All you'll ever be
Is a distant memory
Of my Happiness.

I can recall with perfect detail
That wonderful smile of yours.

Everytime we met, it was there,
That glowing face and those happy eyes.

Then, it left.

You fell out of love
As if flipping a switch.

I dread the day we meet again.
For my heart still belongs to you

And only you.

I'm on top of him.
I hear screams behind me.
I keep punching.
His nose finally breaks,
Blood covering my hands with subsquent hits.

His lips say stop
I slam his head down, dazing him
I start choking him until he quits struggling.

I lift him by the hair
He coughs blood on me.
I take his head, slam it into the wall.
Once. Twice. Thrice.
I keep going until he goes limp.
I throw him aside, then look at my bloodsoaked hands.

I can't remember being happy.
This isn't happy.
Bloodlust.

I kick him over and look at his face.
He's unrecognizable.
I've ended him.

Or so i thought.

He gets up
Looks at me
And smiles.

"It doesn't work that way" he mouths
I try to turn and walk away.
He latches on my wrist.
Hes back in my head.
Laughing..


"Even if you try, You can't **** us all."

I keep thinking you'll walk through my door,
Embrace me tightly and tell me
It was all just a bad dream...
But it's not..

It feels like a thousand blades
Speared through my chest.
Every day..

I try to remember good things,
Really I do.
But all i can think about
Is you with him...

It fills me with such a rage,
But then..,
What does it matter..?
I can't do anything,
Can't control you...

I feel like I no longer
Matter to you...
Yet..,
You're the only one
Running through my head
Every
Single
Day.

Wanna know why?

Because I still love you..
With every single fiber
Of my existence....