
i'm deathly afraid to say, i really love you

dumping past complexities into my lap
and i now jointly receive them as my own
whimpering, as i fall more and more tame
bruised, bent, and beaten when i hear your name

i'm sympathetic to your abandoned ones
i too, am beginning to feel the permanent loss
i'll clench to you, as long as you watch after me
fearfully calling you mine, as long as you wish to be