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Rayven Rae Jul 2018
i saw you today
only for a moment
not quite a second but that breath
caught in between
like my breath lodged in my ribcage
when all i saw was a streak of auburn
nothing more
and i was paralyzed
just as i am now
as the thought of you has shoved a cement fist
deep into my chest cavity
and i have no words
nothing to put to paper
that can say what i don’t know i feel
i feel you and i don’t know who you are
or why me in the barn
when i glanced up through the sunbeams catching on spiderwebs
the flash of you eclipsed all other light
i don’t know who you are
young and lithe dancing
i don’t know how i know this but i do
and why me
i was only looking for barn cats
i wanted to make secret friends with them
to have something here in this place
that was mine
a secret even so small to hold
gathering a space where i can be myself
and you
not a horse or mule in the field
i checked behind the window
and it wouldn’t have mattered
because neither of their browns came close
to the fire that is you
and i don’t know who you are
i was looking for a secret
i saw you today
Rayven Rae Jul 2018
she comes to me,
open, wanting.

baby...please...

she sighs.
these two words,
more than the sum
of their syllables, distanced from strokes and lines;
beyond mere utterances; desire.

words whispered
in sacred prayer.
this offering up
of all that she is.

and i go to her

heed her calling,
for she is home to me.
every beat of my heart
echoes her name.

she is a promise, kept time and again.
whispers of salvation; this sacredness,
begging to be worshiped.

what have i done to deserve this grace?

there are no gods greater; her skin,
silk beneath my fingertips,
burns away my sins.

i bend my head at this alter.

her curves are highways
leading me forward.

i close my eyes in worship.

raise up thanks,
soul deep in her temple;
absolved.

she opens to me; sighs.
breath balanced on bread,
her holy sacrament
tastes on my tongue.

i inhale her incense,
the scent penetrating my hands,
as time stands still.

she is all i ever want to know,
nothing before, no one after.
i have found my deliverance within the contours of her mouth.

and i trace, in reverance,
line to form; memorizing
every inch offered to me.
she becomes imprinted
within my core.

i tremble at her trembling.

then
i shatter.

i want to offer up to her
something akin
to the gifts
she has bestowed on me.

i open my mouth but words have fled.

instead,
i lay upon her
calla lilies,
tumbled from my tongue.

ribcage opened;
in my most vulnerable state.
i lay exposed,
stripped naked of this skin i inhabit.
i am but muscle and sinew; tendons,
taut cover bone.

these four syllables; expelled breath
baby.....please....
strip away the excess,
leaving only noisy bones.

to her, i give all that i am.
hang hands high
in ancient trees,
the frame of my being,
surrounded by elysian fields.

— The End —