nothing truly lives that has fear

nothing truly dies that has hope

life or death

its a choice

Are you mad at me
I speak and you don't respond
Are you hiding
I look and I don't see you
Did I make a mistake
I sit here and I wonder
Is there some thing I should have done different
I ask my self
Are things ok
I wish I knew

I never told you
I knew it would hurt
I know you would be afraid

I never told you how
I never told you why
I never told you of the time

It would have been fun
It would have been real
It would have been good

I had temptation
I had an offer
I had an interest

But

I had you
I had a vow
I had a promise

It was love

I don't regret tuning it down
I don't regret staying strong
I don't regret fighting a little longer

I was strong
I was proud
I was honorable

I am those things now
And never lost them
Even tho you are gone

I never told you

Is this happiness
The fairy tale that was promised
The world as we know it
But this money is cold
And this coin offers no comfort
The more I have the more it seems empty
This is not what I want
My soul does not thrive on this bank
But what is it
That made me smile

What is a man
~~~
Man is nothing more then an animal tell proven a soul
~~~
And the heart to love

How do I tell you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the things I feel

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what I did

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what it ment to me

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what I want

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the things I remember

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the happiness and joy you brought to me

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how badly I want to hold you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how much it hurts not to have you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how I still dream about you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how much it hurts not to have you in my life

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you I love you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you

I say "it's ok" because I know that you know

I crave you
I want you
I wait for you

My eyes spot you
My eyes move along your body
My eyes study you carefully

Slowly I draw near
Slowly may hands grip your body
Slowly I push you to the wall

You look up at me
You bite your lip nervously
Your heart starts to beat faster and faster

I come closer my body against yours
I come closer my lips finding your neck
I come closer my warm breath rolling down your tender skin

Can you feel it, my heart beat
Can you feel it, my hunger
Can you feel it, my need for you

The feeling of my teeth to your neck
The feeling of my nails sliding down your back
The feeling of my lips to yours taking your breath away

A sound, a gasp
A sound a grunt
A sound a soft moan

This is how it begins...

What to say
What can I say I haven't said a thousand times
I wish I knew

When I speak it hurts
My words cutting like knives in you skin
Leaving red lines

I don't want to hurt you
I wish I know how to say every thing in my heart
It can't be said

You know how I feel
I would cut my chest with a knife and let it all spill out
If it made you smile

You know my heart
You felt it beat as you lay your head on my chest falling asleep
I remember

It was so good
I never regret any of it
always happy

So many dreams
There are still so many things left to do
I know how I feel

There is no confusion
Those days are gone and all there is left is desire
There is no pain

I will carry on
I think of you all the time
I miss you

I never left
There is nothing to make me abandon you
It is alright

Here I stand
I am not broken any more
Truly strong

I had so many names for you
Non could express how special you where
How many do you remember

Deeply wishing
I could see your smile light up
One more time

I digress
I know you can't let your self hear me
So I hold my self back

I hide
I will do as you ask if it pleases you
Vanishing unspoken

Just know
Those three words
That is all

It was all I ever needed
All I ever wanted

Just

All

Have you ever had a problem you could not answer?
It grows in my mind like a cancer

Have you ever see some one whos heart was in pain?
I would do any thing to break that chain

Is there really nothing I can do?
I know, all I can do is be here for you.

This moment

Looking in your eyes

Holding you as you fall asleep

I could die happy

But this moment is more then that

I could die happy

Or

Live to see you

Tomorrow

Would you die for some one

Or

Live for them forever

This moment is more

I would live for you

My Love

My Life

My future

My...

You and                me
Two years ago       to this day
I got some thing  amazing like never
Held it in my hands for the first time
It burned so bright and felt so pure
I was so scared but so at piece
Please don't break it......
You gave it to me......
I gave you mine...
Our heart..
Our soul.
Love