You wrap your arms around me
And cuddle up close to me
Your voice whispers softly,
"I love you."
But there's something you're forgetting
One very important factor
You
Have
A
Girlfriend
You tell me you can't choose
You love us both the same
You can't hurt either of us
Indecisive little boy
Make
Up
Your
Mind

Blood staining your baby blanket
Your childhood washed down the drain
Tears streaking your flushed cheeks
You now hide in the dark
That you were afraid of not so long ago
You sit alone
Scared of what you've become
Your innocence gone
Along with your sanity
All of it is lost
Unable to be found
Hiding
Just like you

I hold a cold blade in my hand
As tears fall across my face
I hold it against my skin
And take a deep breath
"I'm sorry." I whisper
As I start to draw blood
These cuts form letters
The ones that spell out your name
I need to keep this a secret
So, I won't tell you
That your name has been engraved in my leg
Ever since the day I started to miss you

I want you to go away
I don't want to hear about your problems
I don't want you to say, "I'm sorry." a thousand times
I don't want to tell you anything that's going on
I'm sick of you
I'm tired of hearing the same old thing
I don't care
I  really don't want to talk to you
I don't
I don't
I don't

I am a worthless, stupid girl
Who doesn't deserve to be loved
I am an ugly, ungrateful girl
Who cuts to take away pain
I am a disgusting, unwanted girl
Who needs help, but won't ask for it
I am an imperfect girl
Stuck in a perfect world
I am me
But I'm not proud

Rain soaks through my clothes
And chills me to the bone
My sneakers slap against the concrete
I wander the streets alone
Headlights pass by
Ignoring me
I should head home
Mum and Dad will be worried, right?
No.
I'll continue on my journey
My journey to nowhere