The Challenge
(Day 14)

Come on in
Or get the hell out!

Don't stand in the doorway like a ****** footmat

Say you will
Or say you won't  Keep your "I just mights" to your self so we don't end up having a fight  
Say good morning,good afternoon or goodnight

Say the truth, oh please say it right
Don't lie beneath canopies of lies saying its diplomacy

Your indecision is a decision in itself
It's amusing you don't even know what you're about

Please get out and don't forget to shut the door on your way out!!

r3d

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So I’ve been here wondering what have I gotten myself into?

Sigh, I’m gonna follow through till the last shot drops so I’m not even about to tap out before this is over.
Life is love and like love, it has its challenges, beautiful times, hurtful events, days when you just wanna give up on that spouse/partner/sibling/friend who seems to have repeatedly gotten on your 12 cranial nerves, hurt you on a regular even when he/she fails to realise this or says it’s totally unintentional. Some days the reverse is the case and you are the villain.


Life like love has its phases and some of these most shy away from without realising these are some of the most crucial experiences, these are the moments that shape our destinies, our purpose cause every decision at these focal points can alter a lot about your existence.
There are so many sensitive topics and challenges we face but are afraid to speak out for fear of stigmatisation and also because we would rather not have to deal with the heart wrenching feeling that justice might not be served.

Anger is deadly when it gets the best of you, especially when you lose all control to it.
Anger is mostly abusive if it isn’t channeled appropriately.

Abuse of any kind has an adverse effect on the general well being, growth and confidence of its victims as well as their outlook on life in a grotesque manner that most never get an opportunity to straighten.


Alcohol Addiction among other substances abused are steady on the rise.
These things give us a false grasp at desperate hope/lessness but once the effect of such substances wear thin like a boomerang we turn in to despair like a warm bed after a cold day of hard labour hence using these substances over and over again as a resolve whilst acting irrationally and blaming it on these substances/vices.
Though most times we use them as a subterfuge; unashamedly display behavioural patterns we are too cowardly to gather enough courage to exihibit without these things as happy triggers.
Due to the frequent or constant use of these substances in our system, we depend on their use to get by, but do we really get by, since we take these things till we get inebriated or high to the point that we become a hazard even to ourselves?
Most of the things are resultant effects of causes influenced by choices we make and the impact of such decisions truncate our progress or stagnate it, as the case may be.
If a loved one begins to manifest irrational behavioural patterns; an extrovert suddenly becomes recluse or an introvert suddenly loud and overbearing, please find a way to reach out to such a person to find the root cause of the problem & don’t be surprised if they are aggressive cause it’s a normal reaction with persons battling with some type emotional trauma or battling with any type of addiction.

It could be that someone you know who might have outta the blues started to act funny, irrationally or suddenly wouldn’t wanna do anything or be able to complete simple tasks, though such a one was a go getter before the appearance of these weird behavioural patterns.

Most times instead of reaching out we begin to spread word about how these persons have changed though when we meet with them we share hugs and smiles, some “fiends” distant themselves from such persons and never reach out to find out why the sudden change.

This is not what they need from us as this may push them further into their cocoon.
Hurt and confused persons are usually defensive, they are prone to spewing hateful/hurtful words.

These people need love the most though they seem undeserving of it.
Help a friend get help today.
We all need each other, we all need love, love needs us to show love today, send love and a prayer for clarity and peace someone’s way today.
Help the hurting to heal not to stray some more with the words you say or fail to say.
Love is a verb.

Show love don’t make a show outta love
Share some in whatever way necessary today.

Salaam!

r3d

6/11/17
17:03

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The Challenge
(Day 12)

When you pour the liquid content of a 35cl soda into a 50cl bottle it will never fill it up
If you pour it into a 15cl bottle it will fill it up and overflow.
Same thing with when you pour your love, energies, vibes or share your space, sanctuary and essence with the wrong people.
You’d either end up being too much or never enough.
If this is the case with you please find a way to detach yourself from this person before the damage becomes irreparable.
No matter how much you give someone who doesn’t value you or holds you in contempt it will never be enough.
Save yourself before you start to second guess your worth and shatter your esteem.
The only way to help a toxic person is not to shield such a person but be firm and ensure the person seeks the help he/she needs.
This is a show of love.
Love will always want you to be the best and have the best you can get and not let you plunge into troubled waters while it watches you drown without lending a helping hand.
We cannot give what we don’t have which is why we must always check ourselves and be accountable for and to ourselves before daring to do  same for others.
May the week ahead bring us all peace and fulfilment.
Salaam!

r3d
12:35

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You left before we could even begin,
A lig ht that shone bright but burnt out too fast leaving me behind in the dark

Ending the thought of a beginning,
Losing a war I thought I was winning.
a beginning whose end was no where in sight

With the words goodbye
I knew we had lost our last chance to try
Try to start
Before we part

You left and you left behind meaning
Meaning than hurts while it's healing

Healing old wounds and piercing through the vessel that blood pumps with a ******'s accuracy making its kills fast and painless

It must have been the way my being your eyes caressed

As your lips took mine in a communion of the unworthy but blessid

Watching you walk away
With the words our eyes held but our lips would dare not say

I knew you weren't going stray
Cause soon again, in your arms my head will find a place till my hairs turn gray..

r3d
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Waking up from a sleepless night
Everything around looks just right
Heart's still holding on to you real tight
Head's light
Weary from the battle within
My spirit takes flight
Scared I would never win..

Still your silence screams
Still it feels like a dream
I wake up to type another good morning that never gets sent
I still write all the things I usually say to you when you were my friend

Do you ever pick your phone to dial my number
Then remember that maybe I like you won't pick up?
Do you have sleepless nights, yet dreams about me that mess you up?

This is the worse kind of heart ache
This is worse than a heartbreak
Oh wait!
It is and I guess that's why I've lost weight

I hunger for you attention
I thirst for your affection
I'm tortured by your gentle rejection
Save me, you are my salvation


r3d
17/8/16


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The Challenge
(Day 8)
Family
To me is everything, bloodline, friends who stick closer than brothers, my nieces and nephews I cant help myself but gush about particularly Gracie, Maran Khimwa.
Gracie came to us not only as a blessing but also an answered prayer to her eldest brothers only birthday wish/prayer request the year before.
She arrived the year after exactly two months after his birthday, I guess even “I AM” gives belated birthday gifts.
She came and changed our perception about a lot of things, she strengthen our faith and taught us deep gratitude and love that transcended all the levels we had reached before  her arrival.
Born with some congenital disorders, some of which included;
Holes in her heart, upturned feet, a cleft palate and a tongue tie, still we had no reason to complain and refused to despair because we knew THE ONE whose blessings were incapable of causing pain  how much more adding sorrow.
Through it all, you’d never miss a smile across Gracie’s face, the almost constant ins and out of hospitals for surgeries and treatments resulting from complications and developments arising as she grew, though I write this from her hospital bed, she still smiles through the pain and happily says cheese when she sees me trying to take a selfie with her.

This post isn’t seeking for sympathy but to encourage someone out there who might be broken, struggling with a burden he/she thinks is too heavy to bear or has been overcome by fear of the cares he/she can’t seem to cast.

Please know that hard as it seems, “THE ONE” who has brought you thus far will see you through it all to a beautiful finish if only you’d let Go and let Him for He is God over everything.

With Gracie we had our fears and doubts,
Will she be ever walk?
Will the holes ever close?
Will she ever speak?
These were some of our fears amongst others and we feared to even share them but we never were afraid to tell The greatest Physician.
Now Gracie not walks but runs as her legs keep getting stronger and her gait better with each stride she takes
The holes in her heart? Miraculously closed just before she was getting ready to go for surgery.
Because of the cleft palate she couldn’t be breastfed and anytime she had to be spoon-fed it had to be done with great care so she doesn’t choke or suffocate but now she can not only eat but by herself.
Her speech keeps improving with each passing day and she’s even started school!

Gracie isn’t only an epitome of God’s unending grace but a daily reminder of His unfailing and unending love for us and towards us.
She reminds me to be thankful with that smile she wears like her skin in-spite of all the pain she’s gone through and at the moment is still experiencing.

Every November reminds me of how the Heaven’s deemed it fit to bless us unfit as we are with the unfathomed miracle called “Gracie” & I with another Miracle in my life (I’d save this story for the appointed time).
How our faith was tested, our love strengthened and our bond as a family has fortified.
We learned to join our faith with my sister’s and that’s how we defied gravity as we pulled heaven to earth.
I hope someone has been encouraged & has her/his faith renewed.
If you wanna give up, please know that God will never give up on you.
I hope this story will remind someone that
“GOD IS NOT DEAD”
Salaam!
r3d
11117
13:45

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