raudha

raudha Feb 2014

faces staring pass
i overlooked not too far
saw myself, faced down

raudha Feb 2014

perfect

i thought perfection didn't exist,
thought it was just a glimpse of hope,
a direction of life into finding someone,
the other half to complete our small lives

i thought i could make do with anyone &
call them "perfect",
since many dreams became pieces,
and many hearts became fragile,
because of a word that cease to exist fully

so i stitched my soul closed,
knowing that it'll never be what it'll be
and that it's all a handful of air,
it's all just a gimmick from the world

until one day,
i came across you.

raudha Feb 2014

veins

i traced the veins of a boy with my eyes
it led to every person on this train
but none to me

raudha Jan 2014

unknown

something about the dark,
that taunts the mind
it holds your dreams,
it stains the light

something about the deep,
that makes feelings go steep
i'm not sure what to say,
but i know there's always a way

maybe it's in a clutter,
which comes when the butterflies flutter
it's not very clear;
i hope it isn't near

i can feel it breathing,
i can hear it's thoughts
it's living;
when i'm hardly thinking

i need all these to go away,
i need my mind to stay sane
it's all an ado,
but what can one do?

raudha Sep 2013

panic

this is true
i panic when you aren’t alright
my thoughts go to you
thinking what went wrong, or why
anything that made you felt that way

i really do not want to come on strong
neither do i want to keep you in the dark
or even leave you alone
because i know how deadly it will be
even though it’s the sweetest thing for one to ever feel

you can least say i’m scared
afraid perhaps
thinking,
"please don’t keep me out, please let it out
let it out on me, we’re in this together”

but i’m not one to say this
when i myself isn’t capable of letting people in
especially in times like that
and just always on thoughts such as those
those
consuming
soul-eating
thoughts

raudha Sep 2013

5 letters: a guess-the-word poem

it's funny how
a five letter word brings us out
a hatful of feelings
you thought once forgotten

the serenity of this word
the air you breathe
isn't it abit more refreshing
when it has come to it's peak?

the ideas you pull out
sounding forcibly sensible
along with it's thoughts
it's not so incredible

maybe the broken can relate
for they're the ones with all the hate
it's not for others
rather the reflections in the mirror

it's funny how this word brings people out
with their souls laid out to rest
the night has helped
have you figured the word out yet?

raudha Sep 2013

solitude

i guess I deserved this
not sure why
but every time you cross my mind
the anger comes in and it swells up inside

it's like an infection really
one that takes determination
to get rid of
but how do one removes it,
when one feels uneasy about?

what i'm trying to say is this
I can't contain the guilt you've left me with
neither can i contain
the feelings that has been evolved

honestly you're not to blame
because I feel like i'm the reason
that caused this all

i'm sorry if it took the best of you
for it left you with nothing temporarily
and i gained something
receiving happiness that isn't deserved

now i'm just living with a guilt
an addiction you left behind
with words you said
spoken and unkind

this is it
a solitary mess
I can never escape this fate
neither can I leave its side

i hope you're happier now
to see me so ill
you belittle me with words
and i'm just engulfing it all in