Stealthy vibes passing you by
Healthy lives they quickly die
Take small sips finish it to the last drip
Drinking from the chalice of youth
Its moments like these that kept you still
Losing you as I gave you up
Was it me?
To rid your bitterness out of my life
Perhaps, yes, if that is so then here
Good Bye
Wait, no, it's not so
You pressed me to act like I was given no choice
Happiness you wont find it
How mistaken were you
Leaving all your worries behind
Happiness is found somewhere far
Somewhere where you aren't looking
Yes I can see your depression
Still imprinted within your eyes
Your sadness has no place to hide
But if its an answer you seek
Just come back and look for me

Never remind me to wait for you
I broke, you never diagnosed my condition
Left ignored and abandoned with no one to look after me
I guess i'll always be on my own
My heart needs to be shot down
Its only dragging me down
Wanted to give you it all
Instead I lost it all

Its those things we can't control
We're terrified so we respond naturally
In a day and age we can't
We must respond intelligently
To see past the haze
To walk through the fiery inferno
Theres a kingdom there but evil all around it
Its king, a man who can't reign
A man with no patience
Who lacks the use of proper terms to unite it
Though, a man of God lurks
He is never chosen to lead them
His life is blessed by God but never made it to the top
Where the dreams he had were only dreams
He opened his eyelids
A great vision he sees to defy the King and take its people
To a land filled of promise
Taking his time to ready the plan
To find men who will lend him a hand
My oh my did time pass by
Carefully devised a plot to rescue the faith of the people
The weight of the lives hold heavy in his hands
To do what ever it takes to save them
His unselfish attempt led him to a point he never imagined
Immortality among the Earth and the heavens
In a world where dreams never happen
The impossible happened

I just want you to take me away
To a far away place
But wait
This is my time
Don't strain yourself to fulfill my wishes
I have been running
Running for you a long time
I live for you but living means nothing
I need you by my side not on the other side
I need ya to take away this uncertainty away
The pain which it accompanies can stay
It has inspired me to write beautifully
As beautiful as your face
How could I forget such a face
Take me to a secret place

Don't think that these words were for someone else
I know how much it hurts you
Those doubts led you to believe your own lies
It is evident that the feelings that died will never resurrect back to life
And it only hurts so much because you're the only one close to it
Built up guilt; the structure of my mind
Indifferent to all the change, and it goes to waste
At such a rapid pace, I don't feel for you
Happiness, out of place, along with all other feelings
No need to hide that scrupulous face
Love and its intentions to do harm,
Oh the scrutiny that blows in oasis
Its broken, its lost, scattered across this Earth
The spirit in my dreams isn't her
What I have found is nothing but a mere ghost
Haunting me through memories,
Here they die, in grace and forgiveness
To never be born again

Its the mirror which divides her from reality
This medium is where she questions her mentality
For how long will she keep her doors closed
Its so sad and she becomes something from a dream
Its these chains that hold her down  
Her social responsibility that makes her unstable
Her hunger for knowledge still lingers
Since her curiosity remains to grow
For answers that don't exist
Yet in her head she still believes
And through her shallow eyes
Peace is all she wishes to see

The scrambling of my emotions
Every time i think of you
Every single thought I can't deal with out you
Too little too late
It was never my chance to take
Playing the love game
Every day I'm not with you I feel more dead
When I'm reminded of you its a struggle to remain calm
Its true that you were never mine to claim
I hear sounds at night
Its my heart whining out your name

The expansions of space
the matrix we learn to re-create
lucid dreaming conquers the mind
lust drains the mind rendering it blind
past issues fade like clouds
pedestrians pass in the confusion of time
inner thoughts expressed aloud
surrounded atmosphere all around
limitations is what keeps humanity underground
infinity: a number of fantasy
kept up like gasses and when the bubble pops acid drops
slipping into the abyss till gravity stops
amid the ashes is where life crashes
so long as it stays concealed in darkness
everything comes out to light
in such sparkling moments
in energy in rebirth
the fallen jaguar rises taking the form of night
chosen by the stars
given divine right

Things never seemed so difficult
But love is the most extreme level in life
But if you're going to break me
Don't just bend me
Do it completely so that the pain can be done with
Every time you tear me I always heal back up
The day that you want to stop trying
Thats the day you have to completely break me
Tear me into pieces
Shrivel me in to dust
You are my weakness
So you have the strength to do all of that

The warmth of your lover holds
An infant given no choice
Behold, deliverance into a new world
Hard work, destined just for the ordinary
Raised in great love and care
Left fear in his eyes, to decide how he would live his life
Greatness sprouts in the deepest of dreams
Boundaries kept around, without a sign of being free
Swelling inside, was a concealed beast
The coal furred animal, he holds
Cold deep black eyes, with a mouth made to roar
Once free from entrapment
This Jaguar will pounce from the soul
Out into the real world and soar

i never thought i'd lose you

your mother didn't see the heart I had for her

i couldn't save her my child

now i'll never know your name

because of me

i'll never know of your existence

i hear your cry in my dreams

i'm sorry i can't save you

Why do I keep taking chances with you
But it's not just you, it's everyone
Even friends will turn their backs on you
Missing them wont get them back
I hate how I'm trying to force something
When I knew it was always nothing
I still think of you every day and I don't know why
Why do I keep thinking about you
You are the one thing in my mind that never goes away
Why can't I stop thinking about you
Every day goes by
Every night that goes unturned by remembering your face
I think about all the things I could've said and all the things I should've said
Who knows.. Maybe it's not too late
But I'm done taking chances so I don't expect any change
A mist clouds the present
A fog covers my future
I'm just hoping to see your face on the other side

Quit fleeing from your mistakes
It wont help your heartache
I know what you're feeling
I've been on that road before
Your problems persist
Do they ever end
No, I don't think so
Your eyes tell the tale
Depression easily read
Haunted by your decisions
Is this really what you want
She chose the party scene
Now shes stuck in between
Her future is not so bright
Will she make the transition
She doesn't believe in God
I hope she finds the light
Before the darkness destroys her life

What is today wont be the same tomorrow
Every morning feels different
I feel the chills of loneliness rising in my sheets
When I can no longer sleep
I wake up and theres nothing next to me
I wish it could be you
Give me the warmth that I need
I can feel the ice reaching me
Frost covered heart
Come closer girl but don't slip
Cuz the ice is melting
I could feel the fresh steam radiate off your lips as it hits me as mist
But my eyes have been closed this whole time
I opened them and there I was
A glacier big enough to wreck a ship
It was all a dream
You never came for me after I came for you

Frustration chiseled on her face
Depression in her eyes, purple blotches underneath
Those feelings she locked inside, its a prison in her mind
Passerby's watch, I see her teeth shine
The wind blows through her graceful hair
Flowing freely against the air
Her eyes so bold, when she sees something she wants
All appears too far and out of sight
Despiteful with a cold heart
She no longer trusts, and on her own
She believes shes alone
In her own world, here stuck on planet Earth
I could see that she doesn't presume herself of any worth
Eyes remain steady, her motions remain still
Emotions are there but left undetected
Her mood like a rainy day,
I watch the tears wash away
Turning all her surroundings gray
Is there still hope for life as all precious memories decay
Detached from the world, she wants to be erased
Yet, still in my mind
Her figure remains

Was it hard to stay true to your own beliefs
The strange taste collected upon your lips
Don't let it take you like everything else you own
Slowly spark the candle wax around your residue
Feel it in your bones, you would die for less than this
Just dont give in before its over, dont give up before you win
Now don't go stealing thoughts that aren't yours
I believed you to be someone but you're just another follower
A real life twitter *****, I never been blindfolded for this long before
It won't happen again because I don't see anything in you anymore
Peaceful wasn't my intention, an intervention won't prevent it, resented since the lessons stretched within your own resented presence
A matter of time before you snapped, the clocks run out and overlapped, it's said and done, Im sick of waiting, sick of cages and your traps
And I can't find the meaning to your persistence
Used to be drained of my life in order to satisfy yours
Take back whats rightfully mine, take back what I work for
After all that, you've gained nothing from stealing from the poor

Even my poetry can't explain
The feelings you throw at me
Its the exhaustion of our love
Leaving us unconscious sometimes
A rope tightened around our necks
We both decide not to jump
This love is almost like suicide
We have thorns in our hearts
The ones we love the most
Their names on em
You're my beautiful rose
Infecting me from the inside
I can't wait till I die

Faithful **** you hopeless
I found an opening
The nature of your flaw
Divine perfection
Ticking the connection
Can't reach me
It aint the distance
Its the reception
This is my world
And I'm kicking you out of it
Full of **** I'm about to flush you down
Trust me
Cause you can't be trusted
Ha, you got me ******
Ha, you think you fooled me
Na you're about to get schooled
When you receive a blessing
You don't go **** it up
But you go **** it up
Where are your blessings now
I can't help you so learn to help yourself
What was worth a lot to me is now chump change to me
Found out but you don't like the reaction
Good, this isn't for your liking
This is for me, all of this is for me
Cause I'm done doing for you
Nothing was coming back to me
So whats the use other than making you happy
Emotions steaming towards me down these train tracks
I guess life will never teach me
Cause I've never learned to quit
I still chase
I still hunt for that unforgettable face
Call me false
I've abandoned all honesty
And honestly I'm done
Fin

Your embarrassment is your own harassment
You think I don't see you
The way you looked at him
Like I meant nothing
I was never in the right place
All along I've been walking in to traps
I don't even know if I'm struggling to come out
Or the struggle is in falling in
Put a pause on the difficulties
I turn around to face my enemies
In the end there is no place to feel safe
If you need a sanctuary
This place wont support you

Backed up now
Can't run away
Theres a trapdoor at the end
That sends you back to the start
I'm not waiting till its over to realize my mistakes
Theres nothing here to fix
Every missing piece found and replaced
I told myself I'd never feel this again
But look at me I'm back at the same place but with a different person

It was never you
It was me who was fooling
Toying with emotions
I don't even know how to play em
Pulling strings quick
Nothing lasted
You have your sights on something
That was never me
If truth was ever to find you
You would have me
But lies are what you follow
So you'll never have it
The world is in my palms
Ready to give to you
What more could you ask for
Its not about the desire
But you're the girl that I'd die for
I put my trust in you but never faith
You don't believe in yourself
So why should I believe you
Instead I wanna leave you
I can't forget what you gave me
Debts are due and I owe you the world
So its only fair to stick around until its over
For me it was over before it started
You still haven't seen what I held in store for you
The things that blind you
The things you lose
Don't let the light guide you
The reward in the end is no use for you
Though I was never worth it
I still loved you

Patient and waiting
Caring yet feelings hidden
Believe the lies and ditch out the truth
Evade me more and you will suffer longer
Those events that happened so quickly
At the same pace you will lose them
Try to stop the present
Lose sight of your future
Unknown and unclear
These paths unmarked
With a tilt of your head
You always look up
Answers aren't above you but within
You seek for something greater
Catch it now or you’ll be catching it later
You know there’s nothing out there
Nothing is of value
Nothing to wait for

Put in all my effort
Sadly enough we lose battle such as these
I blew past traces of our love
I knew how risky my attempt was
I loved you more, I wanted more but what we had is no more
She knew I was not enough
Kindness in her heart wouldn't allow it
Her mentality was on something else
She was too distracted to see it
I had to bare and witness
The consequences of my actions
This pain, self inflicted
Never lost faith
For Gods sake, how could I ever forget what you really meant
A symbol of love in my life
Sad how I'll never find it again
Just to know that it exists in this world makes my teeth cringe
What we lacked was hope
I sense no sign of it
Is this suicide because everything is dead
I mourn for her love to be resurrected to take away this pain
I know nothing will be the same
Hope, faith, God, dreams, kept in mind
Then... all that could change

Every day I'm not with you
I die a little inside
I feel the pain closing in
Cornered up in my feeble mind
Its the spirit in my eyes
The moisture is running dry
Sadness falls in my heart every night
And its not your fault
I am my own reason that I cry

She exists to me but I don't exist to her
Found out that all my efforts were just me being helpful
You think I do that because anyone would
Na nobody would
Nobody can do it like me
Thats why it'll be a shame once I walk away from this
I wonder what this is
Could it all be my mistake
Could it be me falling for you blindly
You watch me take the bait
Led me on and on
Now i'm drowning in a river of sorrow
I never thought you could be that shallow
Let me leave and let me live
He means more to you than me thats why you don't leave him
If it aint me then **** it
Happiness comes and goes
Just thought you were more than a girl
Emptiness is all I found
Thought you had something more to show
And I'm just digging the feelings out of you cause they're buried deep inside ya
But my shovel hit the bottom
You still have nothing for me

Fond of the sips of black death
In love with the smoke that doesn't go away
How long will it take
For me to lose focus
Lose memory of everything
It all holds me back and I keep taking in the wrong things
Look at all these drugs
They said it would get me through the day
Thats all it is
Its just something temporary
I'm moving towards permanent
Last me forever love me forever
How hard is that
Its impossible
But nothing ever pays off with out hard work
Nothing plays the way you want it to
It was never in the books for you anyways
But tonight I promise you we can rewrite history
I got death in my fingers and acid in my pen
Ready to destroy it all
Ready to scratch out the pain

All I ever wanted for you was the world
I wish I could have gave you my soul
It was never about me
My heart it aches and yours I hope never breaks
Tonight I lay awake thinking of a place
That will take me away from the pain
If suffering is all I'm given
I will survive as long as your crystal eyes shine
You're the light that I need but darkness is what surrounds me
Its the life of the weak
Struggling on my feet
I manage to walk through this nightmare I learned to love
Dreams never real
The chase never ending
Its the life of the weak

Open your eyes and you will see
A new type of color
A different vision
You've ignored for so long
Slapped right in front of you
Whats going to happen when you believe
The leaps of faith that took you
Those that glance into the abyss
See horrors farther in the mist
Feel faith slipping through us
Self inflicted pain among our wrists
But what can stop us
What will sustain the bleeding
We no longer crave for better now
So we give you our worst because life
Life has given us dirt to our mouths
Every time we fall flat on our faces
Continue to live in such calamity
Nothings stopped
Nothing will change
To get so far is to die
As to chase dreams of peace
Dying in your sleep
Wake up in one piece
Power falls in the wrong hands
Those that never suffered
Deliver us sufferings to satisfy their greed
Slaves and working class heroes
Following a false leader
The one must rise because we need a hero

You fed me this dream
I swallowed it down
Seeing it grow
Observing the bloom
In a shape of its own
Under great care
Held in my heart
It was beautiful