Emptiness is how I feel,
Nothing fake and nothing real
It's all in between, just go and see.
My dear, I've filled my destiny
And I do not feel sorry
For all the sins that I have made,
For all good deeds that I have failed.
For I am still bearing my cross
And I can see through us.
The Dark has come, I have no path.
All that is left for now is hope.
Hopeless we are, and so alone
For I have sinned, my sins are right,
For world has none:it's day or night.
I see myself from up above,
I see you all and now I have...
done all that I can do to scream,
But no one hears the voice within.
For all the truth I scream and shout
There is no light, there is no doubt.
I stand alone right on this cliff,
I stand alone and so I crave.
The pandemonium that lies beneath
Is hard, is cold and is so deep.
We want redemption and we ask for it
But no one will ever bring it here.
For all we are has turned to dust
And none of us is free at last.
This heavy sleep we have fallen into
It's not the end, it's the beginning.
The silence that traps this mortality
Is the holy sound of sin and guilt,
For there are few so innocent.
These endless tears that we assume
To have cried, it might be, I presume,
Just a moment spent on the edge;
The prayers we raised to the sky;
It is exactly why we died.
Redemption is what we must search
And we will never find it in a church.
There is nothing else to ask,
We know the answers by ourselves.
Though we ignore this way again
This ignorance will be my end.
I cried so many days and nights,
Not knowing what to do, to say.
I've cried my soul and reached the heights
The pain, the love...it's all been washed away.
No memories from now or from the past,
Gone with the sin, so slow, so fast,
Nothing to overcome and leave behind
No life, no death, no truth, no lie.
The ones that have been close to me
Are nothing but a simple memory.
This soul has closed his gates to all,
I'm just hiding behind this wall.
The cipher of my encrypted life
Should have been always put aside.
This poem of a deadly wish
Is all that has ever existed.
Forgive, forget are common now,
Morality is nothing new.
This sacrifice I made for you,
Has turned me into something cruel.
And I will no more live again,
Forgive me for I have sinned.
Written after certain experiences that made me confused.