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1.3k · Jul 2013
"Colored Mind"
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"Good morning," says the gloomy day,
As colored thoughts come into play.
To loiter in the tricky mind,
Wet caves of light one surely finds.

One expends the nights only to
Restore good feelings which seem true.
In search of light, one tries to bore
Himself to drill through inner core.

The heart longs for tranquility
The head befriends disparity,
The eyes grow big like that of owl's
The words expelled so very foul.

While truth presents with benefit,
The wick of doubt is quickly lit.
However strong one fixed the bind,
The power lies with colored mind.
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808 · Jul 2013
Just "Not"
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It's not forever that you seek
Demands together, 'cause you're weak
In such endeavor, you only reek
Of fatal doubts one ought to tweak.

You are not smart, I tell you that
Distrusts the heart, "Oh, what a ****!"
Your arrogance -- so very squat
The patience shown is simply flat.

It is not love that you hold dear
For losing pride is what you fear
From respect, how fast you veer
So happiness is never near.
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784 · Oct 2013
Slip
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The world steered so peacefully
Birds sang endearingly
Recalling pretty memories
Like how such lovely creatures loitered in the trees

I ran, I walked, I remembered
Around friends and family, my life centered
Loving and caring for the important ones
None could ever grow tired of such reruns

Suddenly, the wind blew so weirdly
The waves left you soaked in despair
Strength and composure lost so quickly
Damage in entirety, just beyond repair

Everything, even water, tastes bitter
The all-time favorites, in a second, lost their fame
The love which used to scatter glitter
Now make you want to erase even your name

Dreamed of a remarkable ending
The delightful onset was such a trip
As the affair grew perfect-looking
Without a warning, devastated by just one slip.
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702 · Jul 2013
"The Scenes"
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I took a little trip
Which somehow went on for too long.
I did not plan for the activity
But reached places I did not want to be in.

Darkness was on the greater side
And only a tiny space for me to escape through.
The scenes had all been witnessed,
But the troubles they had caused still pierced through the surviving heart.

The present reality pulled me back for two seconds,
But the power of negativity was too great.
I made an effort to be stronger and watch the scenes again
And just get over them as quickly as any soul could.

They were haunting and taunting.
However, in the old actuality, they were not that punitive.
How beastly must I had been to be worthy of such affliction.
I guess there just isn't redemption from the terror of the scenes.
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519 · Dec 2013
Pause
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I have not written in a while
And somehow forgotten about my style
Maybe it's because of grieving
And the hard time the past is still giving

There are memories I still want to feel
Although in my smartest recollection, they were never real
The happiness they bring in the present
Will definitely die as time is spent

She is not worth it, but still, I care
From shields of pride, I'm completely bare
For such effect, unsure of the cause
Forgive me, then, for I need a pause.
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444 · Aug 2016
We Were Ungrateful
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I am confident
You got it right, I am confident
We were always told
Told what to do
What to say, what to eat, what to drink
Hell, I was even told how to do them!

Again, you are right
We did not get all that we wanted
You were even told to stay put at times -- most times
Don't do this -- don't do that
You and I heard them quite often
Such painful chests, we did have

Yes, I remember
There were moments, I daydreamed
Told myself, grow fast -- be old
Good lord, you probably even said, be better than them
I know -- I said it, too

Now, what?
What's with the long face looking back?
Is it sadness for reliving those moments?
Naaahhh -- I know that look -- that feeling
Funny, right?
Funny that it actually isn't funny that our wishes came true
Why would it be?

We had great lives -- you and I, all of us
'Course we did!
We now wish we could be told how to fix things
At times, we even wish harder we could have somebody do everything for us
You've always been correct all the way
Certainly, we were ungrateful
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365 · Jan 2016
Spade
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You are my *****
With a mind so sharp to recall my promises
Gentle words to dig into my deepest emotions
Cutting my earth as you move away

Like its handle's length, your patience is an assurance
To teach me and shape me with your metallic perseverance
You are the blade that sculpts me
You are my *******
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333 · Aug 2016
10 Minutes
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That is the time
The time left
Time left for me to share this
To confess of my advanced dishonesty

I had such a hard day
I hope you didn't
Long day at work
Long face at home

Apologies to the girl waiting for me
I may not be sharing my office activities
You wouldn't like it
I wouldn't burden you with sad stories

We will talk about your day
Hope it's a lot better than mine
That should work!
I can vicariously reboot today through you.
"oopsie, done in 4"

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297 · Dec 2015
"Different Now"
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Cares only about own thoughts
Listens to none but the voice in own head
Wants truth but prefers not to handle it
Considers everything that benefits own self

Views are indestructible
Crushes each conversation to dodge loss
Expects honesty for the value of control
Desires good changes - would one know what good is?

Says goodbye to the most adored virtue
Every now and then, respect is often lost
The other half's sadness is irrelevant
Own anger is king

Perspectives  shape-shift
Silence is the friend
Absence is the lover
Ignorance is sanctuary

Old memories show perfection
Looking back, it's quite splendid
Reminiscing is heavens
Wave to such beauty with tears - as it is nothing but **different now
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296 · Feb 2016
"it"
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the word has been hackneyed
it has been for decades, centuries, millenia, lifetimes
you, I, they, we all sought its taste
we craved for the unquantifiable
difficult to understand
generates expectation
invites all the pain there is
common sense becomes uncommon

what is it, anyway?
why do you need it?
why do I or they or we all want it?
its host would not be fed because of it
most do not become any smarter because of it

just like your preferred matters
it is best when brand new
like most edible favorites
poisonous when aged
strikes us when least expected
diminished judgment then becomes vogue
sooner or later you become ugly - inside and out

think before you want it
think before you crave it
think before you look for it
think again before you think you need it
think hardest - before you take **it
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281 · Jan 2016
Souls
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Walk with me
Set your eyes away
Away from me
Away from my face
Our hands may touch
Holding is unnecessary
Appealing souls swarm
Walking past us, by us, with us
They may be off to work
They may be off to home
Some may be at peace
Some may be in darkness
More others of them are part of me or you
Few others, we do love
With shame, few others, we do hate
Maybe someday one of these souls is for you
Maybe one day one of them is for me
Albeit perhaps none of them actually are
They may just be passers-by
Like I to them
Like you to them
Look at them
Appreciate them
They are not enemies
Or reasons for us to be such
I do not intend to push you away
Neither do I plan on giving myself to any of them intently
But they are here
You or I will never have the right
The right to forcefully control the souls around us
The past, the present and the future
These timelines should not be thought of oh so thoroughly
Souls in them may or may not matter
Should we choose among the souls involved in them?
I or you are not the creator or the master of time
So here I am with my plea:
You were not my past
You are my present
I want you to be my future
Yesterday, today, or tomorrow, the souls will be factors
But right now, you are my soulmate
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233 · Jul 2016
Untitled
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Lock your angers away
Toss the loneliness, too
I cannot care if you're afraid
Freedom is for me and you

Your faults or mine are now irrelevant
194 · Jul 2016
Untitled
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Descendants of yesterday
Come forth and resurrect
Diseases of the now
Step back and be hidden

Peace is a luxury

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