Cause your a hard soul to save with an ocean in the way but I'll swim around it.

But do they know how
to craft fiction? Do
they know how to spin lies?

His eyes swear forever,
flatter with vows of only
me. But are they empty promises?

I stare into his eyes as
into a crystal ball but
I cannot find forever,

movies of yesterday
a sketchbook of today,
dreams of a shared tomorrow.

His eyes whisper secrets.
But are they truths of fairy tales?
I wonder if he even knows.

The courage to jump
the brink, let myself fall
beyond the precipice
most people call life.
I've grown tired of
stumbling, skinning
my knees. If flight is
possible without
the sting of growing
wings, let me fly
way, above the madness
to a place where
there is nothing to gamble
but another go round
And, win or lose there
is a chance at something after
the penultimate decision.
Because life, and maybe
death, will always  be
a gamble after all

Guilt it swallows you whole until there's nothing else
It keeps you up and holds you down
And never lets you forget  
The worst feeling ever
It eats away at my mind until all that's left is.....
Guilt

Looking back on life all the decisions I've made
The crazy stupid life changing decisions
I have no regrets.

Bad ideas come from bad influences
The first time was the best
So commonly found around
But different from the rest

The white rabbits were jumping
And the purple haze came in to sight
I could see everything in the dark
And nothing in the light

I guess that's why people go to the dark
You can adjust to see what ever you wanna see
In the light it blinds you
And wanna be free

My thoughts came tumbling
Down the rabbit hole and farther
Breaking nails trying to climb back up
Was significantly harder

There was no sunshine of my love the last time
Only stuck in the shade
My thoughts forming into the pills
Of loneliness and hate

Eventually the dark was too scary
I climbed up into the light
That only mountain I climbed
Was good and right

The cravings went away
But not for a hard days night
It went away eventually
But not without a ****** fight

The the trigger went off
Then the bullet hit my brain
Then the old friends I left behind
Wanted to play a game

We decided to play with guns
It was Russian roulette
It was my turn to play
I can't lose the bet

It was only a pistol in the mind,
But really my old cellphone
This was my last chance
But it was already blown

I called up Alice
She too was a waste
I needed it so bad
Me and my old friends screamed in her face

I did again what I did before
But there was no stopping me
No matter how expensive
No matter what the fee

The last thing I remember
Was religion and souls
I was already alone
Tumbling down the rabbit hole.