I laid down my heart for you
Fate came along to drag us apart
Lost souls flowing freely
I catch them as they wander
Crawling helplessly hoping to escape
In this life you must find the exit gate
Give up and be stuck forever
So many doors to take
Rest your head down and pray
Forgiveness isn't dead its never too late
Expose vulnerability and it will be your undoing
Close those doors because you know you can't go through em
White lights there to guide you
Tightropes test your balance
Fall down and I'll be there
Waiting to take you to my secret palace
Please dive into my arms tonight
In our world: Dream Central

Even my poetry can't explain
The feelings you throw at me
Its the exhaustion of our love
Leaving us unconscious sometimes
A rope tightened around our necks
We both decide not to jump
This love is almost like suicide
We have thorns in our hearts
The ones we love the most
Their names on em
You're my beautiful rose
Infecting me from the inside
I can't wait till I die

Traced faintly along your soft skin
The kisses of a sneaky serpent
I don't know why you listened to sin
You've took the bite off the wrong fruit
You are blind for that reason
Thats why you're with him
But not even I understand
Why you said yes to the poison
It carries its infections to your mind
It was never up to you to decide
Chances were that I was on the wrong side
I still haven't given up
Although every night I am one day closer
Death is waiting for my time to end
So tonight I will die
Because you're all I ever cried for
But in the morning I'll be alive
So the cycle continues
Till you're back in my life

This life calls for uncertainty
With you my love I'll never be certain
This life leaves messages for us
Those messages all left unheard
We are those children left ignored
The children grow and explore
As we leave this phase we lose our worth
Till we find the face of innocence
Our youth will yet again be restored

A firm grip with hands fully extent
Pressures rise when I meet your eyes
Fists clenched, I know I'm not your type
Its not till now that I see, you meet all my tastes
I don't even know you
I let you stir trouble in my mind
Gave a stranger access to my emotions
Cause me to have misfires in my mood
I feel angst in my soul and see my hearts aura explode
No control, no taking hold of it, don't look back on me
This is a tragedy, its a force of mischief
Enlightened by my mysterious characteristics
You try to get closer but I am chained
You say you have the keys
You tell me not to be afraid
I sat there defenseless and opened up the doors
Because I knew I wouldn't have to worry about getting hurt again

Get it together
Theres a sun under that nasty weather
Time is all that holds you back
I really hope that you get better

All I ever wanted for you was the world
I wish I could have gave you my soul
It was never about me
My heart it aches and yours I hope never breaks
Tonight I lay awake thinking of a place
That will take me away from the pain
If suffering is all I'm given
I will survive as long as your crystal eyes shine
You're the light that I need but darkness is what surrounds me
Its the life of the weak
Struggling on my feet
I manage to walk through this nightmare I learned to love
Dreams never real
The chase never ending
Its the life of the weak

Every day I'm not with you
I die a little inside
I feel the pain closing in
Cornered up in my feeble mind
Its the spirit in my eyes
The moisture is running dry
Sadness falls in my heart every night
And its not your fault
I am my own reason that I cry

You open yourself

But not emotionally

The slide of a sharp blade

Sharp because you have soft skin

The pain she feels isn't real enough

I took her hand and whispered in her ear

I know of sharper blades

Look into my eyes and I'll cut deep into you

But instead of pain

You will feel me touching your skin like silk

Kissing the most fragile parts of you

So now you wont have to wonder what deaths like

Please accept my gift and live your life

Its the scent to her skin
Shes the one who drives you wild
The girl that just can't be peeled from you
Spiritual connections I jump in to her mind from mine
So much that I can see her when I close my eyes
Expressions of pleasure it seems
This is no winning game  
I failed before I could make a move
Now I stand here and watch you bleed
I had nothing to offer
But I wonder how much you got
How much can you make out of nothing
Because nothing is all that I gave you
Yet you took it
It was a mistake, everything becoming what it is
I took it so far
To you it wasn't enough
Putting sweat and blood for you
In the end it all had to go
Truth is you never let me know
That you've already been carried away by the flow
Everything that happens in the moment is okay to you
But nothing is okay it wasn't right yet you did it
Why did you do it

I can't gather my thoughts
Thought this through
I can't sustain the damage
I still see the worth
In those damaged goods
You never lost your value
Nothing can break through your gilded barrier
I treasure your very existence
Every breath of yours should be savored
A life like yours can't go to waste
As tall as you as strong as you
Those walls will remain standing forever
Above the clouds slumbering peacefully
Nothing can touch you
Don't let nobody wake you
Theres a dream that keeps you trapped in deep sleep
But who is he? Who is he? Why does he keep you asleep?
Its the past that keeps bugging you
Its no wonder you've sleepwalked through it all
Nothing is there to help you
This dream you call a nightmare
Is nothing that could compare
With the horrors of the unknown
Tell me what you know about the future

Faithful **** you hopeless
I found an opening
The nature of your flaw
Divine perfection
Ticking the connection
Can't reach me
It aint the distance
Its the reception
This is my world
And I'm kicking you out of it
Full of **** I'm about to flush you down
Trust me
Cause you can't be trusted
Ha, you got me ******
Ha, you think you fooled me
Na you're about to get schooled
When you receive a blessing
You don't go **** it up
But you go **** it up
Where are your blessings now
I can't help you so learn to help yourself
What was worth a lot to me is now chump change to me
Found out but you don't like the reaction
Good, this isn't for your liking
This is for me, all of this is for me
Cause I'm done doing for you
Nothing was coming back to me
So whats the use other than making you happy
Emotions steaming towards me down these train tracks
I guess life will never teach me
Cause I've never learned to quit
I still chase
I still hunt for that unforgettable face
Call me false
I've abandoned all honesty
And honestly I'm done
Fin

And the hate i feel in my heart isn't for you
Its the pain that it brings
And thats what I get for loving you
I would have never guessed that it would be you
Even though you know it you wont tell me how you feel
Its what kills me
To feel alone to feel like you never cared
I thought this was a combined effort but instead I was always on my own
I know you love me but you wont admit it
You don't believe in me
Yet I always prove myself
Its just another case of bad luck
And with bad timing
It was you this whole time
I wish I had known

Things never seemed so difficult
But love is the most extreme level in life
But if you're going to break me
Don't just bend me
Do it completely so that the pain can be done with
Every time you tear me I always heal back up
The day that you want to stop trying
Thats the day you have to completely break me
Tear me into pieces
Shrivel me in to dust
You are my weakness
So you have the strength to do all of that

She hates my guts
Oh how she hates
Its how much I love her though
And my soul implodes at her very being
Came in to my life like some lost child
I offered her everything I had to offer
By helping her I was helping myself
I lost who I was
I've become what I am
I'm nothing lesser than a man
Every human bleeds
This isn't a movie
Invincibility only lasts in art
So our love never died
Because it lives on in my words
The poor words of a broken poet

I sense the pains rising from within
The uncertainty of the length
The time it takes to go away
The life is yours, here it lays
Distances farther than heaven
I am here alone, I hope you see
It may be nothing, I know its broke
But still remains
My heart
Forever yours

Don't you dare stay
This isn't your place to begin with
Don't you change your mind
This isn't what it was before
I'm destroyed and theres nothing that can fix it
I let you go and you were happy
I chose this route because of you
Thats why I'm not happy
It was always you
I had to lose
I wasn't the one
You are the sacrifice I made
My decisions led to suffering

The scrambling of my emotions
Every time i think of you
Every single thought I can't deal with out you
Too little too late
It was never my chance to take
Playing the love game
Every day I'm not with you I feel more dead
When I'm reminded of you its a struggle to remain calm
Its true that you were never mine to claim
I hear sounds at night
Its my heart whining out your name

Backed up now
Can't run away
Theres a trapdoor at the end
That sends you back to the start
I'm not waiting till its over to realize my mistakes
Theres nothing here to fix
Every missing piece found and replaced
I told myself I'd never feel this again
But look at me I'm back at the same place but with a different person

Heard ya was in danger
So im here to save ya
**** now that i'm the one needin the savin
You wont save me
And I died

If I am a joke to you
Then it won't be a problem if I walk away
I’m done entertaining you
And the idea of ever having you
I guess that was the true joke
One that still makes me laugh

every waking morning
the lit room that I sleep in
I ponder on her existence
I know she's in a better place
I know theres someone else
who is this about
obsessed with love
you can't run away from it
its something we witness everyday
there's no ignoring it
ongoing battle inside ourselves
we're all conflicted
slaves to the desires
chasing stars that seem impossible to reach
diving deep into oceans that seem to have no end
with the same mind and the same heart from before
everything left unchanged
I can't move on from this
I still love you

You fed me this dream
I swallowed it down
Seeing it grow
Observing the bloom
In a shape of its own
Under great care
Held in my heart
It was beautiful

When will she see
What she means to me
Open your eyes to the obvious baby
You're the girl of my dreams
While you silently sleep
I'll be waiting in your dreams
Can you feel my heartbeat
The rhythm of my body

Never remind me to wait for you
I broke, you never diagnosed my condition
Left ignored and abandoned with no one to look after me
I guess i'll always be on my own
My heart needs to be shot down
Its only dragging me down
Wanted to give you it all
Instead I lost it all

Quit fleeing from your mistakes
It wont help your heartache
I know what you're feeling
I've been on that road before
Your problems persist
Do they ever end
No, I don't think so
Your eyes tell the tale
Depression easily read
Haunted by your decisions
Is this really what you want
She chose the party scene
Now shes stuck in between
Her future is not so bright
Will she make the transition
She doesn't believe in God
I hope she finds the light
Before the darkness destroys her life

i never thought i'd lose you

your mother didn't see the heart I had for her

i couldn't save her my child

now i'll never know your name

because of me

i'll never know of your existence

i hear your cry in my dreams

i'm sorry i can't save you

Why do I keep taking chances with you
But it's not just you, it's everyone
Even friends will turn their backs on you
Missing them wont get them back
I hate how I'm trying to force something
When I knew it was always nothing
I still think of you every day and I don't know why
Why do I keep thinking about you
You are the one thing in my mind that never goes away
Why can't I stop thinking about you
Every day goes by
Every night that goes unturned by remembering your face
I think about all the things I could've said and all the things I should've said
Who knows.. Maybe it's not too late
But I'm done taking chances so I don't expect any change
A mist clouds the present
A fog covers my future
I'm just hoping to see your face on the other side

You just opened a bad omen and now you can’t stop reading it till you reach its end

Living in a time where depression is a good reason to die
Soon you’ll only be able to talk to me through prayer

You know whats sad? Your laughing at me and mocking me. How could you overlook me? Why are you always going to count me out? You haven't even seen my best.

Is it kindness thats giving me the will to live?
To take away my own life
A life connected to all of those who love me
Is it mean to tear that all a part
Just because I'm dealing with a broken heart

Theres a dark man at your door and you don't know if you should answer it.
He spends his time inside your mind trying to give you reasons to die until you finally decide he's right, that's when the devil wins, when you become so fond of the idea of death because you feel like life isn't worth living