We were high like satellites
As we roamed the back streets
Chasing a stolen dream
With holes in our stream

We roved for miles
Dead but alive
Falling out like meteorites
Splitting a half-life

None of this was right
Still boosters would ignite
To disintegrate academy book
And their hard-earned flights

Down on The Palms
We heard meteor psalms
Ringing in our ears
We couldn’t help but hum along

Bad Cosmonauts
Searching for life support
There was no hope to be found
At the local space port

We were high like satellites
Always like satellites
The dust on our shoes speaks of a past life
Lightyears from here

“In My Cup”

Thursday
The worst way
Can’t sleep
Can’t eat
I’m spun
Stuck in my cup

Monday
“Sick pay”
A coin shy
Sleep all day
Throw up
Stuck in my cup

Wednesday
Ends late
My liquid illusion
Mends pain
I’m numbed
Stuck in my cup

Tuesday
You say
“Climb out”
“Come down”
“You’re starting to rust”
Stuck in your cup

Friday…
Saturday…
Sunday…
Crushed
Strung
Stuck in my cup

Swallowed whole
In a world of darkness
Sleeping but exhausted
Nothing can part this

I want to be alone
But I’m so lonely
I ride the train aimless
Spaced out
Anxious

I want to run away
So I hide in my headphones
This place hurts so much
Just leave me alone!!!

Just leave me alone!!!
But I’m so afraid
I long to be an all-star
But I push the team away

This music is so loud
It drowns out my father
All of his disapproval
Why do I even bother???

I hate me
They me
All of these angels
Bring demons around me

They choose to battle
They call me to fight
But the greatest skirmish
Rages behind my blue eyes

There’s two me’s in me
The one everybody knows
The one nobody sees
I dodged both of these

I’m so lonely
But I want to be alone
Should I isolate further
Or allow myself to be exposed?

This is where I find myself
I can’t blame somebody else
All I’ve done is all I’ve done
The deed is signed and I’m the one

Just me
Just me

I turn my back
I flick my tongue
Misspoken words
Smoking guns
How did I end up in this place
Shaking hands
Twisted face

Just me
Just me

I cannot run
I cannot hide
What’s done is done
What’s dead has died
Another word
Another line
Can’t push this off
The burden’s mine

Just me
Just me
Just
Me

Unleash another night to drink and drive
I’ll forget my sorrows underneath the starlit sky
This is how I get around
From sunrise to sundown

In this liquid life
I rub my tightening eyes
They’re red from resentment
And black because I’m battled
My pride is frazzled and rattled
This is how I get around
In my secondhand town

Unleashed
Another night I drink and drive
Fear rides shotgun
It’s always by my side
A consistent copilot
This is how I get around
My liquified life
It isn’t much of a sight

If I fall from grace
I will hide my face
From everyone who said the devil’s in my head
Did they really care
Or just play a part
Which was never their’s
From the very start?

If I lose my faith
I’ll seek a softer way
Their tradition’s strong
I cannot tarry long
The standard’s far too high
My head hangs so low
With every aching breath
The confusions grows

Still I carry on
Carry on
Through all of this
I Carry on
Carry on

In the darkest days
When I fall apart
The confusion frays
The fibers of my heart

Still I’m holding on
Holding on
Through all of this
I am holding on
Holding on

And it’s not by might nor sight
But something deep inside
Everytime I want to hide
Grace redirects my mind

So I carry on
Carry on
Through all of this
I carry on
Carry on

Now I come to the end of myself
And my skins crawls off the walls
Off the walls

I bend and I break
As I give and I take
For a softer way
For a yesterday

But it never comes
And if ever does
Will I be ready?
Will I be there?
Because right now I’m nowhere
But I’m everywhere
And I float high in the thin air
Right here
Right there