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3.2k · Feb 2014
Cotton Candy Clouds
It's here again
That feeling of doubt
I am at war with myself
I'm at the point of where I can't go back
Not this time I'm sorry
It's not you, It's me, is all I can say
Even my painted smile is fading
My mask is falling
I know you'll be there for me
But you know life is like flies
Friendship is born and it dies
It's like standing on the ledge
A breath away from spiraling downward
Past cotton candy clouds
I really don't mind this demise
My heart is flying
But my mind is dying
I know its to late but I want to start over
I'm going to rewrite the first page of my life
You know my mind could be fixed
But hell has a lullaby that is so calming
Come and fix me please
Play a game of doctor to fix my weeping soul
I don't believe my body could take another cut
What can I do?
It's here again
Doubt
I know this pain wont last
I know that this knife wont help
But to see the cotton candy clouds
Sweetens up the whole deal
But a hug just might help
One of flesh and blood
But once I get to close
I go spiraling down farther
Down to hells sweet lullaby
But this feeling
This feeling of doubt will go
It will go past cotton candy clouds
To a safer place
Past cotton candy clouds.
To those who understand what this means...
1.1k · Apr 2014
Cancers Gleaming
Moons gleaming
Has a true meaning.
A pure soul
Who wants to know
Past fields shinning.
Rose petals falling,
Our tears shedding.
The once cured cured,
Cancers blooming
In young hearts,
Coming to get you.
But I'll be there
and I'll catch you.
But I cant save you.
Clocks striking 3 am,
Watch the demons dancing
In silver slippers.
Green eyes showing
The pain inside.
It's time to say good bye.
Time to go dancing with the demons,
In your silver slippers.
Cancers come to take
My dying flower.
It spread over the seas
Shinning white like pearls.
Cancers come and gone
Demons dancing in silver slippers.
Her green eyes saw
The moons gleaming.
943 · Feb 2014
Masquerading with Death
A game of charades. Masks and mimicking.
See who i am behind all the layers. Boo, here i was.
Come and catch my shadows, running through the woods.
Hiding from the devil.
Playing chess with a mastermind of changing faces.
Sleeping in a cabin that's a little bit to big for just me.
Looking up at the night sky, wishing my life away on a dying star.
New eyes glare in to my windows, I wonder what happened to the old monsters...
Devil in the bed across the hall, whispering words of true wisdom.
Sun going to keep on rising, burning away all of the darkness of our hearts.

******* one last kiss, carry out my bags. Here i go, on my way to the masquerade.
I'll be the shadow dancing with the devil. Running through the steps : 1,2,1,2,3,4
Guessing what i could and couldn't be.
Go and grab a shovel and we'll go and dig up the bones of all my past lies and lives.
Hide in the shadow, cover your mouth not a sound can be made.
The closer they become, all the more deadly I prove to be.
Drop my mask.. here i go. Breath out the fire, and see all the sparks.
Go and **** to get the devil to listen to your story. Watch him cry as you tell him of the battle going on             between my head and my heart.

Bow my head but not my eyes. Look into the mirror, holding the devils hand, and see who you are today.
Wave away that impostor in am reflecting and prove all the ghosts I am seeing wrong.
Pulling the trigger and running.
Don't you dare watch.
Don't you dare look back.
Don't even think about getting caught.
But most important don't lose your mask!

Cover your ears, hear me screaming in the wind.
See all the blood and go and dance on all of the graves.
Watch the grand masquerade fade in the dark. Listening to the last note of a long song.
Saying our last goodbye...
768 · Mar 2014
La-La-Land
She lives in a fairy tale
Doesn't care 'bout friends
Or money.
She waits up in la-la-land
Waiting for her prince charming.
Looking out past her bars and chains,
She didn't want to think about the court date
Or the bad things he did to her.
But who wants a girl
Stuck in a world
That no one understands?
She read of grand escapes
And secret passages,
But she was stuck in her mind.
Only falling closer to hell,
To her make believe hopes.
But who wants a girl who can't tell you
About how she feels,
Or what she needs.
She wore a mask
That was constantly changing.
She looked out through with hollow eyes,
And all the world ever saw was her painted smile.
In her room she sat a thought
  "If I take off the mask..."
And that's as far as she got.
She cried all night,
Cracking her precious mask.
In her mind she turned away,
And it fell,
Shattering into a thousand pieces...
Her masks were all to small
And her smiles were all washed away,
She thought of death.
But that was a just hope
In a pretty mask.
She sat on her bed
And asked herself
   "If I was gone who would notice?"
That night she slept
Her demons all fast asleep
And the monsters were still inside her head.
But she slept a dreamless sleep.
Her mask slipped and shattered,
And the her guardian angel saw
Was a girl looking for a hero,
And he silently whispered
  "Please don't leave, I have seen the real you.
And I don't think I could live without you."
On her desk he laid out a pair of wings,
He crawled into her bed
And kissed her good night,
As he slowly died.
For the wings he gave her were his own.
With his last breath he said
   "I'll see you soon my angel. Don't say goodbye yet."
Once she woke in the might she saw the wings
And the feathers laying beside her.
She realized what happened.
And cried till the morning sun rose.
She took her wings and flew away.
The thought of him giving her his life,
Made her feel loved.
As the years passed she grew to love the real her.
And as she laid out in bed,
All feeble and weak,
She saw her guardian angel
With wings stapled to his back,
Flying down to say their final
Wishes and thank yous.
And together they whispered
    "It's time to leave, We have seen the real me.
And I don't think I could live without you.
With the love we have shared and the pain we have gone through,
I think its time to say goodbye."
And together they flew,
Into the burning sun.
With their last breath
They held hands and said
    "Never say goodbye. Say hello"
And with that the girl with hope
And her guardian were consumed in love.

The  family  watched  as  her  heart  slowly­  stopped,
They  watched  with  watering  eyes,
As  ­she  smiled
And  slowly  she  died.
There  was  no  pain.
T­hey  remembered  the  story
Of  the  guardian  ange­l,
The  broken  girl,
And  the  shattered  mask.
­And  they  just  knew
She  died  *happily...
693 · Feb 2014
Sparrow Wings
On sparrow wings we take flight.
On the dusty roads of life.
Just one blink and the past is gone.
Just to be brought up again on some other poor child...

On sparrow wings we take flight.
Through the mirror that holds all time.
Seven years bad luck is better than a life on the run.
By the broken shards that hold our lives...

On sparrow wings we go.
Never to die and never to let go.
What a clever little lie we call our lives.
Saving the souls of our own.
Worse than hell alone.
May you be blessed with sparrow wings...

On sparrow wings we go.
To a future of our own.
What a little lie we live.
But it's truly all we have.
Going round saving lives...

But alas, on sparrow wings we die.
But don't you fret we'll be back.
Save our good-byes for another world gone by...

On sparrow wings we go.
Waiting and watching.
For anything could happen...
For my dear Aunt Bonnie. Who would tell me all kinds of stories about boys and girls with wings...
609 · Mar 2014
The Devils Boredom
His body was left rigid,
In the snow,
All alone.
Truth be told,
He had a criminal mind,
And a half hearted smile...
It was just a guess that you were depressed,
That with each caress,
Your morbid mind would digest.
But being all alone,
Is really no way to go,
As you so surely demised.
Why did you try fighting it alone?
With me we could have postponed
The unearthly groan
Of what lived bellow...
585 · Feb 2014
Daddy Issuse
Sigh no more, for your breath would be wasted.
You had all the answers, or so you thought.
You brought us around and showed us off.
And here you are, telling everyone some made up lie!
You *******!
I have bruises to prove to the world what you did.
I kept all my tears to prove all the memories to be true.

But i have to admit I did enjoy the times when I did triumph.
Like the time when you hit my sister, your own daughter, in the ribs and
I came up behind you and hit you in the head with my baseball bat?
Oh, you were always so proud because I was a sure shot.
That was such a good memory!
P.S. I still have that bat.

But you know what just save your breath.
I always thought that I needed you, but now I don't.
Did you here me?!
I. Don't. *******. Need. You.
Just hold your breath and do the world a favor
and die... just stop.

In fact, why don't you just **** over and fall over.
Look I even dug you a nice little grave!
For every layer of dirt I throw on you,
I want you to remember all the lies you told.
And how much fun I am going to have as you fall from your thrown.
P.S. I hope you fall on a bed of nails...

When I am stomping on your grave
I want you to think about all the black and blue bruises that are on display to the world.
You killed that little girl that I should have been!
You killed all notions of her ever coming back!
P.S. I hate you because of that.

Do you understand that what you did to me is wrong?
I am your ******* daughter.
I was so young and frail...
You destroyed me!
But I must admit.
Every time you pushed me down, I did get back up.
You taught me how to stand up for my self.
P.S.  I still hate you.

You do understand that the older I get, the more I have against you.
I am going to throw all kinds of **** your way.
I'm not going to stop until you snap in two, until you beg me to stop.
Not even I made that much noise when you hurt me...
******* Wimp

But you know what.... I really don't want any revenge.
I just want you to know that because of you :
I cry myself to sleep
I don't know love
But what you need to know that i am over what you did.

I just wanted to know :
Why?
I was your daughter.
Your first born.
I loved you, and i thought you loved me.
And to tell you the truth... I want you
Dead
Gone
Destroyed...

P.S. I still hate you

Love,
Your ex-daughter
Dedicated to my no good father.
563 · Mar 2014
Storybook Love
I'll be your Loise Lane,
If you be my Superman,
And we will go flying away.
I''l be Sally and you be Jack,
And we will go running,
Running through the pumpkin patch.
You can be the Beast and I'll be Beauty,
Because with every day you hide the beast,
And show the beauty.
We fit together like your hand in mine.
Where you are, I'm sure to follow.
We have a love worth saving,
A love worth dying for,
And a love that shows our strength...
We are simply meant to be.
guess i'm in a lovey dovey mood....
507 · Feb 2014
Royal Love
We ruled like royalty!
Just you and me.
We held the key to the world.
But just you and me.
We had the power to what was just.
But our love is so much.
You wore the crown and I the robe.
We watch the kingdom fall.
Fall to war.
But you and me, only us.
No mater the pain.
You had me, and I had you.
Down our castle walls went.
Hand in hand you and I stand.
For ever together.
Royalty of the street,
sweeping away our faults.
But together we stand
Hand in hand.
Just you and me against the world.
500 · Mar 2014
2013's Missing Pieces
They slowly lost all hope,
The noose swaying to and fro.
"But we love you"
Never did help their obsession.
The razors got bigger,
The burns got more frequent,
And they all got skinnier.
All the while society got meaner,
Voicing true beauty,
That no one could manage.
The mirrors slowly got clouded,
Hiding all their true feelings.
But with every day we lost
Another fighter.
No one saw their tears,
They covered all the scars,
And smiled,
All the while they where dying inside.
They all managed to stay alive,
Until they saw societies views.
The night finally came,
They kissed the moon goodnight,
They were going to start a life in the sky.
The  letter they wrote
Brought tears to those eyes who saw...
The note simply said
        "I'm Done."
They had fought the battle tooth and nail,
But they were shot down
By the idea of perfection.
They stood up bravely,
And fought.
They had no intentions
Of bringing pain
To those they loved.
They are in our hearts forever and always.
Though they said they were done,
We will always keep on the fighting.
No matter societies views,
The people who stand side by side,
Are what beauty is.
You are all loved....
This has been delayed way to long. This s too all the ones we lost in 2013.... We will always love you.
454 · Feb 2014
A Tempting Fate
Who knew with a tempting fate,
  a monster grew from my heart...
Who knew I would love him,
  and he love me...

Those eyes could see through my soul
His voice pierced my heart
His touch... oh, his touch was so inviting

But truth be told I loved the monster my love have made,
  because I know he is always there in the dark of night.
All he ever tried to do was protect me from the world,
   although with his strength he crushed me.

But my love stays the same
Those eyes could see through my soul
His voice pierced my heart
But with his touch he healed my open wounds

He is the phantom that brings me to heaven,
   and the ghost that brings me to hell.
He is there even if I can't see,
I know he can see me.

Those eyes could see my pain
His voice scared away all the demons
and with his touch, he covered me in warmth...
451 · Feb 2014
Between You and Me
Kiss me, Hit me.
Oh, Am I going to miss the real me.
Bathe me, Battle me.
Whats another bruise anyway.
Catch me, cut me.
Adding to my battle scars.
Why bother leaving.
When I'm without you
a piece of me withers.
Once I see you...
I see the man I once knew.
The man who pulled me
out of hell.
No matter the argument
we pull each other away
from the flame.
You're the man who can save.
But needs saving himself.
Through our battles I have seen
the man that needs me.
The man I need.
Saving one another.
What a life we live.
As the saying goes
Till death do us part.
I love you.
434 · Feb 2014
A New View
Life's window is stained glass
Cracked with imperfections
Shot through with grief and anger.

Life's window is only a piece of glass.
So replace it.
Replace it with a pretty view,
So sun may shine through,
Even on rainy days.

— The End —